Wish... and Need.

Cruel fact of life...

When you just wish you can achieve something, no matter how hard (you thought) you have tried, you shall not get the right result.

But when you NEED to do something, it's there in your mind, there's a slim chance you'll be able to do it..... however slim it is.... it's still a chance...

This clearly demostrate that people are usually not operating at their maximum potential... cause they're just bonded by their self-imposed "boundries" (which usually comes from expectations/negative images from people around you... or self-confidence)....

I just found my need of life.... i need to achieve my goal..... just hope it's not too late...

No Connections....

What if...

One day the whole internet network collapse?

Will we...

Be able to live the life we once life before (before the 90's when internet connection is still the previlage of academicians?)?

I think not....

Just hope that someday they'll think of some more genius ways to get the whole world connected..... unlike they way they link us up via fragile fibre-optic wires.

Love Actually.

Love Actually.... certainly the best movie in christmas time.... just give you the feeling to hug everyone you cared.... Love it so much~

To my friends, Merry Christmas to you all.

Tired....

Dunno why... but just tired...

I must get going soon...

Festive time....

Dont know why, but a line of lyrics keep humming in my head lately...

"要任性過 要倔強過 才是對青春不悔麼"
過來人 - 何嘉莉

Enough regret already...

I'm never a festival lover...

Hate the contrast it brings, for the lonely...

Dream...

Weird...

Weird dream last night...

If that's made a movie, it'd be a sell-out.

What is the deepest fear in my mind?

World Record.

Slow....

That concludes my day...

How hard is it to break a world record?

Talked to Kennon regarding the World Record thing.... suddenly miss those days so much.... (thanks for reminding that what a secondary student can do doesnt mean an adult can equally take up the same job.... degeneration of a kind, maybe?)

I think it's not so hard afterall.... I (together with my most trusted comrade) have had an attempt in 2002 :P It's real simple~

So buddy, all the best to you, and should you need any help, i'd love to devote myself in this monkey business all over again.

Coat

Curse the Britons for making the coat so delicate and nice.... but at the same time so darn expensive...

I'm not particular fond of Jose Mourinho but his coat do look good.... i found one in Sogo today that cost some pricey $7000 dollars..... OMG....

Slacking off this two days.... need to work again~

請你為你的誇獎道歉

她到北歐某國做訪問學者，週末到當地教授家中做客。

進屋看到教授五歲的小女兒，滿頭金髮，漂亮的眼睛如同清澈純藍的一潭湖水，簡直驚為天人。收下朋友帶去的中國禮物，小女孩奶聲奶氣的微笑道謝，朋友經不住誇獎說：「你長得這麼漂亮，真是可愛極了。」

教授當時並沒有說什麼，但是女兒走了後，她的臉色嚴肅起來：「你傷害了我的女兒，你要向她道歉。」
朋友大驚：「我一番好意誇獎她，傷害二字從何談起？」
教授搖搖頭：「你是因為她的漂亮而誇獎她，而漂亮這件事不是她的功勞，這取決於我和她父親的遺傳基因，與她個人基本沒有關係。但孩子還小，不會分辨，你的誇獎就會讓她認為是她的本領。而且她一旦認為天生的漂亮是值得驕傲的資本，就會看不起長相平平或是醜陋的孩子，這就給孩子造成了誤解。」

「其實，你可以誇獎她的微笑和有禮貌，這是她自己努力的結果。」所以，教授聳聳肩：「請你為你剛才的誇獎道歉。」

後來呢？我不禁問朋友。 後來，我就很正式的向教授的女兒道歉了。同時表揚她的微笑和有禮貌。而且從那以後，每當我看到漂亮的孩子，我都會對自己說，忍住你對他們容貌的誇獎，從他們成長的角度來說，這種事要處之淡然。孩子不是一件可供欣賞的瓷器或是一片可供撫摸的羽毛。他們的心靈像很軟的透明皂，每次不當的誇獎都會留下劃痕。

That's meaningful... Thanks Bonny.

Rules of life~

What are the essentials in life?

I'm still figuring it out....

but one thing is very important for me...

To keep everything simple.

Simple-minded.

Though it's very hard.

Complicated - Avril Lavigne

"Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated."

死性...不改...

忘了...忘不了...

What's happening to me?

Just for fun~

Maybe it's a little better to be the other way round.

Misunderstand

Thanks for all the encouragements....

You make me believe i can make it through.

Tiny actions sometimes make tremendous impact.

You light up my day.

Thank You. And Blessings to you.

PS. Misunderstandings misunderstood.

Revision

It's time for war again... but this time, I feel a glimpse of hope...

Decided to tackle the problem from the beginning... that is, from my year 1 notes....

Finally is due day to repay all my debts.

Still got time, Everything is possible.

To Janice, I know you're soon going to have your exam too, add oil~ and occassionally give granny and grandpa a call, they'll miss you.

All the best,
Love from Cousin.

Be Myself.

When love and hate is so hard to distinguish...

I have decided not to think about it.

I no longer care if the world view me as a hero or villain...

I just, want a simple life.

Dear Grandpa,

Please dont die.

I did it for you - Westlife

A Life without taking chances
Is no kind of life at all
You've gotta stand up for something
Even if you might fall

Gotta take that road
Wherever it might go
No matter where
No matter what
I want you to know
I want you to know

I... Tried to do my best
To do the best I could
I... Had to give my all
It's what I had to do
And I'd... Do it all again
And that's the honest truth
I... I did it for you

Maybe I was crazy
I guess I was sometimes
And maybe it's hard to change things
But I had to know what's right
Everyday you've got to live
For what you believe
Please understand
I had no choice
It's what had to be
It's what had to be

I... Tried to do my best
To do the best I could
I... Had to give my all
It's what I had to do
And I'd... Do it all again
And that's the honest truth
I... I did it for you

Oh,
And I had no choice, no
It was something that I believed
A dream that was driving me
A fire inside of me

I... Tried to do my best
To do the best I could
And I... Had to give my all
It's what I had to do
I'd... Do it all again
And that's the honest truth
I... I did it for you
I... I did it for you
I did it for you

我不愛 - 孫燕姿

你消失了　愛消失了
跟隨的我　去哪裡
我想過要放棄
自己說放棄　要放哪裡

愛已經讓我　認識我自己
在眼淚流下的味道裡
感覺不到你　才知道丟了自己

我不愛　不能愛　你給的未來　
我不愛　不能愛　你離開了我的現在　
離開現在　不回來
再等待等什麼　沒有你沒有愛存在

誰陪過我　無聲哭泣
在我最糟的夜裡
你肯定我所有的努力
最難忘那句　我了解你

一切轉變了　推翻了過去
空白　傷害　
錯　會在哪裡
我想我在那裡

我不愛　不要愛　悲傷的存在
我不愛　你不在　還以為能繼續的愛
以為再也　回不來　
再等待等什麼　我不知道如何再愛

I'm with you...

"And you know and you know
'Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow
So before I'm old I'll confess
You think that I'm strong
You're wrong
You're wrong"

Strong - Robbie Williams

"I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I, I'm with you
I'm with you...

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I, I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I, I'm with you"

I'm with you - Avril Lavigne

Stressed X2

Still... Stressed.

Mayday Mayday Mayday......

I'm just lost...

I need a map, if there is one...
I need light, but the sky is too obscured...

I need you... if you're still reading...
Where are you?

STRESSED.

..........................

Give me a mix of Testosterone, Oestrogen, Dopamine, Norepinephrine, Serotonin, Oxytocin and Vasopressin... That shall keep me calm.

Happiness...

"來尋覓快樂　它等你等你去搜索"
極樂 - 周國賢

原來.... hapiness is always around us.... they're just hiding from us.... all you have to do is to go out and search for them...

Found the joy of treating my 5 years-0ld today, she's just lovely...

Nap during lunch time.... that's cozy~

Got a rathering boring afternoon class but it's alright.... for it didnt last long...

Became a Sun Worshiper~ Looking at the sun so warm and bright when leaving the hospital today... it's been some time (maybe a year or so?) since i last caught glimpse of sunlight when school's over..... nothing can be better to brighten my mood~

And best of all.... I'm about to catch a nap soon (to replenish my energy... i've been too ill this weekend to rest properly).... dunno when i'll wake again... but does it matter? It's going to be a good sleep~~

無需要太多 - 張敬軒

....曾失去太多....

Dreams.

Weather is changing...
Fallen ill.... once again.

In my dreams... I saw you...
Will I be there in your dreams too?

從今開始 - 黎明

How long... is eternity?

"誰人又相信一世一生這膚淺對白?"
K歌之王 - 陳奕迅

I do not believe in eternity... for it is undefined....

When making promises, I'll only believe in concrete durations...

Give me 5 years... I shall renew my commitments to you on your 25th Birthday.

"It's easy to hurt and hard to heal
I wish you would try to make me feel
That you still care, you still care"
Undone - Patrick Nuo

In Class...

In class right now.... so boring... i'm just fully utilizing my time (part searching the web for journals and part writing my blog....)....

My sleep has been real bad lately.... luckily i had no class on thursday that i slept through half of the day.... originally i planned to wake earlier but just too drained..... nothing more can be done... only wake around 3 in the afternoon....

Woke and helped Kathy in doing her Final Year Project..... Hall Education.... something that is very related to me but seldomly researched.... i'm honoured that i can give my views on this in her report..

Spent the whole afternoon doing the interview....

One's heart is dead when he can turn down request from a tear-soaked people...

Feel so bad.....

Started to feel sick in mid-night... Thanks Kathy and Jonathan for delivering treatment to me...

Guilty Conscience.