Fighting legal cover.

This is now officially true... I have no idea what's my heart's true desire. Maybe I am just too easily distracted... maybe I just wanted something bad but I didn't know how to express myself, up till the point that I let it slip and remorse about it... Maybe I am just too afraid of changes... status quo... when was the last time I take a risk about the things I like? = Okay, too much mourning. Life's treating me okay of late, at least work is... though it's still busy as hell, but at least now, I see a glimpse of a potential way-out... only if I work hard enough... Was compulsed to take leave by my boss, as my leave has escalated to a scary level... I didn't want it at all... I still have a bunch of covers to write... that's my path to salvation and please don't stop me. Guess I will have to work while I am on my leave... = Is meeting friends less and less often... missed them a lot... when will I see them? = I have a problem in my heart, I needed to talk, I needed to share and tell... who's listening?

Happiness?

What is happiness?

I seems to lose this feeling...

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I kept thinking of this topic on my way back home tonight...

I have nothing to worry about, job's okay, family too. Fortunately my health is alright... why my heart is telling me I am not satisfied with life?

It seems... I am in lack of something that defines me... nothing I did really deserve recognition.... is this the source of my dissatisfaction?

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Dunno why.... but I have a strong hope to drop everything and go for a long journey.... somewhere exotic? Let me see this world, and more importantly, let me search my own identity.

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The sun shall rise again tomorrow... and my childish thought would better be gone by then...

My birthday.

Thanks to all of my friends, my birthday has been great.

Good gathering with great food and lovely time together. Love that.

I'm sure this'll be a good year.

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Something happened around me lately...

Full of death surrounding me since birthday.... hope everything's fine for my family and my friends'.

But at the same time... love is around me...

With choice, you'll know what you needed most...

I guess I am still in the stage of searching and choosing...

Or all these nothing but an excuse?

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Work's been okay lately...

Still... crazy work hours, but I am keeping my finger crossed all these shall make me a better and more capable person.

Nothing comes for free, isnt?