Guess who's doing the hair?

Humiliating.... and rebirth.

Busy and stressed.

I've spent 5 years on nothing more but to gain the dental license.

Now it's time to learn again. Topic this time, to be a real dentist.

Gotta work double time.

Plan?

I hate people to scheme on me.

This is exactly what i felt like being today.

If my personal gain is based on the disadvantages of my companion, I'd rather not take it.

I'm not the BSB at Max Payne.

Direction.

People are pathetic.

They live their lifes, trying to be somebody else.

They will follow the path of the successful ones without knowing if that path suit them or not.

Even more scary, they have no idea if they'd love the kind of life or not.

Am I, doing exactly the same thing as they do?

PS. Freemasons is not a religion, nor is it a secret society. It's only a society with secrets.

Best way to fire somebody.

Signs that you're getting old.

Purchasing desire and purchasing ability.

Got myself so really gorgeous goods.

A trench coat from Zara Men's.

A couple of CDs, All american rejects and Dolores O'Riordan Albumes.

Some books...

Without really realizing that my salary wont come till October...... um.... here lies the problem >.<"

PS. Working in Central is really disastrous as there are more than plenty of good restaurants and shops around.

Like 5 years ago.

At Hall now.... trapped.

Looking at the drippings from the wall and the air conditioner (not exactly dripping, but small water falls) reminds me of the day i had orientation camp five years ago.

Exactly typhoon signal 9 and the same kind of fun.

That's good old times.

TGI Friday?

Okay, I've found myself a job that i wanted.

An associate dentist position at the Hong Kong University of Science and Technology.

O well... i am starting the stress of the new job already.

Moral Highground.

It's so easy to judge people's decision when you're on the moral highground.

No matter what other do, it's so easy to decline their effort or ignore their struggle.

That's what i learn from 'My sister's keeper' and some recent incidents.

古巨基 - 我還是你的

My recent favourite.

Will Power.

Do you believe in will power?

I remember watching a programme on discovery channel previously, will power can actually affect some 'apparently' random act (in the test it use the result of Pachinko, pin-ball like slot machine game.... if a player focus hard enough, the result of the pachinko can disobey the normal distrubtion pattern, with p-value lower than 0.05) It seems... human minds do have some sort of strength there.

If this is true, i sincere hope that my will will be carried along with my resume to my potential boss.

Swing - 當我未玩夠

當我未玩夠.... self-explanatory.

U2 - Beautiful Day

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day

Home.

I've moved.

Moved from my hall back to home (finally).

Nightmare just started..... after packing up, i now have to endure the long procedure of unpacking again.....

And setting up the internet connection is unespecially troublesome too....

Just managed to fix all problems....

I guess i'll have a good 'day' sleep now.

Till later.

PS. I've written for the graduation booklet, enclosed below. It might not be the best piece of writing, but all of them are the words from my heart.

Time flies……

It seems like yesterday when I first set foot in PPDH, I was so young and fresh that I’ve never expected these 5 years will be such memorable journey of my life.

I must thank all the Professors and Doctors for their untiring dedication towards education that enlightened me and prepared me to be a good dentist.

Thanks to my beloved Class 08 classmates, without you, the dental life will never be quite as fun and interesting.

Thanks to all members of the Annual Dinner Organizing Committee 2006. I am so glad to have worked along side with you, it’s been a really wonderful night.

Thanks to all players of Dental Army, I really treasure the summertime that we spent training and playing softball matches together.

And of course, my dear group 6 groupmates, We’ve been through bitter and sweet, though we may walk different paths from now on, our hearts are always bonded.

Just want to say a big Thank You and Love you all.

Job searching.

Gosh..... starting to feel the stress of job hunting.

Though i can well feed myself for a couple of months even without a job, the process of waiting for reply is a slow torture. Not to mention that i have now developed a kind of 'stranger-phone number' syndrome.... especially the calls early in the morning, got to sound the best even when i'm only half awake.

Should I go for just anyone of the the job available and take the offer first? Maybe this could ease my stress.....

History...

Technology.... a thing that i love and hate, at the same time....

Dunno why I'm lured into reading my old entries again, at this time of the night..... but no matter what i do, there's nothing that can wipe out my memories, my experiences..... these are the things that i got to carry throughout my entire life (if i'm lucky enough not to have senile dementia)

Relax - Take it Easy, Mika

Love is...?

Just finished reading "My Sister's Keeper".

Touched by the story so much.

It's such old saying..... but still.... you got to let the people know that you loved them.....

It's hard in the Chinese society... but still.

My sister's keeper.

The book that i'm currently reading.

Lot's of moral/ethics (these 2 are not exactly the same, think about it) issues.... and in every family, it'll have different problems in it. But nonetheless, love is what bind a family together.

"Doubt thou that stars are fire;
Doubt thou that the sun doth move;
Doubt truth to be a liar;
But never doubt that I love."
William Shakespeare, Hamlet

Goal~

Scored myself a football goal in competitive match.... feel brilliant.

Though it's only a tap-in from close range, i still feel delighted about it.

I hope it's the first of many more.

PS. My legs are in shambles after yesterday's match... got to work on the fitness and hopefully i'll be better next time.

Moving on.

Got my things packed. Just a final move and i'll seperate myself from the University life.

A time to move on? Probably.

Pretty unsure of my own road but nonetheless i can only move forward.

Olyampics.

For once, I feel proud being a Chinese.

The Olyampics opening ceremony is incredible. I especially like the drum shown in the beginning. Two thousands people, working with clockwork precision, had given us an excellent show. And it's very very impressive.

The later part when the performer pile themself into the National Stadium is a great demostration of unity as well....

Overall..... it's a great show.

Now looking forward to some exciting sporting action.

Kevin Spacy as scary as Heath Ledger.

Feel a shiver down my spine after watching 'Se7en" tonight.

Kevin should have nominated an Oscar or something in his role as John Doe in that movie.

That's just too scary....

Well-plotted movie.

Durian.

Um.... time to have reviews over my University life (as it's soon going to end with me leaving hall really soon).

I chose this topic as i want to know if i have changed much over the past 5 years.

I must provide information to people who are new to my blog (not this blog, but from zorpia, if you still remember i had an account there).

I was once described by a classmate (who really read me well and through, and till now i am glad that she had once made such a comment to me) as a "Durian"..... saying that i am like that kind of fruit because when i make friends, i use to have 'thorns' that will repel people who are too near to me, i tend to hurt them. And i'm very famous for my notoriety.... those who hate me will hate me to the utmost but for those who found the character within me will certainly love me..... i really like this metaphor.

Yes, i was really a 'durian' during my days in year 1..... but through the hall education (i'd rather say the education from the seniors of my floormates, Kennon in particular) I have changed. It's like rounding off the rough edges and make people feel easy around me.... i must admit the changing process is a really though experience, like everything i want to speak i got to think twice before actually saying it.... but all seems to pay off as i feel hall life much more tolerable from then. Befriend with more people and certainly, life's easier.

But at certain point of that 'life' i feel 'bored'.... it's like.... i'm living somebody else's life..... i had more than one occassion question if i had made the right choice in changing myself (the feeling grow stronger and stronger when some old friends from highschool said the same thing to me).... That's when i met my special one, Wendy, who taught me how to love and gave me confidence to be myself..... Just the way I am..... i fully appreciated all the things she had done for me.

Spring only last for so long and by the time Wendy walked out of my life.... i have transformed into another person again.... caused by despair and pain.... i'm living a lethargic life.... pretty much the dark side character.... i guess i must be pretty scary in that period of my life and an arse to deal with.....

With time soothing everything and i am the man here today.... I still dont know how i present to you (feedbacks are always welcome, every criticism make me a better person)... but me, myself feels pretty good about my own self.... i think that's what mattered most.

It's been a rather tortuous journey.... but looking back, i am still grateful of what had happened on me. For they are all my precious memories.

The Wedding.

Congrats to my old floormate, Michael, who was married today.

Glad to have attended the ceremony. It's such a wonderful wedding.

Lots of thoughts, but one that most inspire me.

"We Love because God loves us."

Feel so loved and enlightened.

Praise the Lord.

To the limit.

Human mind seems to be protective in nature.

It might be a good thing, but at the same time it kills of some possibility...... not unless you really push yourself to the limit.

Remember a slogan from my alma mater one year, "Never limit your challenge, challenge your limits." That's so true.

You always act withing your (so-called) "capabilities" that you give yourself a limiting mind. You dare not try this or that and you just let chances slip.

Why not? There's no harm to try. Man always have power that you dont even notice in the first place. You just need a motive.

Think of something that you want to strive for. And act accordingly.... push yourself to the limit (When you 'think' you've done your best, that's probably the time you should try harder...)

Even if you fail, nevermind. There're no harm at all, you are still the original you.... but if you have made some progress, then next time you know, you're better than what you think you are.

You dont need to trust me. Just try this method and you know i'm not lying.

Responsibility.

Dont know why... but waking up today feels like a different person.

I'm a dentist now....

Remember in Spiderman movie, "With great powers came great responsibility". Starting to feel it now.....

Or is it like the Superhero movies, "With great power came beautiful gals."?

I certainly hope for the latter ^^

Evolving, Evolution.... it's all part of life.