Today is such a day.
A day that a lot has happened.
A day that a lot has been learnt.
A day that I do have feelings on.
Despite my piled up assignments to be due soon, I feel a great urge to write tonight... afterall, this is exactly the place where i can forever preserve my true feelings in.
Went for a morning lesson in Queen Mary Hospital in the morning, attachment in the opthalmology department.... even the professor there (who happened to be a specialist in 3 different discipline with a MBA degree... and has the talent of 'spot' diagnosis with great accuracy) said we wouldnt learn much in his department, but nonetheless, he's taught us not the knowledge... but the way of life, the way of treating patients.... he really made me think of my own future... I'll never forget the way he told me that my potential will someday take me to a higher place.... if it mean sacrificing oneself to achieve the greater good of whole mankind, please take me, i am willing to be the one. Politics aside, I just want to do good to human, isnt this an aim everyone should have?
Forgot to mention, that professor is Dr. Ricky Wong.... such a nice guy and is willing to share.... it's the kind of person that even for the first time you meet, you'll feel his passion, he's one of the few professors that i really admire.... really looking forward to the opportunities of working for him... or even to work with him, if possible~
Cooked in Hall at lunchtime..... really have the feeling of home with my brothers and sisters around... really like this feeling~
Talking about professor.... I'm pinned by one of them lately... but i dont care... you can humiliate me, you can make my life difficult.... but you can never leave me lose faith.... let me now say in no uncertain terms that i hate you and hate you much... i will use this hatred to drive me forward.... and one day i'll make you pay for what you have done.... If God say "Love is Power", then Satan surely spell "Hate is supreme".... just look at all the wars in middle east.... If hate is not the driving factor, what else are??? There are only 3 types of person in my life, those I truely love, those i truely hate or those i feel indifferent to..... no more grey areas in between.... this will certainly make my life easier.
It's once again the Loke Yew Hightable tonight.... this occassion means a lot to me.... comparing with each year, in the same time feeling myself growing.... dunno why but suddenly feel so distant from all the other hallmates tonight, feeling a trace of sadness in myself.... maybe deep down I knew it could well be my last dinner there? Just want to leave no regret.... sometimes, it might be better to burn-out than to fade away....
Once got back and settle down in my room.... randomly flipping through the photos in the camera, it had some wonderful photographs taken by Mom and Dad in Singapore.... looking at their happy faces in the photograph, I knew i was left with no choice.... I have more than once thought of quitting dentistry and work for some higher aims (even after investing for 4 years in this faculty).... considering their expectations on me and the effort they've put in in getting me through this 4 years.... I have to hang on..... I cannot let them down, though i dont need to be the bread-winner for my family, i do have responsibility to provide them with the best (in the same time feel for my friends winnie, who've enlightened me in this aspect).... I dont mean to be a Good dentist, but only the BEST one. Please let me have the strength and determination when I was studying my A-levels, I'll make it.
Time to get back to my essays again. Till later.
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