Time is the best cure, I always hear people saying it. But did it really work? How much time is needed to complete forget a person?
It's been 3 years. Yes, time have changed my reaction, no more rage or madness, but still, the feeling, and the grief stay the same.
I really need a dose of propranolol, so that i can forget.
"How happy is the blameless vestel's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world's forgot.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind!
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned."
Eloisa to Abelard - Line 207 to 210
Friday, February 27, 2009
Resolution.
Well.... Time's a bit late in the year but i've finally decided some realistic goals that i should have done this year, and they're as follows.
1. To learn Chinese input. I've received too many complaints from people already. Fine, i gave in... hope soon enough you'll see my type some chinese here....
2. To get my room in shape. Usually i love to keep my room clean and tidy.... but this is an exceptional case. Let me recall when did the pile of junk start accumulating in the current room of mine.... Since my family move (without my notice) 5 years ago to the previous flat i've virtually lost track (and sovereignty) of most of my belongings, compounded by the fact that i was away living in University hall, multiplied by the fact that my current room (i've just moved)is much smaller than previous ones and i have to cramp 2 room's worth of belongings and junk in one room..... that's about the closest explaination of my current situation.
3. To get my computer files organized. Blame on my final dental exam. I have no time in getting my songs, pictures and whatever documents in my computer organized as they should be.... i've already accumulated 13G worth of unsorted data on my desktop.... time for a change. (Especially important as i wish to change my computer).... it'd be total chaos if i dont work it out while i have time.
4. To get myself in shape..... well, this is the most important of all and this should not be limited in this year only, nevertheless it's a good time to start. I must be thankful of my application to police force that have given me hope and reason for pushing myself to the limit. No matter what, a healthy body is always an asset.
PS. I start to hate the bureaucracy in government organization..... how long do they need to make a shortlist of applicants to the final round of interview?? I'm still waiting for it.
1. To learn Chinese input. I've received too many complaints from people already. Fine, i gave in... hope soon enough you'll see my type some chinese here....
2. To get my room in shape. Usually i love to keep my room clean and tidy.... but this is an exceptional case. Let me recall when did the pile of junk start accumulating in the current room of mine.... Since my family move (without my notice) 5 years ago to the previous flat i've virtually lost track (and sovereignty) of most of my belongings, compounded by the fact that i was away living in University hall, multiplied by the fact that my current room (i've just moved)is much smaller than previous ones and i have to cramp 2 room's worth of belongings and junk in one room..... that's about the closest explaination of my current situation.
3. To get my computer files organized. Blame on my final dental exam. I have no time in getting my songs, pictures and whatever documents in my computer organized as they should be.... i've already accumulated 13G worth of unsorted data on my desktop.... time for a change. (Especially important as i wish to change my computer).... it'd be total chaos if i dont work it out while i have time.
4. To get myself in shape..... well, this is the most important of all and this should not be limited in this year only, nevertheless it's a good time to start. I must be thankful of my application to police force that have given me hope and reason for pushing myself to the limit. No matter what, a healthy body is always an asset.
PS. I start to hate the bureaucracy in government organization..... how long do they need to make a shortlist of applicants to the final round of interview?? I'm still waiting for it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
What if Joker is not Joker?
Seems I'm adopting a new writing style..... Muses have their smile upon me lately, my head is constantly searching for topic that i can write in my blog (and make it an interesting one), while watching the 81st Oscar today, I've come up with this topic.
What if Joker is not Joker....
Okay, some may hate joker for his horror, dementia or even hysterical laughters, blaming him for all the destructions and killings.....
But if he's not a Villian, what else can he be? Deep down in his heart is the desire to bring chaos to this world.... he's just doing what he sees as normal.
I feel for Heath Ledger, who's inherited all personalities from the role Joker to his real life, where he must obey the law and orders..... living as such would be greatly demoralizing..... I'm not sure if that's the reason for his (maybe) suicide?
A rebellious mind kept in an organized mind.... disaster will happen....
Is this some prophecy that i am making for myself?
What if Joker is not Joker....
Okay, some may hate joker for his horror, dementia or even hysterical laughters, blaming him for all the destructions and killings.....
But if he's not a Villian, what else can he be? Deep down in his heart is the desire to bring chaos to this world.... he's just doing what he sees as normal.
I feel for Heath Ledger, who's inherited all personalities from the role Joker to his real life, where he must obey the law and orders..... living as such would be greatly demoralizing..... I'm not sure if that's the reason for his (maybe) suicide?
A rebellious mind kept in an organized mind.... disaster will happen....
Is this some prophecy that i am making for myself?
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Who's your idol?
Dont know why but i suddenly come up with this title.... but a deeper thought about it... it's a quite interesting topic.... so, here it goes.
In my eyes, my friends are always my number one idol.... each one of them are unique and special.... even the 'apparently' bad do have some good traits that i can follow.... so no doubt, i'm a great fan of them.
So, when tonight, one of my friend shared his worries with me, i'm shocked and equally frustrated as he was... all the best, my mate. (By the way.... it's been a really long time since we two hang out and do nothing but talk.... i really treasured the time)
PS. Bucket list is exceptionally good... must watch.
In my eyes, my friends are always my number one idol.... each one of them are unique and special.... even the 'apparently' bad do have some good traits that i can follow.... so no doubt, i'm a great fan of them.
So, when tonight, one of my friend shared his worries with me, i'm shocked and equally frustrated as he was... all the best, my mate. (By the way.... it's been a really long time since we two hang out and do nothing but talk.... i really treasured the time)
PS. Bucket list is exceptionally good... must watch.
Bucket List
Turns out Eagle Eye is only average (well, not bad for a sci-fi, but the plot is still a bit thin).... Gonna watch another film which i have high hopes in, the "Bucket List" with Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman..... Let's see....
Love the song by Paul Anke, Times of your life... Joanna Wang's cover is quite good too~
Joanna Wang- Times of your life
The memories are time that you borrow,
To spend when you get to tomorrow.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Movies that i like.
Life continues pretty much the same way. Found myself to have some autism traits.... more appropiately, I should say I've locked up myself from the outside world lately..... such times must be treasured (as i can forsee once i get back to work such life will be a dream and luxary for me)..... doing nothing but some reading and movies are excellent.
Had a thought yesterday, it took me around 5 years to be a dentist, but how long if I'm going forget all that i have learnt? I dont have an exact time but I'm pretty sure i've forgotten half of my dental knowledge already, in only 2 months..... i dont see it too negatively, maybe it's blessing in disguise..... if i'm to devote myself in this field again I'm sure I'll learn it and learn it well (given the fact that i'm not a diligent student at my university life)..... sounds like a second chance for me.
Okay, back to the topic. I've seen some excellent movies over the last week, Namely, "Memento" by Christopher Nolan (his other work includes, Insomnia, Dark Knights and Se7en, which i love the most).... a small budget production with an outstanding plot..... at first i feel it's kind of weird as the whole film seems very segmented (however, all made sense once you grab the whole plot.... pretty much like his other work, such as "The Prestige") The main character is a real psycho.... you'll agree once you watch the film.
Second movie was "Spanglish" which starred Adam Sandler in a non-comedy role. This film has failed to be nominated for any oscar awards in 2004 (That year the Oscar's best pictures goes to another of my favourite "Million Dollar Baby" and nominees include "The Avaitor", "Finding Neverland", "Ray", and "Sideways") I truely believe this film is superior than Ray or Sideways in terms of novelty or entertainment, it's really a shame such good work is being neglected and failed its deserved recognition. This film depicted realism in the issues such as cultural difference and family problems in an otherwise ordinary American family. My recommendation. (PS. Adam Sandler is also very good in his role in "Reign over me", which's another non comedy attempt by him)
Last movie was "Yes man" by Jim Carrey, Jim reverted to his usual role as a comedian after an unsuccessful spell in other roles (eg. number 23, A series of unfortunate events etc) (PS2. He's got his moment in drama films early in this decade, for example, Man on the Moon and The Majestic, which are great performances from him).... The usual Jim Carrey performance, only this time, with a meaning. If there is a need of reason between every Yes and No answers? You'll learn once you watch this.
Okay, this much writing for today, but that doesnt mean my last movie.... gonna watch "Eagle Eye" by Shia LeBeouf, as recommended by my buddy alvin. If it's of any good, I'll certainly let you know.
Had a thought yesterday, it took me around 5 years to be a dentist, but how long if I'm going forget all that i have learnt? I dont have an exact time but I'm pretty sure i've forgotten half of my dental knowledge already, in only 2 months..... i dont see it too negatively, maybe it's blessing in disguise..... if i'm to devote myself in this field again I'm sure I'll learn it and learn it well (given the fact that i'm not a diligent student at my university life)..... sounds like a second chance for me.
Okay, back to the topic. I've seen some excellent movies over the last week, Namely, "Memento" by Christopher Nolan (his other work includes, Insomnia, Dark Knights and Se7en, which i love the most).... a small budget production with an outstanding plot..... at first i feel it's kind of weird as the whole film seems very segmented (however, all made sense once you grab the whole plot.... pretty much like his other work, such as "The Prestige") The main character is a real psycho.... you'll agree once you watch the film.
Second movie was "Spanglish" which starred Adam Sandler in a non-comedy role. This film has failed to be nominated for any oscar awards in 2004 (That year the Oscar's best pictures goes to another of my favourite "Million Dollar Baby" and nominees include "The Avaitor", "Finding Neverland", "Ray", and "Sideways") I truely believe this film is superior than Ray or Sideways in terms of novelty or entertainment, it's really a shame such good work is being neglected and failed its deserved recognition. This film depicted realism in the issues such as cultural difference and family problems in an otherwise ordinary American family. My recommendation. (PS. Adam Sandler is also very good in his role in "Reign over me", which's another non comedy attempt by him)
Last movie was "Yes man" by Jim Carrey, Jim reverted to his usual role as a comedian after an unsuccessful spell in other roles (eg. number 23, A series of unfortunate events etc) (PS2. He's got his moment in drama films early in this decade, for example, Man on the Moon and The Majestic, which are great performances from him).... The usual Jim Carrey performance, only this time, with a meaning. If there is a need of reason between every Yes and No answers? You'll learn once you watch this.
Okay, this much writing for today, but that doesnt mean my last movie.... gonna watch "Eagle Eye" by Shia LeBeouf, as recommended by my buddy alvin. If it's of any good, I'll certainly let you know.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Black Friday.
Black Friday today.... nothing too weird happened today, that's good sign.
Watched "Revolutionary Road". Pretty interesting movie. Especially enlightening as it shed light on dreams and achievement. I like the term they use in the movie, "Hopeless Emptiness".
Watched "Revolutionary Road". Pretty interesting movie. Especially enlightening as it shed light on dreams and achievement. I like the term they use in the movie, "Hopeless Emptiness".
Done.
Today's interview was a great experience.
Still some improvements to be made but I'm not going to look backwards.
Always remember the greatest enemy is oneself and over-confidence.
PS, Very sleepy now.
Still some improvements to be made but I'm not going to look backwards.
Always remember the greatest enemy is oneself and over-confidence.
PS, Very sleepy now.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Outrageous.
Gosh, waking up in a time when the sun hasnt even risen yet.
How will I perform today?
I'm not asking much, just my usual confident performance shall suffice.
How will I perform today?
I'm not asking much, just my usual confident performance shall suffice.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Path of self searching.
Once again, I'm in doubt about myself once again, and your help is very much appreciated. Simply fill in the following Johari for me. So that i can know myself better.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Kelvin+Lam.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Kelvin+Lam.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Headache..... thinking of reasons....
Totally stuck right now.... I'm trying to fill in the interview form for the post of PI, but the following 2 questions kept me stuck....
Why do you want to join the HK Police?
In what aspect can you contribute to the force?
Gosh, these are 2 hard, straight-to-the-point questions......
I'm too tired to think now, better finish them tomorrow.
Why do you want to join the HK Police?
In what aspect can you contribute to the force?
Gosh, these are 2 hard, straight-to-the-point questions......
I'm too tired to think now, better finish them tomorrow.
20 Top Office Sayings
1. Doing a job RIGHT the first time gets the job done. Doing the job WRONG fourteen times gives you job secruity.
2. Rome did not create a great empire by having meetings, they did it by killing all those who opposed them.
3. If something doesnt feel right, you're not feeling the right thing.
4. Artificial Intelligence is no match for Natural Stupidity.
5. A person who smiles in the face of adversity..... probably has a scapegoat.
6. If you can stay calm, while all around you is chaos.... then you probably haven't completely understood the situation.
7. Plagiarism saves time.
8. Never underestimate the power of very stupid people in large groups.
9. Never put off until tomorrow what you can avoid altogether.
10. TEAMWORK.... means never having to take all the blame yourself.
11. Work: It isnt just for sleeping anymore.
12. Hang in there, retirement is only thirty years away!! Cheers!
13. Go the extra mile. It makes your boss look like an incompetent slacker.... while he still get better paid.
14. A snooze button is a poor substitute for no alarm clock at all.
15. When the going gets tough, the tough take a coffee break.
16. INDECISION is the key to FLEXIBILITY.
17. Aim low, Reach your goals, Avoid disappointment.
18. We wast more time by 8:00 in the morning than another companies do all day.
19. To Boss: We waste time, so you dont have to.
20. To Staff: You pretend to work, and we'll pretend to pay you~ ^^
Pretty true~
2. Rome did not create a great empire by having meetings, they did it by killing all those who opposed them.
3. If something doesnt feel right, you're not feeling the right thing.
4. Artificial Intelligence is no match for Natural Stupidity.
5. A person who smiles in the face of adversity..... probably has a scapegoat.
6. If you can stay calm, while all around you is chaos.... then you probably haven't completely understood the situation.
7. Plagiarism saves time.
8. Never underestimate the power of very stupid people in large groups.
9. Never put off until tomorrow what you can avoid altogether.
10. TEAMWORK.... means never having to take all the blame yourself.
11. Work: It isnt just for sleeping anymore.
12. Hang in there, retirement is only thirty years away!! Cheers!
13. Go the extra mile. It makes your boss look like an incompetent slacker.... while he still get better paid.
14. A snooze button is a poor substitute for no alarm clock at all.
15. When the going gets tough, the tough take a coffee break.
16. INDECISION is the key to FLEXIBILITY.
17. Aim low, Reach your goals, Avoid disappointment.
18. We wast more time by 8:00 in the morning than another companies do all day.
19. To Boss: We waste time, so you dont have to.
20. To Staff: You pretend to work, and we'll pretend to pay you~ ^^
Pretty true~
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Post number 888.
Wow, it's been sometime since i started writing here on blogspot..... sometimes i'm more diligent in writing and sometimes not as enthusiastic... but still, after all these years i've amassed a number of 888 posts here (lucky number?). I truely look forward to my thousandth post.
I left my soul in exile over the past weeks and was in constant denial and confidence crisis.... that was so badly crippled me.... i can barely look after myself..... well, but as one of my senior use to say, anything that doesnt kill you simply make you stronger. I'm a firm believer of that too.
Tonight i went out for movie, Will Smith's "Seven Pounds"..... very impressive movie, with director and most actors the same crew as last year's blockbuster "Pursuit of Happyness"..... If I am to compare, i love pursuit of happyness more.... but this one is also a great one. Its timing can not be more convenient, with Hong Kong crowding with drunk driving news lately..... Will any of the aforementioned criminals be so considerate and do the same? Or even, will anyone ever do that?
Still, i think this apparently downsome movie do have its silver lining and positive messages. At least, suicide is not the way. (Even if you have to do it, it's advisable to have good planning beforehand and execute it)
I left my soul in exile over the past weeks and was in constant denial and confidence crisis.... that was so badly crippled me.... i can barely look after myself..... well, but as one of my senior use to say, anything that doesnt kill you simply make you stronger. I'm a firm believer of that too.
Tonight i went out for movie, Will Smith's "Seven Pounds"..... very impressive movie, with director and most actors the same crew as last year's blockbuster "Pursuit of Happyness"..... If I am to compare, i love pursuit of happyness more.... but this one is also a great one. Its timing can not be more convenient, with Hong Kong crowding with drunk driving news lately..... Will any of the aforementioned criminals be so considerate and do the same? Or even, will anyone ever do that?
Still, i think this apparently downsome movie do have its silver lining and positive messages. At least, suicide is not the way. (Even if you have to do it, it's advisable to have good planning beforehand and execute it)
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
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