Friday, June 02, 2006

Growth

Just have the floor's End-year evaluation tonight... Everyone, it's time to grow.

Notion of tonight, based on the experience i had in La Salle, "Genius always existed. And you are a genius in yourself, only depending which field are you specialized in." LaSallian, do trust in yourself and seek your own value, you're going to shine someday, somehow.

But obviously, i am not specialized in dentistry and handling relationship.

Hope for the best, and always prepare for the worst..... i almost have to perform surgery on my patient today if the luck wasnt on my side.... Whew...

Have been dreaming of Scarecrows and zombies lately.... fears? not really..... stress? maybe... just helpless.....

It's always easier said than done.

PS. Have you ever seen an elephant fly?

PS2. Thanks Peter.

葉念琛 -《喂喂》

「你這幾天都在找她。你明知她是有意避開自己,打電話給她,總是轉駁到留言信箱,你最害怕聽到她在留言信箱的聲音,總是冷冷的一句:『請在咇一聲後留下口訊……』她那蒼涼、淡漠的語氣,彷彿告訴你,你儘管留言,但覆不覆你還要看本小姐的心情……

於是,你嘗試發一通短訊給她,短訊很短,可能只有:『喂喂』兩個字。你不是有甚麼要緊的說話告訴她!你不過是在發出一個掛念她的訊號,就像孤島上的燈塔,一閃一閃那微薄的燈光,為遠處的輪船指引方向。

你心知肚明,自己從來都是寂寞的孤島,而她卻是那永不靠岸的輪船。

她一天下來也沒有回覆你的短訊,從前她心情好的時候,你發了一通『喂喂』,她會回一通『喂喂喂!』,兩口子好像頑皮的小孩各據山頭,大吵大叫地傳話。那時候,彼此都喜歡做傻事討對方開心,那時候,你們深深相愛。

她好像一下子在你生命中消失了,你惆悵地想,這樣毫無徵兆的突然分離,彼此會否還有再見一面的機會?你一個人茫茫然在街上蹓躂,腳步來到一家你跟她過去常到的 VCD 店。本來你想跟相熟的店長打個招呼,可是正有一男一女的顧客在纏著他!你留神一看,不對!那個女孩子的身影為什麼這樣熟悉?她轉過臉跟身旁的男伴有說有笑,你料不到她竟然就在眼前。她也看見了你,若無其事走上前,輕輕地跟你嗌了一聲:『喂!』不是喂喂!也不是喂喂喂!在電光石火之間,你傷心地接受,彼此是真真正正不再相愛了。」

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

re your second para. Exactly. As always-said, we're more or less in the same wavelength and tend to make some unspoken but similar assumptions. That's the way our Alma Mater had shaped and equipped us. And that's why I feel strongly I must make a remark under this entry, which I seldom do. It's sad to see a LaSallian start to lose the faith and confidence on himself when facing the adverse. (I learnt a lot of stories of my mates for their post-LSC lifes -- ups and downs.) And so you have been doing very well in terms of what a LaSallian should think and behave. So keep that up and try to coach our little Brother in your circle, as we as part of the family always do.