Day 51

Another 'hea' day in college, maybe it's due to the upcoming exam tomorrow.

I still have yet to finish all revision or worse still, i have given no thought on the exercise due this friday.... but seriously, if I blew this exam and everything will be over...... better concentrate on revision and revision only till tomorrow.

Got a PT test late in the afternoon, some aspect has improved.... but push up and chin up is still weak..... what must i do to improve??

Weekend.

Weekend was spent at home.

Saturday..... was very sick and tired, nose keep running..... must have been infected by some of my colleague here.....

Nothing beat a good bed rest.

Sunday, finally feeling stressed...... was spent mostly on studying......

Not too productive in weekend, as always.....

Day 50

Gosh, I was being lazy with updating here.

But in fact, the day 50 in college gone by without much interesting point.

I was once again, not selected as commander in exercise today..... thus my first time as commander will be in a 'assessment' exercise..... good or bad, i dunno..... fingers crossed.

Revision and more revision that day.

Glad to spent some time with ex-hallmates in Mong kok that night...

Day 49

Another burning day...

Saw the 'black notice' (temperature notice of over 32C) on my way to report on duty at 7...... I knew this is going to be hell of a day. Fortunately the morning drill today was short and we can wear training kit rather than full kit for the drill..... but still...... i'd rather not talk about it.

Had a guest lecture on triad... pretty interesting topic..... makes me want to get into the real world soon and bust them all up.

Got some time for self study after lunch time, i needed such time.

Revolver course in the afternoon. I did okay. Now we have moved from grouping to scoring, which means we'll have to hit a certain portion of body in order to score..... 5 marks for direct hit, 2 for acceptable/close hit, and minus 5 for any missed shot. 3 hands of bullet, 84 out of 90. Not too bad. I'm glad I now have mastered a bit of aiming and the trigger control and my bullets are doing better..... still some room for improvement tho.

Later

Day 48. Meeting with CP.

Quite an important day in my life.

Since switching to this new career of mine. Today it's the first time I meet with the Top Boss. The Commissoner of Police has paid a visit to Police College and meet with the students here. He's nothing but another police officer.... but his self-confidence and his at-ease attitude is something that i admire of. I guess I've made quite an impression on him when presenting today.... this could be a good sign.... maybe I'll end up in this job longer than I intended.... who knows?

Today is rather routine, the same heat and wet weather.....

Feeling the pressure of study.... must work now.

Day 47.

Slept extremely early last night......

But still feel tired in the morning.... what the heck?

Once again, procastination over revision..... Exam in less than a week.... with a lot of things cramping in..... what must I do?

Went for RECCE tonight at Tin Wan. Got a plan for the upcoming operation, now need the logistic sorted out.

Footdrill training then followed by PT session..... Fitness test today. Some improvement in JCR test (JCR stands for Jump, Chin up and Shuttle Run), for 2.4km run. I really did try my best today, and I'm a bit surprised with the result too.... 10'47"..... still some way from the best of my class.... but at least, i tried and i have no regret.

PS. I gained 2.4kg during this month..... what happened?

Day 46.

Once again. I felt my progression trapped in some bottle-neck area.

I knew that should i strive harder i'd have a much better result. But i just didnt do a thing about it..... letting chances slip by.......

Same case here. Just work harder, even by 1 % will already show the difference.

Am I ready to make this tiny step?

I hope.

Time to get real serious.

Weekend.

Weekend, as usual, pretty much wasted.

Must get serious.

Finally finished copying the NSP for 30 times......

I'll never make such low grade mistake ever again.

Very tired...... feeling the stress of exam and PSUC exercise shadowing over me.....

Maybe that's what i need. A surge of cortical steroid and adrenaline. Feel so alive.

Looking forward to tomorrow. Must grab some sleep now.

Belated Day 45.

Forgot to blog on friday.

It was a pretty normal day.

Morning went for a 10km run to clear water bay. Just simply hot.

Lectures afterwards.....

Went out and meet with sister that night. Great to see her. She must be fabulous on her wedding 5th of Sept. Looking forward.

Meet up with Jeff and co later that night. It's good to chill out with friends once in a while.

Day 44.

Went for RECCE in Tin Wan today. Will be the commander for a operation on 4th Sept..... nervous.

Range lesson. Bitter and sweet. My condition is back with result 10m 4", 4", 15m, 4", 20m, 6".... but also got 'rewarded' for 30 times NSP copying...... damn.

Great dinner with Horace, Kathy, Jon and Samuel Lun tonight...... great to have such good friends.

I'm tired now.... Later then.

Day 43.

Whole day PSUC exercise.

Not too bad. Pretty good experience.

It's indeed very challenging when facing suspect.

I felt i did quite well as a second in charge today.

Hoping for the chance as commender.

Very sleepy now. Later.

Day 42.

Ordinary day..... so and so.

Had 2 Lectures today..... really it's time to work hard.

Revolver Handling..... feeling a bit confident for thursday range course. Hope the weather is not too bad that day.

Footdrill, as usual, wet and hot like hell.

Got a chance to play football afterwork with Course Instructor..... it's fun.

Really tired now, and tomorrow's PSUC exercise One is one 'make or break' lesson..... must do my best. Sleep now, Later.

Pro-Marriage Ad by Singapore Government.

Quite meaningful.

Day 41

How fast is time running?

Time gone by so fast during my sleep that I rarely get enough of it.

Time during footdrill seems a stand still... torturous.

Everything in relativity, once you like it, you'll forget all time constraint.....

I hope I can love the life here more..... that shall make my days easier.

Today, awesome dumbbell session in the morning, I missed the days when I was training in the air-conditioned gym than here..... but still, it's really exhausting but yet fun.

Self study time..... cant get enough of it.

Afternoon..... crazy footdrill..... the kind of 'drill till you die' approach...... Hot, wet...... feeling my core body temperature could be a few fehrenheit from dying...... really crazy.....

I'm already sleep now.... must finish all my reading soon and sleep. Later.

In inferno hell.

15 minutes more in that damn drill square and surely someone is going to die.

Felt like magma is inside my body.... burning all the time.

Heart beating irregularly....... it's true, I can really feel it's empty inside, coz all my blood's been drained out as sweat already......

Horrible.

Week 8.

Another wasted weekend..... probably what i needed most.

Looking back at the past 8 weeks, have i changed? In any sense?

Physically, of course, getting much fitter and is sweating more and more....

Mentally. A bit. Still lazy, but surely I'm much more efficient in doing my tasks.

Diet and lifestyle. A lot. Have no thoughts previously that 10 o'clock is time for bed.... but it's true, more sleep = easier day tomorrow. That means I should probably sleep now. Later then.

Day 40

Week 8 has passed without much problem.

By far the easiest week in terms of physical requirement. Dunno why but I feel a bit slacked off.... maybe some stress will drive me to do better.

Gym in the morning. Some light stretching and swimming only, Record for 25mX2 breast stroke: 1'04". Considering I was incapable of swimming this time 3 months ago. Not too bad.

Footdrill.... the usual heat and wet..... What's the point?

Deception lecture...... concepts concepts and more concepts.

Self study time given in the afternoon. Such time are hard to come by.....

Extra footdrill (again!)...... Got nothing left to say.

Night had dinner with squadmates and some shopping. When returned to hostel I joined the 'sisters' for some chit-chat..... not a bad way of team building.

So sleepy now..... got first aid lesson tmr. Good night.

Day 39.

Closing to another week at police college.

Once again, nothing too physical today.

Morning lecture on Criminal damage.... up till this date I started feeling some stress as I know I cant remember all the definitions..... especially those i dont understand..... must work hard in the weekend for this.

Meet with some Police from China..... it's really fortunate for us to enter directly as inspector than doing all the PC's work......

Tactics lesson..... once again, said is easier than done.... keep calm, never lose the coolness in any heat situation.

Lovely dinner with Kennon and Ewing..... it's been a while really..... appreciate the chance~

Day 38

Attitude is everything.

Dunno why I feel so tired today. Both mentally and physically.....

Can hardly focus myself in the task given.

Even the range course..... obtained a shameful result. 10m, 1st 4", 2nd, 6" 3rd, 8" clearly I'm fXXking around..... 15m 6", I certainly need better effort in this next time.

Drilled till my soles were worn out..... I hate the heat in the drill square.

Very tired now.... better sleep. Later then.

Day 37

Another day of mo liu-ness......

Maybe it's a good thing, meaning I've finally adapted to life here. But on the down side..... maybe the adrenaline-giving, the thrilling sensation of training in here has died down a bit.......

Morning, Exam debriefing..... i should have scored more if i am more careful.... but it's no use to cry over spilled milk...... gotta be more careful next time.

Really drowsy during lecture in the morning, possibly because last night I've work the squad's finance till almost midnight...... glad to have a coffee break and immediately loaded up with caffine before continue for class again.

After lunch, footdrill session..... maybe it's been a really long time since we drilled, i felt my arms were flaccid and can hardly catch up with the beat...... the weather is killing as well, no wind, humid and hot....... simply a horrible 2 hours in the drill square.

Resistance Control, today's subject was on the use of handcuff...... a really useful tool~

Extra PT session...... ran the whole 5 km course in 25 minutes. Running is a very good way of training mentality..... during the course you'll enter a state of mindlessness, you cant feel your muscle pain or action, but seems like you're a ghost drifting, the only driving force is your mind telling you to go on, the devil will speak to you..... you'll think of the even most bizzare excuse for not running...... but once you fight that, you keep on running..... to a stage when you know you've completed the course....... you then feel a bit of loneliness.... knowing that it's now all over. (and possibly whining because you knew you can run better etc.....) You can only place your hope till next time.... and you'll curse while you run again..... what a dilemma......

Tomorrow is going to be fun (apart for the footdrill in morning and afternoon). Range course, 24 bullets again. This time on 15m target. Look forward to feeling my pulse and my raging heart, the feeling is so nice.

Day 36

A day of "mo liu"ness......

Dunno if I'm too adapted to an exhausting life in Police College. Today where there's time for self study and lectures I feel so unused to them.....

The gym class in the morning is awesome. It's so tiring but yet satisfying, the only bad side being the tireness when the lactic acid started oozing out in the afternoon, cant help but doze off occassionally.

Really..... nothing much happened the whole day......

No news is good news, right?

Will spent tonight for some admin work and revision, better to clear the books before they got piled up.

Later then~

Lazy weekend.

Once again, the weekend was spent idly. I needed such a break coz the intense life at Police College is soon driving me nuts.

Saturday, a short nap and then meet up with dental mates for Yvonne's belated birthday celebration. Cool time~

Later than night spent with James, Jon and Kat. Was in inside out again for drinks...... a bit like the days we were in secondary school, so carefree.

Sunday, constantly dozing off...... had gone back to the hostel and clean up the room for inspection..... time to put in some more effort here.

So tired now, must sleep and get at least 6 hours before a long day tomorrow. Later.

Day 35

Another day of curry in Police College (Curry is served on every friday), meaning a new week is about to come.

Morning, 3 hours footdrill, bright sun...... sweat like hell.

Was forced to run to clear water bay..... once again, under the sun...... today is surely one of the most physically demanding day ever in training.

During lecture time today I just cant resist the occassional dropping of eye lid.... that's real bad, but i cant stop it.

Tactics hands-on practice. Was stabbed twice when dealing with suspect..... it's better to learn and commit mistake in here than to risk my life and learn it the hard way outside......

Went to sing K with colleague and had a night drink with them...... they're awesome people. Proud to have worked along side with them.

Really tired now. Later.

Day 34

Day 34 in Police College.

A very hot day. I cant stop my sweat from dripping everywhere during footdrill in the morning.

Resistance control was getting more and more practical, been taught the blocking and striking with baton. Real fun~

Was having big trouble with lecture today, "handling stolen goods"..... have no idea how this offence work.

In the afternoon it's absolutely show time for me. I feel (at least up till this stage) I'm a good shooter. Fired 24 bullets today. Grouping, First round, 4 inch, with one bad shot. Second round, 4 inch, with one bad shot. Third round, 4 inch. Forth round, 4 inch. Great result. But frankly, I've never expected it took me almost 90 minutes to finish that 4 rounds..... time seems to pass so slow in the range (with all those examine arms and reloading procedure). By the time when I leave, I can hardly feel my index finger..... must improve on this.

Had some free time in the evening and had a self-initiated physical training session...... really wet, but really happy afterwards.

Had a wonderful dinner and a round of drinks with colleagues at the mess. Lovely conversation.... sometimes, some laughters is what we needed the most. Had a conversation with Issac, Aegean and Rocken later..... i'm glad to have formed some 'blood brothers' in here. What i needed the most.

Also, I feel I'm not as isolated (in terms of my way of thinking) in here..... really glad to know that.

Day 33

Rather uneventful day.

Maybe I've finally adapted to the pace of life here.

And adequate hours of sleep certainly helps too (I'm going to sleep soon)

PT in the morning is kind of killing...... circuit training with a combined total of 300 push ups, squats, back extension and reverse leg extension.... feel the pain deep down to my bones.

Started learning laws (eg. offences), which is comparatively much more easier than the Force Values and procedures.

Extra footdrill in the rain. Feels I'm going to shake my arms off...... gosh.

Now it's time for revision and sleep. Later.

Day 32.

My prediction last night was right.

Typhoon actually hit Hong Kong, though it's only a signal 3, but the rain it brought is quite considerable.

Having foot drill under such condition is quite fun.

Still sleepy today.... I guess I've burnt myself too hard over the last few days.

Today is the first 'official' lesson by my Course Instructor. Um..... not a bad start.

Better bath soon and sleep soon. Later.

Day 31.

Test 1 in the whole morning. Been staying up for study for almost the whole night. Feeling dizzy and malaise the whole day.

The test was okay. Not too hard. But once again, because of the lack of effort i put in the result is not as expected.

67.5 out of 100 marks.

Was the 6th in my squad and 7th in the whole intake. Not too bad. But if I were to satisfy with such mediocre result i'd better not be staying here.

Time to put in more effort.

Suddenly, I longed for a typhoon to hit Hong Kong.

Especially when I was having footdrill in heavy showering rain this afternoon.

Why not?

Test 1.

Test 1 is now over.

Not too hard, but some are very tricky questions.

Not too worried about passing...... but with good scores seems very distant.

Not to think too much about it now. Just wait till 3 hours from now when result is released.

Wastage in weekend.

Seems that I'm still my old self.

Always waiting till last minute.

Saturday, Morning wasted on First Aid course.

Noon, got back home and take a nap till night.

Early sleep.

Sunday..... wasted the whole day till late afternoon when my 'potentials' must be squeezed.......

A lot to study.

A lot to memorize.

Gosh. I can now feel the fear inside of me.