Heaven or hell....

Heaven or Hell? Where will i end up in?

Got the first ever 'above expectations' in clinic last friday... can this be my motivation to keep going?

James will soon be leaving HK, all the best, buddy~

Loke Yew High Table tomorrow.... great expectations.

PS. Still fascinated to be cat.... sometimes life might be simplier living as an American Shorthair....

Rain keep falling....

It's raining outside... the rain keep falling from the sky... so as my mood goes.... falling down and down.....

Everything goes two times in a row is too much for me.... I cant stand it....

I have failed in almost every aspect of my life...

I think i will soon carry out what i thought i will do.....

PS. A doctor can look after patient's physical health.... but in some ways, their roles are reversed.... Patient's response can be the doctor's cure to stress and problems....

快樂藥 - 李克勤

迷戀了妳 才能學會悲喜
在半生黑白世界 塗出色彩
還未終生約定妳 就已曲終席散說別離

無需賜我 能忘記妳的藥
懷念怎麼糾纏愛上
甚至分手的刺傷
而無論結局是多不堪回想起
也有甜美的心癢

從不稀罕有快樂藥可以醫好創傷
人必須心痛過 方會了解真愛
誰永沒法淡忘 想起都心傷
正是這口苦酒 帶有最美遐想

從不稀罕有快樂藥
可以醫好創傷
從傷口中察看相戀裡那些真相
甜裡混一點苦 生出一種香
你未飽經失戀 哪裡會聽情歌

遺失了妳 才能學會珍惜
來日假使能再愛 亦須感激
遺憾當天愧待妳
為我朝三暮四說別離

無需賜我 能忘記妳的藥
懷念怎麼糾纏愛上
甚至分手的刺傷
而無論結局是多不堪回想起
也有甜美的心癢

從不稀罕有快樂藥可以醫好創傷
人必須心痛過 方會了解真愛
誰永沒法淡忘 想起都心傷
正是這口苦酒 帶有最美遐想
從不稀罕有快樂藥可以醫好創傷
從傷口中察看相戀裡那些真相
甜裡混一點苦 生出一種香
我未飽經失戀 哪裡會唱情歌

Dr. Chocolate

I dont know what have happened lately.... just simply feel that i am not feeling well for classes....

Clock is ticking again... this time measuring the time from my final exam.....

Went for Soccer on Tuesday... followed by the Floor Representative meeting.... it's really tiring....

Wednesday.... skipped class.... Went for dinner with James, Jonathan, Sally and Kathy as James is soon leaving HK.... it's been great fun and thanks for the advice....

Got back to the hall but it's already 11.... missed a choir performance..... but i have no reason to intentionally miss it..... this situation really frustrate me a lot for now....

PS. Chocolates are good for health in some ways.

Expectations....

The second day in my 22 years of life turns out to be a not so happy one.....

Once again being unable to finish a 'should-be-simple' amalgam restoration.... was so depressed when the tutor lay the kind of 'you-have-failed-my-expectation' gaze at you.... just hate this kind of feeling.... Hate so much being viewed as hopeless.....

Sigh.... was in a deep struggle lately.... when you know something is wrong but you dont correct it.... just simply let it run by itself... is it ever going to work? The worst thing being you have now idea if your corrective plan is going to work or not... that's the dilemma.... it can make things better or worse.... should i try it? but it's at a heavy expense if i choose to change...

Or maybe i should act like what you said, "Don't just be happy on the birthday, but instead make everyday a happy day...."

I found that i have become more and more 'cat-ish' lately..... i am so sensitive to the jingling bell...

PS. Patients are not supposed to take cold food and chocolate, i will keep them for you till you get well.

22nd birthday~

Okay.... i must admit that..... i have turned 22 already... feel kind of old.....

Thanks so much for those who has said happy birthday to me... your sincere blessing is already my greatest gift.

Birthday wish: Start to enjoy studies and have more time to meet with friends~

PS. Happy Birthday to William Shakespeare, who was born on 23rd of April as me do.

PS.2 二十二 - 陶吉吉

春天是他最愛的季節 當微風隨意吹亂他的頭髮
他並不在一身邊世界的吵雜 只想著自己生命中的變化
還有十五分鐘才午休 從早到晚沒有想像中那麼好過
安定的日子不一定就是幸福 忘不掉他在心裡做過的夢

他今年農曆三月六號剛滿二十二 剛甩開課本要離開家看看這世界
卻發現許多煩惱要面對 oh yeah
他常會想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上學生活單純沒憂愁
他就像一朵蓓蕾滿懷希望

秋天是忽然間就來臨 青春雖然有本錢可以灑脫
一場戀愛二十二個月就結束 才知道有些感情不值得賭
九月天氣還是有點熱 他想公車再不來就走一走路
他開始明白等待未必有結果 一個人也能走上夢的旅途

他今年農曆三月六號剛滿二十二 剛甩開課本要離開家看看這世界
卻發現許多煩惱要面對 oh yeah
他常會想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上學生活單純沒憂愁
他一直滿懷希望

人生偶爾會走上一條陌路 像是沒有指標的地圖
別讓它們說你該知足 只有你知道什麼是你的幸福
他常會想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上學生活單純沒憂愁
他笑著想過未來 oh
它應該得到幸福 如此的簡單的夢 有沒有實現

End of holiday

Alright, my holiday has ended (i am still in a strong holiday mood tho...)... has done no revision in this long weekend.... however i have enjoyed a good rest..... it's time for me to get started again.....

My friends seems devoted into studies already..... i'll join you guys more....

Sorry to those i have promised to meet but somehow i failed....

I've moved....

Nothing special happened this two days..... except for the fact that i have moved to a room with a view of the sea.... feel so good.... give me all the motivation to study hard and hope that someday i can own a similiar house.....

Finished the comic "Captain Tsubasa"..... so great~

Easter Holiday (and day of resurrection?)

Finally.... my longed holiday is now here.... It's probably my very last chance to get serious about studies before my exam... gotta strive hard....

Wednesday... Woke up quite late in the afternoon.... spent the time in school doing the wax model.... found that my basic knowledge is lacking and i am not gifted in artistic stuff in any ways.....

Thursday... Clinic in the afternoon... here is the situation.... if patient fail appointment, the operator can scold them... if the students fail appointment.... the tutor can scold them... but then, when the tutor is absent and can not be found.... what can all the others do?? We finally end up under the supervision of Dr. Ted Chow and i have done a very lousy obturation on my patient...

Thursday night.... festive night... everyone in the floor is in a holiday mood and many of the old ghost of the floor were back..... happy chatting....

Friday... originally planned to go hiking in Sai Kung.... but then the weather didnt permit.... so the guys have decided to go out later in the afternoon.... Me, Horace, Jeff and Jacky went out to Mong Kok around 2 and hang out...... Been to the internet cafe for some fun, it's been some 3 or 4 years since i last hang out in such places.... Warcraft is still fun, so as Rainbow Six.... Headed for dinner afterwards and was glad that i can help Jeff in his 'special project'.... Friends are friends for life, so everything else doesnt matter at all, just wish you all the best.... hang out in cafe in Mong Kok till midnight.... it's quite a cozy cafe..... i shall visit there more often....

After chatting with Jeff and Horace tonight.... my mind is once again stirred.... what is right and what is wrong.... should i do according to what my logic told me? or should i follow my feeling? how come they are so contradicting?? I'm completely puzzled....

Hate my tutor.

Monday morning.... Was a total mess in the clinic.... clinical experience is lacking....

Afternoon..... start to hate my Oral Surgery tutor Charles Yu so much.... why he keep making the almost impossible tasks seemed so easy??? Observed him working on an extraction case today..... that's really impressive... but i gotta beat him somehow.

Tuesday.... was once again acting like a fool in today's PBL lesson again... Nightmare...

Night was spent in the Hightable.... another day lost....

Sigh.... getting a bit worried about myself... (but i shall remember your encouraging words in the lift)

Thanks Horace for the lyrics.
"Tonight, i won't be alone,
to know i don't mean i am not lonely." - Bed of Roses, Bon Jovi

Something more to share. Get your own meaning from it.

女生買左新衫

甲：咦，你呢件新衫黎喎
乙：係呀，今日我約左男朋友~
甲：好靚喎，邊度買嫁
乙：OK喇，不過我都係唔係好滿意。係SOGO買咋嘛
甲：唔係拉，好襯你呀，比我實無著得咁好睇
乙：唔係呀，你都可以試下~
甲：唔得拉，我條腰太粗拉
乙：你有無試過gigi賣廣告個隻藥呀，好有效喎
甲：試過拉，都係唔得
乙：咁你用＊＊拉，聽講都唔錯喎
甲：哎呀~個個牌子SUKI用過拉，都無咩效果
乙：SUKI本身都瘦拉，唔駛用都得
甲：係呀，我覺得佢有D似澤尻喎
乙：係呀，聽講佢最似拍左套一升的眼淚
甲：我知呀，不過一直都無咩時間DL，你DL左？
乙：無～不過男朋友燒左比我
甲：你睇你男朋友對你幾好，如果我BF有佢一半就好拉
乙：你男友都唔錯拉，個次你病左佢都有照顧你呀
甲：咩呀，我病左都係因為佢咋，個日同佢去戲院買飛就冷親
乙：哦，咁你地個日睇左咩戲呀
甲：未XXX囉，悶到我暈呀，不過個男主角YYY幾靚仔呀
乙：YYY？哦，就係做XXYYZZ的個個嘛！
甲：未係佢囉，佢其實演技一般，不過對眼好迷人。
乙：髮型都唔錯呀，我上星期飛髮個陣都見有人做果個髮型
甲：係呀，果個好難做嫁喎，你係邊間做～我都叫我BF去做先
乙：我係ABC度做。
甲：哦，就係APM個間嘛
乙：係呀，仲有呀，入面有個師傅好靚仔嫁
甲：你就係話好似Ring (Rain)個個？？
乙：就係佢～
甲：其實我都留意左佢好耐，估唔到手勢咁好
乙：哎呀～我約左我男朋友呀，佢等左我半日啦，下次再傾啦!
甲：好拉～拜拜
乙：拜拜

男生買左新衫

甲：X，新衫喎
乙：尋日買既
甲：好X
乙：X街啦

Explicit? Same Feeling? Or maybe that's the fundamental difference??

Weekend...

Alright.... not much has happened over the weekend and it's the same with my studies....

Friday morning.... found myself had become a master in bending wires as i had spent the whole morning trying to bend wire into something useful (an Adam's clasp, if i am not mistaken)..... o well.... not much i can write here.

Afternoon.... has a rather normal clinic that day.... still doing the Endo case..... i think it's about time for me to start something new.... probably.... (One note.... was kind of delighted when my tutor has take note in what i have done even when i havent presented to him yet)

Friday night... went for 2 hockey match in P2..... feel so great that our team remained unbeaten (actually two goal-less draw agains St. John and Wei Lun Hall).... owing to the fact that my stamina is really lacking, i chose to be the full back..... luckily i didnt make any mistake in the back and was able to play a free-role, involving in some counter attack as well.... nice game everyone~ (BTW, our team is called Wong Tai Sin, coz our hall colour is yellow and all the players are at least year 3 or above.... the "Big Seniors" in hall~)

Saturday.... wasted.... only to know that i can finally break free from my vicious cycle.....

Sunday.... Woke up late.... relaxed a bit and started a bit of revision befor emy father rang.... wasted the afternoon trying to fix the computer at home.... let me make myself clear... it's not my fault that any of the appliances broke down at home and it's not my responsibility to have them fixed.... i do have my works to do....... .... was kind of mad....

Today... after some hours of sleep and i'll be on my way to school again.... wish me luck...

Slothfulness.

Once again.... i have fallen again.... only this time to self indulgence and slothfulness.....

Monday... turns out that i am only responsible for one of the dislodged restoration of my patient (the other one was due to some other dentist)..... but then i have done a poor restoration on the one i am responsible for..... it so happened that the amalgam fractured off when i was checking the occlusion... need to do it again.....

Tuesday..... Unauthorized absence from school..... i'm doomed anyways....

Finally tried something new in my University life..... i have tried playing hockey that day (i'll be in a competition this coming friday... can you believe it?).... really enjoyed the feeling when playing sports..... you can single-mindedly focus on the ball only without thinking of anything else (or have the chance to think anyways)... it's been too much lately.....

Wednesday... public holiday.... another day of slacking off for me.... i kind of hate myself coz i feel my time has been drained away and i cant do much about it......

That night.... finally watched "Before Sunrise"..... which is a pretty good movie... the whole film is based on the conversation between the two lead characters (Jesse and Celine), that's something quite new to me... and the scenes are gorgeous..... just cant wait for the chance for me to visit eurpoe.....

Have been staying up all night (not for study) for some kind of project.... i was paid for that anyways (and i could have done them earlier).... should have no complaint on that.....

Didnt sleep on Wednesday night.... Went to Mong Kok and presented the draft to my boss and then had school in the afternoon..... The remade amalgam is still problematic.... the whole group was so grey after thursday clinic..... I was so tired after class that i sleep almost immediately.... only manage to wake up now.... and it's time for another day of school..... shall write later~

Where is the motivation?

Thanks Jeff for his blog entry.... You're right buddy, gotta find some goal to keep us motivated.

Alright.... nothing special has happened lately and i'm too lazy even to write my blog.... O well.... my studies has not gone the way i wished.... was performing terribly in the clinics (though i am proud to say i have saved a tooth from my tutor, who insist on a totally unnecessary Root Canal Thearpy on my patient....).... anyways, i have started to read on something i missed in my year 1 studies..... just hope it's never too late to read a book......

Went for dinner with SPOC on Friday... Angie is back.... so glad to see all of them again~

Went for movie, basic instinct 2..... Sharon Stone is no longer that seductive... but anyways.... that movie has a good plot, in some sense, it's almost like a horror movie.... when somebody can be so manipulative, that would be quite scary~

Sleep like hell on weekends....

School tomorrow again..... emergency treatment to my patient for the DISLODGED restoration.... What the hell actually happened?? Is that my fault?

Depressed....

I still want to be a GOOD dentist.