One week in SCIC

Seriously, I have no idea why people said it's paradise in training.

I have to wake up early for work and there're just too many things happening at once that require attention here in training, but minus my familiar resources... Is this really so enjoyable?

I keep my fingercrossed things will get better soon enough.

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Things didnt go too well at training... tedious tasks... and the same clueless exercises.... damn.

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It's funny how life can go... when you think your life is screwed, this world tease you with unbelievable luck.

17th March, 2012. Talk show by Tsim Shui-man. Looking forward.

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Last weekend I spent with Angela, Chow Fai couple at Horace's place.

Good food and laughters can brighten up a bad day :)

Thank you friends, I treasure every second with you guys.

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Last but not least, I feel very proud to offer my best wishes to my best mate, Jeffrey Lai. This friend I know had become someone's fiance~

I just cant wait to see his wedding~

Congratulations mate!

Starting over, again.

Probably my life in the past year and half was just a mess...

Looking back... I've done nothing... but instead to allow myself to rest in a false sence of contention and security... and to numb my senses with all sort of temporary enjoyment...

But now, i feel the blandness in life... I am craving for more. At the very least, I wish to get back my own life. I am saying this as I felt I've probably spent too much time on work and nothing else...

I always coach others that 'work is only work but no more'.... Am I living up to what I preach? Doubtful.

Spot a problem, and it's not time to rectify it. First step, hopefully by engaging myself to the stuff that I use to love, eg. blogging.

Hopefully I will write here (again) on regular basis.

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Last night was rough.... crazy dreams all night... crazy running, careless driving and much more, it's like arcade game or movie... I woke up in sweat and a pounding heart..... probably my body's response to stress (self induced stress that is, from not studying well before exam)..... but it's a good one, as I woke early and manage to have a clear mind.

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The exam went well today, though I've really read little, the exam paper was fair and I manage to write an answer to most questions (that's no mean feat already if you have attempted the Standard 3 exam [promotion exam]). The result was still pending, it wouldnt be too good or bad but surely it's an pass... well, whatever, the remaining 7 weeks will be holiday for me.

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Caught a drink with Horace and Dinner with Jeff tonight... many happy times~ Looking forward to more to come.

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For all the good/bad reasons, I was viewing the photos of my past, especially the days I had in police training... really I felt quite sentimental.

I once thought all good things in life will remain and the story goes happily everafter... I was naive. But instead of losing myself in remorse, I think it'd be more beneficial for me to pick myself up and get going. Memento Mori and life is too short.

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Well, I'd really get to bed now.... tomorrow will be another long day.

See you here in a short while, I promise.

It's been a while again.

I am visiting this place far less than I'd have wished... Partly because of the busy workload.... and that there seems less and less things that's worth mentioning here...

Feeling that my life's grew stagnant of late...

My heart is dying for a change... but somehow, change requires a lot of effort...

What I feared most is finally starting to show... the lure of comfort and familiarity.

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Well... there had been quite a few things in this past three weeks.

First of all, I've handled my first major crime, a rape case that happened in Ap Lei Chau. Thankfully nothing went wrong at scene, but looking back, there were a number of things that could/should have done and done faster... well, consider it a lesson learnt.

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Secondly, despite my insistence of not visiting the lunar market ever again year-after-year.... I still visited, for good reason. Well... guess I'm the traditional guy afterall....

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Got enrolled in detective training course now... the course was far more intensive than what I anticipated.... feeling drained everyday...

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Worse still.... I'm only blogging here to numb my anxious mind.... tomorrow is the exam of the course and I have not much faith on it..... Sigh.... wish me luck...

It's been some crazy three weeks.

As titled.

Can't imagine how much I have endured and how much bad luck I faced in my last three weeks...

Really, work seems never ending...

Call from boss, from prosecutor, from colleagues every day.

To be frank... it's really some crazy life.

But I guess I have found a place where I feel satisfaction.

A new challenge everyday, and an exciting one, one that I simply can not afford to lose.

Boss been great, staff too.

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Life, seems to finally get back on track. At least a bit :)

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Handled a case of rape tonight... in the middle of my already crowded night.

At first, I had a bit of resentment... why me mentality come out totally... but then, seeing the outrageous nature of the case, and the brotherhood in the team starts to show... it's been one hellish freezing night... we've been so deprived of sleep... but yet, our aim in arresting that son of a bxxch carry us through...

Been really good experience, learning from big boss, talking to the pros of CSI and forensic pathologist etc.... felt so fruitful.

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Mentality is the difference of two world. Thank you for letting me experience it firsthand tonight.

Written at the 20th hours of work and 44 hours lack of sleep.

Past and Present.

It's been a long while, again.

Hardly imagine it's now 2012 already.

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Still, work's okay.... concentrating in work each day.... really stressful but I must make it... it's a place where I feel alive (that's a rare feeling for me)...

Been working during christmas time mostly.... so there wasnt a lot of celebration.

I did attend to parties on boxing day, as part of the tradition. This time, two parties. Good to meet up with friends.

A lovely dinner with mates at Royal Garden Hotel on the 27th. Ran into someone doing his proposal... interesting~

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I've switched team, once again. This time I had a really great farewell with my mates, though I was a bit drunk~ Hopefully I can chill out with them again (if by some luck, maybe I really can).

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Met with Ewing and Kennon and Co. during christmas.

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New Year's Eve. Celebration in TST... got trapped in a large crowd... sorry to be late~

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Here I am again... happy memories becoming less and less... and each day pass by without noteworthy things..... price I have to paid for growing up?

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Suddenly have a thought of going back to school...

Hectic days.

Again...

Seems like I'm lost in work again.

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Just simply crazily busy at work...

Tedious, minor tasks everyday... but yet... each one of them is how they judge an inspector...

Seemingly... my luck was only fair.... though not with extremely heavy workload, but my work need a lot of back-and-forth before getting it done... Really.... it can be quite tiring at times.

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I start to hate my 7-11 life... work is occupying my whole day and left me with no time whatsoever for socializing.... Felt so lonely at times...

Fate?

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Hoping for a upward turn. I have had enough lately.

Time to write some thoughts here before I lost my memory.

I was posted to a new CID team. (Maybe a good thing for me.... I was really struggling with the workload of my previous team... maybe too many complex cases?)

New people means adaptation, but thankfully, the team seems very sharp. And the previous inspector did not leave too many stuff behind.... so it's okay for me.

I started to taste the joy, and the bitterness of CID life.

The joy was the detection of a crime case, planning the strategy and capture the offenders...

Bitter was the workload that follow afterwards...

I have no idea why time seems so limited on every case.... the minute you got the person arrested, the next minute you are planning on your upcoming few days' action, and get prepared!!! It's a tough task but I was well advised by my sergeant... so it's okay thus far...

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Cant believe I can really work on 19 hours straight just on one case..... and I can forsee more to come.....

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Whilst I was enjoying myself at work... there are always other aspect in life that I am forgoing....

Friendship, Love and Family.... Are all these an equal trade off??

I am confused...

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Why can't life be simple?

Another week.

Becoming more and more amnesic lately.

Yes, it's busy as hell.... but the memories pass like a breeze...

Waking up in shambles everyday... dead walking to office and do my work...

I was feeling numb... arrest, no arrest... I dont care that much... as long as I get the work done...

Feeling the pressure of my post... too many things happening at the same time.

Or maybe, my subconciousness just told me to filter all the unhappy memories... 4 years felling from height and dead... suicidal mom with her child missing... such horrible events kept happening each day...

Maybe, afterall.... being indifferent is not too bad.

I must stay strong.

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At such turbulent time... I need to find my anchor.

Can I depend on you?

王菲 - 我願意

No matter how bizarre the act may seems, if it can make you happy, I'll definite do it.

"Something stupid"

Life... dragging on.

Life in crime is not easy.

I'm currently living in a depressed stage...

It seems... I'm busy for nothing... the work is overwhelming me on every aspect...

Everything takes time... isnt it?

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It's December already...

Almost one year.

The first few steps is always the hardest... I'm still working on it.

Looking forward to Saturday.