Dunno why i cant sleep tonight... too exhausted by recent exam? Maybe... Too excited that exam is finally over? Possible.... Just too bored to sleep? Another possibility.... whatever the reason is... i feel great right now, and glad to have plenty of free hours to think about myself, my study, my family and friends...
Suddenly came to a stage which i feel i have reached my 'potential'... there is little room for improvements..... let me put it this way... in Human we have kind of a natural protective mechanism... we will not work at maximum output... to say that is like when lifting.... the muscles may be able to lift 300 pounds.... but most people can only do one hundred something or two-hundred.... where has the missing force gone? This can be attributed to the fact that most people just lack the confidence/insight to know what they can do (their potential).... they do not dare to try anything wilder than their 'perceived limit'..... that's kind of pathetic coz the less you try.... the less chance you have to develop....
Suddenly realize I might be in such stage for now.... the pharse i use to say 'Never limit your challenge, challenge your limits' seems no longer applicable to myself.... why? Became so scared of changes and grew restless in maintain order in my life (without any real success)....
What must i do?
Had been through some ups and downs during this weekend....
Friday.... exam's finally over.... i dont care about the end result, as long as i know i've tried my best, that's it.... too bad i couldnt see my beloved JIC ppl that night... nonetheless, i'm able to meet with my ex-floormate and had a wonderful dinner with them~~
Saturday.... my room is still chaotic... but i've little intention to make them in order... probably too tired from the work out the night before.... live in such chaos for one whole day.
Sunday.... unexpected outing done.... when's the last time i've engaged myself with music? I dunno.... but it's real fun anyways~ Sleep like hell that night
Monday.... Never over-estimate one's ability to wake up.... ideally planned myself should wake around 5 something to make my room and do my laundry.... but then, i only woke once around 5 and thereafter i hear no alarm again.... thanks mum who rang me in the morning to keep me from being late for the first class in the new semester....
Totally chaotic day... Dental work just sux >.< ..... am i really going to spend my rest of my life in this?? I doubt.
Tuesday..... sleepless nights... the only thing i'm sure is that i'm not going to be very focused in class.... just hope that i do no wrong (or harm).....
Been chatting with Winnie for the past few days... it's really great to chat with best friends... looking forward to them coming back this summer..... must be load of fun~
BTW, the book i'm talking about in the last entry is "Women are from Venus, and Men are from Hell"..... brilliant title, isnt it??
Some quotes from it.
"The same time that women came up with PMS, men came up with ESPN."
"If a woman laughs at her husband's joke, it means he has told a new joke or he has a new wife."
"My husband said he needed more space, so I locked him outside."
O my gosh, they're just so smart~~
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