Friend of Foe?

Rough, rough sleeping lately... constantly haunted by dreams... they are such a nightmare that keep me up whole night, or sometimes, they're sweet but i wake in the middle of the dream to see the cruel reality, that's when i almost go demented...

Received a rather unusual summon by my tutor.... he has referred me a case (originally handled by a junior of mine) with management problem..... I really cant judge his motive.... whether he is confidence in my patient management skills or is he just finding a scapegoat such that later he can put all the blame on me? I really cant tell...... All i want to do is to finish the case real fast and get him discharged from my patient care pool.....

Paid a visit to grandpa today, he seems quite okay but we're still worried over his condition.... how tiny human beings are....

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Lies.

Liar Liar... Jim Carrey

情迷大話王... 黎明

Proof is everything
because
Seeing is believing.

就是愛你 - 陶吉吉

我 一直都想對你說
你給我想不到的快樂
像綠洲給了沙漠

說 你會永遠陪著我
做我的根 我翅膀
讓我飛 也有回去的窩

我願意 我也可以
付出一切 也不會可惜
就在一起 看時間流逝
要記得我們相愛的方式

就是愛你愛著你 有悲有喜
有你 平淡也有了意義
就是愛你愛著你 甜蜜又安心
那種感覺就是你

All Blank.

Sorry for not writing here for the few days counting... everytime i wanted to start writing i just feel confused.... too much has happened in such short time and i could hardly accept them all...

Finally got my Aquamarine bracelet.... however... it is still waiting for its master...

It's so easy to run into people you know in CB.... just start thinking and there he/she goes, right in front of your eyes..... heard that my friends are not doing all too well lately.... just wish them luck and take care.

Gave tutorial on Sunday and created a whole lot of problems afterwards.... I'm willing to rectify the problem but i just dont know how...

Started to feel ill on Sunday night...

I believed my friends would agree that i am a person who rank friendship before romantic relationship... but this time, i might have to fail you... I'm going to do utmost, even to sacrifice, in order to maintain the relationship... it's a tough decision... but i have made up my mind.

Cold War.

學不會 - 吳克群

故事結束那天 天氣是怎樣的美
現在的我沒有感覺
你在我的世界 來去自由的飛
翅膀揮舞著我的傷悲
我還陷在裡面 你早已投入另外情節

在我心裡 藏著一種美
是我永遠都無法告別
你的笑容 好像還沒完全
故事卻急著走到完結
還來不及學會
有些事我永遠都學不會

學不會 望著你而沒有感覺
學不會 忽視你的美
學不會 翻故事最後一頁
學故事裡的狼狽 無聲頹廢 我學不會

在我心裡 藏著一種美
是我永遠都無法告別
撕去故事裡的最後一頁
假裝一切都還沒完結

還來不及學會
有些事我永遠都學不會
學不會

AGM

Once again, I have put myself in another AGM situation.

Both liked it and hated it... the good thing about AGM is that it really bond the whole 'chong' together... that'll be some of their own collaborative memories, so precious.... it also give me the kind of pressure to drive me to do better, for i know i cant fail their expectations.... it is exactly this commitment giving me my drive and appetite for success....

But on the other hand. I hated the AGM so much that at some point of my life i have even sworn that i will never get involve in any one of them again (probably when i had just chaired serveral GMs or being the Returning Officer non stop for days...) What i dislike is the atmosphere when people are not trying to discuss, but to blame. It's always the easy part to lay a finger on somebody's else work and said improvements can be made..... but frankly.... can you do a better job when you're in charge? Do you really "THINK" you can do better than the one you're laying blame on? Grow up people... you're just naive and blind.

I always take AGM as a theater... the sheung chong need to 'act' in order to teach the next chong and when the sheung chong need to give excuses to their sheung chong as well..... okay, if you say this is the tradition, then it's okay... but mostly people are just over exploiting this occassion as a stage for him/her to show how superior he/she is than you.... it's not really meant to be like that.

As previously mention... AGM is just an act... what you see, what you hear may not be the complete picture of the fact (i didnt say they're lies though)..... they are just the 'script'.... script that keep its auidence happy..... for seeing is believing.... however... there are far more behind a report.... I've lost the momentum even to debate with them my decision for i knew things that they dont.... i'd rather keep it to myself... saying sorry for things that you havent done wrong is hard, but it's a more convenient way than to argue with all the people there~

Started feeling growing up for one more time....

I have not, in my previous entries, express my gratitudes towards the ADOC chongmates.... though we have conflicts and even fights during the preparation period, I truly regard all of you as brothers and sisters of mine.

Thanks Horace, for your patience and easiness;
Thanks Hon Ki, for your leadership;
Thanks Chow Fai, for your dedication;
Thanks Creamy, for your drive to perfection;
Thanks Jacky, for your encouragments;
Thanks Jo, for your constant flow of ideas;
Thanks Kai, for your planning.

Most important of all, We Have Made It. Without anyone of you all these will not be Possible. Thank You.

Congratulations for offically stepping down for the post.

"能愛著你　不怕寂寞
為你失眠都不錯"
為你失眠 - 吳日言

Looking forward.

Went browsing the Hong Kong Dental Council webpage.... found my sister's entry in the registered dentist..... When will the same happen to me?

Missing my dear sister~

愛是傻得起

Suddenly.... missing the the previous me... the kind of single-minded, and the ability to do things according to what i think is right.... am i... really different after all these years?

Very impressed by the notes i made in year 1... i still find them useful up till this day... If i can do it then, i am sure i can do it now (more appropiately speaking... I MUST)

Once again.... back to a state when i no longer care about how the people sees me... that's their own business..... all i cared is me and the people i love.... that's it.

"In times of sadness and misery, from you eyes, I can always find faith and hope out of them."

愛是傻得起 - 黎明

大家不知結果　害怕甚麼

誰人若然被愛過　如何未曾受傷過
誰亦為執著結果　最後也賺到經過

來吧若然共我　險也冒過　不怕愛得傻
難道互相研究
過來日才能渡過恩愛十年　會避免差錯
就算青春消磨　曾經快樂過　別辨認因果

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

承認舊時極好勝　還是舊時沒本領
懷念舊戀人笑聲　領會愛是個心境

談情在乎任性　想要盡慶不要太聰明
從未望到墓誌銘
誰又明白共你可會白頭　趁現世高興
為你一刻激情　無需靠悟性　任命運註定

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

Sedentary....

Becoming more and more lazy these days... this is no good.

I wanna meet my friends soon~

Kawaii patient~

She's in her best dress...

Brining alone my favourite item when she came to see me this morning...

She's a patient of mine.

When i hold her hand... I was so nevous...

When she kissed me on my cheek... i melt....

When she said goodbye... my heart broke....

Who is this lady??

Wa Ha Ha..... she's my lovely 5 years-old paedo patient... never imagine she'd bring a Stitch doll with her to the dental chair... that really cheer me up~ Must study harder in Paedo..... for they are really lovely~

It's time to get serious finally.... i can feel the heat and the tense atmosphere. "Trust in thyself." That's what i believed.

........... Where are you now?

離人節 - 蔡依林

在我們的故事　寫下結局前　
請你　聆聽最後尾奏的音樂
幸福漸遠　心跳漸弱　
回音在休止符後停留了　好久

當每一個當下　變成過去後　　
自由　也許是離人們的折磨　
在狂歡時寂寞　從絕望裡復活　　
才明白愛會隨時間　逐漸成熟

從那一天　原諒你的瞬間
我不過情人節　我和未來不再相戀　
愛斷了線　於是我每天都過想你的離人節　
不再見面不代表我　不再對你想念
你是曾經的永遠　會永遠在我身邊

Finally.... It's over.

The Faculty of Dentistry, Annual Dinner 2006 has ended.

Finally.... It's over....

No longer have to work nonstop through out the night or wake in the middle of a short nap just not to miss an important call....

Finally....

Though with flaws in the programme and conflicts among the OCs..... but in the end, we have really enjoyed the event (but not the food though.... coz we're all too busy working.... didnt really taste the food there) and put on a good show..... that's what matters.

Touched when finally taking polaroid with OCs..... feels like time freezes and the best part of the night is forever engraved in my memory.

The lovely crystal now sitting on my desk shall remind me of the work and tears behind all these~

For now the work is finally over.... i can really spent some time to think and do things that i think is worthy..... leave alone what the others think.

Spent the day clean my room.... If i cant take good care of myself... how can others expect i can take care of them?

奇洛李維斯回信 - 薛凱琪

我不難過... 可以嗎?

真的...受傷了...

"我搞不懂　我們到底怎麼了
誠實的背後　是否住著傷口
我想不透　我們的愛怎麼了
雨下過以後　是否能讓什麼復活"
我們怎麼了 - S.H.E.

Still working....

So tired...

Got no mood to write too much..... just feeling sick....

but luckily the majority of things have been finished.

The Game's ready (it's a real good one..... if i dont have to worry about leaking the game before the dinner i will not be able to restrain myself in posting them here.)

Rundown has been rehearsed....

Present are almost ready....

Sponsorship is okay now...

Design finalized.....

Finally feel some confidence....
It's gonna be okay (assuming that i dont suddenly die when i am typing this entry.)

I miss home and hall..... the beds are so cozy....

Feeling indifferent to carbonated drinks already.... are there any difference among them?

I guess i am the one needing first aid treatment instead of learning them in class....

At War.....

In chamber of war right now.....

Guess what? At this time of the night..... all eight members of the annual dinner OC are now working in an internet cafe in CB.... diligently working on all situations that may come up on Saturday.....

Never feel so intense pressure.....

Brain cells slowly draining....



We cant be defeated..... it's a war we cant lose.

Have faith and confidence.....

We'll rock the stage!!

Good Show.

Confidence.... this is what i needed most right now.

I can do it..... more appropiately.... We can do it.

Strive hard, Annual Dinner Organizing Committee. We will make a real good 'show' this saturday.

Please wish me luck.

W: No matter what you do... I have made my choice.

"I was Born to Love You - Queen"

Wander.

Never ever wanted to wander again.

Wandering mindlessly today, visit places filled with memories.... Shatin, Mong Kok, KCR platform, TST, Hung Hom, Central..... and of course...... the campus...

Grew so tired of wandering.

I am just scared... when you are not by my side.

If I was given the choice, I just wanted to let you know how much I wanted to stay with you for ever and ever.

To my Somebody, "To the world you maybe somebody, but to me, You are my World."

每次醒來...

Mood and condition was in record low this 2 days.

Totally exhausted...

You know how frustrating is it to doze off in a bus and found that you have ended up in aberdeen cause you just cant wake? This happen to me far too common this week already..... I am sure if there is one more sleepless night that would mark the end of my life.... my body just cant take it anymore.....

紀念... 紀念日...

笑忘書 - 張敬軒

要　背負個包袱　再　跳落大峽谷
煩惱　用個大網將你捕捉
還是你　拋不開拘束
你　昨夜發的夢　到這夜已告終
沉下去　頭上散落雨點沒有彩虹
你　還在抱著記憶　就似塊石頭很重

得到同樣快樂　彼此亦有沮喪　
童話書從成長中難免要學會失望　
經過同樣上落　彼此墮進灰網　
沉溺　煩擾　磨折　何苦　多講

我　快樂到孤獨　我　缺乏到滿足
遊戲　就算愉快不會幸福
人大了　開心都想哭
我　每日要生活　我　每日要鬥苦
捱下去　連上帝亦也許沒法攙扶我　
前路有右與左　面對抉擇難兼顧

得到同樣快樂　彼此亦有沮喪　
童話書從成長中難免要學會失望　
經過同樣上落　彼此墮進灰網　
沉溺　煩擾　磨折　何苦　多講

擁有同樣寄望　彼此亦有苦況
棉花糖從成長中曾送你愉快天堂
經過同樣跌盪　可會學會釋放
童話　情書　遺書　尋找　答案
曾經...曾經...回憶當天三歲的波板糖

Home/Sick

Got a pretty ordinary weekend.

Finally realize it's been too long since i was last at home sleeping on my bed..... such a strange feeling...

More and more feeling that life has changed.... no longer interested in things that i used to.....

Also feeling that my body can no longer keep up with all the work loads..... grew tired all the time lately.....

I guess it's soon time to sleep.....

In remorse.... it's soon going to be one year.

Dilemma: If Kurt Cobain is true. "It's better to burn out than to fade away."

At Work.

Loaded (or even overloaded) myself for work today..... feel.... so how..... quite good about it.

Really enjoying to put myself in a position that i cant back off... point of no return is reached.

Working hard, Playing hard... that's my philosophy.

A sincere thank you to you. You've enlightened me.

Looking forward to the work on tomorrow.

Immature.

What a child i am.

Failing, in even taking care of my own self.

Losing nights of sleep just because of one word you said.

Never know what and when to treasure.... all i did is crying over spilled milk.

Never know how fortunate i was when having your love on me.... until i actually lost it.

A lot of wrongs have been done... they can only be forgiven not forgotten.

This young boy now realize, how important you mean in his life.

He wanted to change and grow.

Are you, still willing to give him faith?

You must love me - Madonna

Where do we go from here?
This isn't where we intended to be
We had it all, you believed in me
I believed in you

Certainties disappear
What do we do for our dream to survive?
How do we keep all our passions alive,
As we used to do?

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away
You must love me
You must love me

Why are you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I'll let you see how
Nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away
You must love me
You must love me
You must love me

Work and Productivity.

Been busy all day.... however.... really not much have been done....

Especially annoying when i realize how much i have to read for tomorrow's class..... still a long way.

The Souvenir for Dental Annual Dinner is ready now..... one less thing on my mind right now (by the way, they are just gorgeous!)

To my somebody: Without you, I'm always a child.

"我不想　我不想　不想長大　
長大後　我就會　失去她"
不想長大 - S.H.E.

Please have faith.

Awoken.

Finally Awoken from my slumber.

It's such a good Ole morning today.

Maybe. I really should change my habit and enjoy the rising sun everyday.

一輩子

讀了這文章, 真像上了一課.

一輩子

是不是真的可以『一輩子』？

以前，我也會相信一對年輕的戀人間真的有永遠、真的有一輩子，然後開開心心地牽著那雙以為能牽一輩子的手，開始幻想我們的永遠，所以在接受這樣承諾的時候，總天真的想：『嗯...你說的喔！一輩子喔.....』

漸漸的，經歷過感情的幾次失意之後，開始懷疑是不是真的可以『一輩子、永遠..』！

記得聽過一個法學教授的叮嚀：別跟你的男友要『一輩子』的承諾，因為妳無法知道，他給的一輩子，期限有多長.....妳可以要他許諾『愛妳30年』、『愛妳60年』，甚至在妳還不願綁住他的時候，只跟他要個『愛我一個月』的承諾，這種有期限的承諾，看似現實而條件化，其實只是一種比較踏實的約定而已。

教授也舉了一個例子：

有對小戀人從大學便開始交往了，而這對金童玉女在眾人眼中早已是令人稱羨的一對，生活上相互照顧、並做為對方精神的支柱、對彼此的用心更是不曾掩飾。

有一次，女孩把教授說過的約定，轉述給男孩聽，男孩也知道他的法律系女友要的就是那份踏實感覺，於是他向女孩承諾，不輕易許給女孩一輩子的未來，他只答應『我會愛妳、並陪在妳身邊直到妳過27歲生日那天，可以的話，我會再向妳許下另一階段的承諾』。

於是男孩女孩心中留下這份共享的默契；在後來的交往中，男孩女孩雖然情愛不減，卻因為課業上的壓力、未來的目標不同、父母的期望、個性上、人際關係上的衝突，情人間的口角自然免不了。

女孩每次驕嗔發怒，男孩也只是順著她的心意安撫，雖然男孩在朋友眼中是出了名的火爆脾氣。漸漸的，男孩女孩發現口角爭執次數越來越頻繁，女孩更數度提出分手的念頭，男孩也曾被激怒地打算接受分手，卻硬壓下這樣的氣話。

時光流轉，男孩女孩早已順利步上紅毯那端，育有一子一女，共組幸福家庭；只是當女孩問起：老公，我知道我當年的脾氣很嬌，你又是出了名的火爆小子，你怎麼願意忍受我的壞脾氣啊？還跟我真的走了一輩子？男人笑了笑，只是抱著他親愛的老婆：多虧了妳當初轉述教授的話，讓我許給妳那個27歲生日的承諾，才支持我的火爆脾氣忍著不發作，也幫我們撐過了最容易互相傷害的日子。要不是那個承諾，妳當初提分手的時候，我可能就真的跟你分了，哪有現在的幸福日子啊？！

聽完這個故事，心裡好像多了點想法，永遠有多遠？一輩子是不是真的能一輩子？我想，給個期限或許踏實點吧！

女人最偉大的行為，莫過於為一個男人蹉跎歲月...
男人最放心不下的，是有一個女人一直在等他...

戀愛其實比你想像的累。

很多時候，二個人生活比一個人過日子還要辛苦。

一個人的時候，想去哪裡就去哪裡，想和誰出去就和誰出去，不必為了男朋友今天被老闆罵了心情不好需要人陪而犧牲和好友的聚會，也不需要因為女朋友感冒發高燒需要照顧而犧牲早上重要會議。

一個月不出門，沒有人會對你抱怨日子很無聊，每天吃泡麵，也不會有人嫌你對他不好，一晚上不說話，沒人會在耳邊說你不關心他，一個星期不洗床單也不會有人嫌你髒。

二個人在一起，他不高興的時候，你有責任要傾聽、照顧、替他找樂子，即使你自己心情也不好，也要打起精神幫對方加油打氣。

一個人的時候高興天天加班到天亮也沒人管你，但是二個人的時候，你若是天天睡在公司，對方會抱怨你為什麼不肯花時間陪他，然後就是爭吵甚至分手。

有些男人以為戀愛很容易，只要花點時間問問︰「吃飽了沒？」之類言不及義的屁話，偶爾一起吃吃飯、看看電影，只要有炮可以打就等於戀愛還在繼續。

但是，你如果真的這樣做，你會發現女人其實很寂寞，到頭來你才知道你根本不懂她在想什麼，等你知道戀愛要「用心」才能繼續的時候，女人早就已經決定離開你了。

要把戀愛談好其實不難，花的心力愈多，愈有機會維持良好的關係。當你羨慕某些感情不錯的情侶時，不妨想想他們背後付出的代價。

很羨慕有些情侶做什麼事情總是在一起，一起下班，一起看電視，一起吃飯，一起下廚，一起散步，一起洗澡，然後一起睡覺。

你沒看到的是他們犧牲了工作的時間；犧牲了和朋友出去喝酒作樂的時間；犧牲了和老闆私下應酬拍馬屁的時間，他們選擇犧牲一個人的快樂去成就兩個人的快樂。

也許男人犧牲了一場自己想看的球賽陪女人看「麥迪遜之橋」，或許女人犧牲了老闆指派加班的任務只為了回家下廚作二人的燭光晚餐。或許他們一個曾經習慣於晝伏夜出，卻為了另一個人徹底改變了作息，他們覺得這樣犧牲很快樂也很值得，但若換是你，你做得到多少？

你覺得有些情侶很棒，因為他們懂得給對方空間。他們可以把對彼此的關係在第一順位，他們不會要求對方一定要二十四小時陪著彼此，一旦一方覺得度孤獨、寂寞，需要有人陪伴的時候，另一方一定會犧牲其他的時間陪他。

你沒有看到的是，他們其實花了很多時間學習獨處；花了很多心思戰勝忌妒；花了很多精力修正自己的錯誤。他們學會怎樣為自己的情緒負責而不依賴另一人的幫助，怎樣在眾多情人間做正確的時間安排方式而不引起更多的衝突...

你覺得那些心靈契合的情侶最值得羨慕，一件事情到了他們的口中，不管他們的看法有多少差異，你總是能看出他們互相支持的誠意。他們總是會產生類似的感動，一人哭泣，另一人也跟著流淚，一人欣喜，另一個人也跟著微笑。

你沒看到的是，他們歷經了無數的爭辯，因此他們常常發現自己完全不了解對方的想法，所以他們花了比別人更多的時間探索、挖掘、辯論、溝通，他們放棄了許多自以為是的想法；在爭辯中學會讓步；學會不堅持；學會接受、欣賞、肯定另一個人觀點；學會平等的溝通與相互尊重。

而當你與異性溝通的時候，你是不是懂得這些道理？

當我們看到男女之間的差異與距離，我們總會想著用比較輕鬆的方式解決。不喜歡坐車的人寧願換個和他一樣喜歡坐船伴侶，也不會為了對方學著接受把車子當作交通工具。愛吃肉的人寧願怪對方為什麼不肯吃肉，也不會為了維持關係而學著吃素。

很多問題我們寧願要對方適應，寧願將責任推給別人而不是自己，只因為這樣比較容易。而那些感情可以維持得讓人羨慕的人，他們並不見得比你聰明，那或許只是因為他們懂得在要求對方適應之外，自己也學著犧牲與讓步。

很多甜蜜的關係，背後都付出了痛苦的代價來維持，在你羨慕別人的時候，不妨問問自己：你付出這些代價的意願有多少？如果你不想付出這樣的代價，如果你覺得維持關係應該是不花心力的，那就別奢望你也能擁有這樣的關係。

「良好的感情關係不會從天掉下來，要花力氣、要用心經營，要肯付出...還要許下承諾。」

Suddenly.... a song ring out in my mind.

" 誰人又相信一世一生這膚淺對白
來吧送給你叫幾百萬人流淚過的歌"
K歌之王 - 陳奕迅

I am living.... but i dont have a life.

My song of the day:

我的愛 - 孫燕姿

繞著山路　走得累了
去留片刻　要如何取捨
去年撿的　美麗貝殼
心不透徹　不會懂多難得

以為　只要簡單地生活　
就能平息了脈搏　
卻忘了在逃什麼　

我的愛　明明還在　
轉身了才明白　
該把幸福　找回來　
而不是各自緬懷　

我會在　沿海地帶　
等著潮汐更改　送你回來　
你走路姿態　微笑的神態　
潛意識曾錯過的真愛

以為　只要簡單地生活　
就能平息了脈搏　
卻忘了在逃什麼　

我的愛　明明還在　
轉身了才明白　
該把幸福　找回來　
而不是各自緬懷　

我會在　沿海地帶　
等著潮汐更改　送你回來　
你走路姿態　微笑的神態　
潛意識曾錯過的真愛

莫非這是上天善意的安排
好讓心更堅定彼此更接近　真愛

我的愛　明明還在
轉身了才明白
該把幸福　找回來
而不是各自緬懷

我會在　沿海地帶
等著潮汐更改　學著忍耐
不再怕傷害　不再怕期待
潛意識那才是我真愛
你走路姿態　微笑的神態
潛意識那才是我真愛

Mind... Soothed.

Losing control.

But, for the first time since long ago. I can actually sleep.

Sorry for everything...

I shall remember these songs... Nobody can change history, we can only look for future.

忽爾今夏 - 黃耀明
Better Man - Robbie Williams
螢光粉紅 - 鄭秀文
最好的愛煞人武器 - 達明一派
楊千嬅(再生版) - 楊千嬅
四季 -梁靜茹
New York Mining Disaster 1941 - Bee Gees
咬唇 - 楊千嬅
你有自己一套 - At17
Violin Concerto No.2, D Major, K.211 III. Rondeau: Allegro - Mozart
醃眼 - 陳苑淇
一切很美 只因有你 - 陳慧琳
我有我愛你 - 陳奕迅
八里公路 - 梁漢文

I was in such terrible state.

Familiarity.

I shall remeber this day for the rest of my life.

When seeing my tutor today.... first time finding that i was unable to speak.... for i know i have got no reason to argue.... totally screwed but deep in my heart i feel a sense of tranquility... I have cleared my mind and have goals for my life again... I know what i am doing.

Dear Friends, Sorry for making you so worried..... i am okay. Seriously.

Suddenly have a feel of familiarity. but yet feeling it to be so distant... why my heart is telling me such thing?

Picked up my old habit of searching and finding again.... only this time.... i only stop when my focus land on you.

You're my 最熟悉的陌生人.

Sleepless night.

Once again.... I'm here alone with the computer at the middle of the night (actually the very last part of the night indeed)

Another day spent in exhaustion and depletion.... with my soul kept imprisoned.

Have got a pretty inspirational conversation tonight.... listening to the problems of others seems like a mirror for me.... for i have made the same mistake over and over again in the past.... I do hope people can give me remedy for it as well.

Finally picked up a text book that i have long forgotten since the very first few days in my first year.... it's about time to pay for my debts.

At least one hour of reading per day.... that doesnt sound too ridiculous, right?

An unrivaled sense of frustration get inside of me when reading something that i cant comprehend.... how much i wish to read your mind...

"Your every smile and cry, is controlling my low and high."

Frustration.

Still being miserable for the day... Just dont know how to express it. So i have chosen a route of escapology.... filling my time table full.... draining all my energy.... this might work for today.... but how about tomorrow and onwards? For how long can i stand like this?

Suddenly went out of all ideas on what i could do..... suddenly my mind seems to go all wrong.... It's been 352 days already.

Have been searching for a song below for some time already.... have gone through HMV and other CD shops in HK today and still cant find it... If anyone can get this CD for me I'm sure i'll pay him/her handsomely for it (or maybe a large hug ^^). It's Undone by Patrick Nuo, appeared as bonus track in albume "Welcome" (Special Edition) (released in 2004)..... gave up totally.... can only share the link from youtube.....

For you, and hope you can feel it.

Patrick Nuo - Undone

Another day, another night
Another word, another fight
That I'm sorry for
Another try, another way
Another line, now you say
You can't stand it no more

It's easy to hurt and hard to heal
I wish you would try to make me feel
That you still care, you still care

How can I make it undone?
What can I do?
How can I stop this feeling
Inside of you?

If I could make it undone?
Would you be there?
You're still the spell I'm under
Do you still care?

Another chance to be wrong
Another promise to hold on
Regrets and sorrows

Maybe love, maybe lust
Do you believe, do you trust
In me and tomorrow

It's easy to hurt and hard to heal
I wish you would try to make me feel
That you still care, you still care

How can I make it undone?
What can I do?
How can I stop this feeling
Inside of you?

If I could make it undone?
Would you be there?
You're still the spell I'm under
Do you still care?

Do you still care about us
What can I do
To bring our good times back to you
I wish that I could make it just undone

How can I make it undone?
What can I do?
How can I stop this feeling
Inside of you?
If I could make it undone?
Would you be there?
You're still the spell I'm under
Do you still care?

I wish you would try to make me feel
That you still care