Achievements? Failures?

Just come up with a thought...

Looking back in my life (24 years and 40 days to be exact)... What have i done in those years?? Take an average HongKonger's expectancy... I have wasted close to one third of my life already... Gosh... I feel bad.

Mistakes I have made a few. I lacked the determination to finish a job properly.... only moaning about my life without really thinking what I can do to make my life better... I should have fought for myself harder...

Am I, going to be like this for the rest of my life?

Dont know why such thought only come up when I'm in shortage of time (for example, like reading something totally alien 6 hours before the final exam)...

I guess, if I can make it through this exam. That'd be the greatest achievement in my life.... Only spending hours for my revision..... I will not call myself suicidal (cause that sound too serious... but i guess I'll be a dead man should I spend more time in books)..... but certainly self-destructive....

I'm heading for disaster, cheers ^^

I'm extremely unstable for the time being.... hope I'll muster the courage to write after tomorrow's paper...