Durian.

Um.... time to have reviews over my University life (as it's soon going to end with me leaving hall really soon).

I chose this topic as i want to know if i have changed much over the past 5 years.

I must provide information to people who are new to my blog (not this blog, but from zorpia, if you still remember i had an account there).

I was once described by a classmate (who really read me well and through, and till now i am glad that she had once made such a comment to me) as a "Durian"..... saying that i am like that kind of fruit because when i make friends, i use to have 'thorns' that will repel people who are too near to me, i tend to hurt them. And i'm very famous for my notoriety.... those who hate me will hate me to the utmost but for those who found the character within me will certainly love me..... i really like this metaphor.

Yes, i was really a 'durian' during my days in year 1..... but through the hall education (i'd rather say the education from the seniors of my floormates, Kennon in particular) I have changed. It's like rounding off the rough edges and make people feel easy around me.... i must admit the changing process is a really though experience, like everything i want to speak i got to think twice before actually saying it.... but all seems to pay off as i feel hall life much more tolerable from then. Befriend with more people and certainly, life's easier.

But at certain point of that 'life' i feel 'bored'.... it's like.... i'm living somebody else's life..... i had more than one occassion question if i had made the right choice in changing myself (the feeling grow stronger and stronger when some old friends from highschool said the same thing to me).... That's when i met my special one, Wendy, who taught me how to love and gave me confidence to be myself..... Just the way I am..... i fully appreciated all the things she had done for me.

Spring only last for so long and by the time Wendy walked out of my life.... i have transformed into another person again.... caused by despair and pain.... i'm living a lethargic life.... pretty much the dark side character.... i guess i must be pretty scary in that period of my life and an arse to deal with.....

With time soothing everything and i am the man here today.... I still dont know how i present to you (feedbacks are always welcome, every criticism make me a better person)... but me, myself feels pretty good about my own self.... i think that's what mattered most.

It's been a rather tortuous journey.... but looking back, i am still grateful of what had happened on me. For they are all my precious memories.