Monday, April 24, 2006

Expectations....

The second day in my 22 years of life turns out to be a not so happy one.....

Once again being unable to finish a 'should-be-simple' amalgam restoration.... was so depressed when the tutor lay the kind of 'you-have-failed-my-expectation' gaze at you.... just hate this kind of feeling.... Hate so much being viewed as hopeless.....

Sigh.... was in a deep struggle lately.... when you know something is wrong but you dont correct it.... just simply let it run by itself... is it ever going to work? The worst thing being you have now idea if your corrective plan is going to work or not... that's the dilemma.... it can make things better or worse.... should i try it? but it's at a heavy expense if i choose to change...

Or maybe i should act like what you said, "Don't just be happy on the birthday, but instead make everyday a happy day...."

I found that i have become more and more 'cat-ish' lately..... i am so sensitive to the jingling bell...

PS. Patients are not supposed to take cold food and chocolate, i will keep them for you till you get well.

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