Still... nothing much apart from work today.
Bad news straight from the start of the day... I was chased after by my OPS for some stupid 'cake-baking' project... domestic helper case standing order? You're wasting my time.
But still.... even if I intend to write rubbish... I still got to find time and write.
Switched-on turbo on death report writing... finished a thick, heavy file which had been sitting on my precedent's desk and mine for long time.... afterall, it's my first death report totally on my own.... I dont know if it's good or bad, this is one of the hardest file to do... lots of witness, lots of expert report. To make a fair comment is hard. Cant believe I've tackled the hardest 'boss' as my debut report... felt proud..... but in the same time, this file had took much much longer than I've expected.... now the other work suffered.
The afternoon spent on case study and write up of another trouble operaion, against unlicensed liquor premises. The operation had been done by the precedent and in truth... it was a mess. But the bosses failed to believe it and insisted on pursuing the case.
Even I was in jeopardy of 'Unlawful use of authority'... I was instructed by the boss to arrest a guy who (at that stage) I can not see any reasonable believe that he was involved.... but it wasnt until today that I learned from my boss' statement, he refused to take command of the whole operation... that in turn make my act unlawful....
Suddenly my mind rang the tune of 'FXCK YOU' by Lily Allen...
Boss, it's your idea to go against that shop... now when the situation got out of hand and you want to save you arse and walk away? No way. If you intend to walk out of this I'm sure you'll regret of what you have done...
No matter what, I will defend myself. Even if it mean to put in front of the court.
=
Enough work and rant here...
Maybe, I just need a break... some facebook, some movies and music will help too.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Work.
Finally... sent out the message how i want my team to be operating on....
I can only wait and see how well they do.
Still... my work progress stalls....
What must I do?
=
Had gym tonight... I grew weaker and weaker... not in condition?
So tired now... gotta sleep.
I can only wait and see how well they do.
Still... my work progress stalls....
What must I do?
=
Had gym tonight... I grew weaker and weaker... not in condition?
So tired now... gotta sleep.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Determination.
Post holiday syndrome kicks in... hard today.
Have no mood in my paper work, but still.... with deadline looming... I still have to do it....
Finally realize it's impossible for one person to touch up what was sub-standard in the first place...
The accountability kicks in here.... If the product bear my name, and I am the one responsible for it.... doesnt it mean I should do whatever is required to ensure the standard?
Even at the cost that I'm regarded as the arse in the company.
I'm paid to do so.
Old saying. If your boss is not happy, dont expect youself can be happy. This applies on me.... same as my staff.
I dont care how you work it in the past (though apparently, the work had been critized by the coroner before... that's not of acceptable standard).... with a new boss... there's new standard.
If you're not up to it, I'll be more than glad to trade you for a better model.
=
Sleepy sleepy now... but still want to hang on facebook.
Have no mood in my paper work, but still.... with deadline looming... I still have to do it....
Finally realize it's impossible for one person to touch up what was sub-standard in the first place...
The accountability kicks in here.... If the product bear my name, and I am the one responsible for it.... doesnt it mean I should do whatever is required to ensure the standard?
Even at the cost that I'm regarded as the arse in the company.
I'm paid to do so.
Old saying. If your boss is not happy, dont expect youself can be happy. This applies on me.... same as my staff.
I dont care how you work it in the past (though apparently, the work had been critized by the coroner before... that's not of acceptable standard).... with a new boss... there's new standard.
If you're not up to it, I'll be more than glad to trade you for a better model.
=
Sleepy sleepy now... but still want to hang on facebook.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Festive Season.
Wow, it's been so long since I wrote here.
This had been a wonderful christmas for me.... though I felt wasted everyday when i woke up and it's definitely not a holiday for recuperation, but instead, crazy fun.
Friday, Christmas Eve.
Work as usual.... but the mind drifted to the fade halfway in the morning.... Had got several meals in a short period of time.... starting with 'yum cha' with my team the first thing in the morning as all my bosses were gone for meeting in HQ.... we spent a couple hours "inspecting the license condition" of one of the chinese restaurant.... result? We're well fed.
Worked for a short while and it's time for christmas meal part 2. My boss was back and he will soon retire, he's kind enough to throw a party for all 'Admin' Wing colleague.... had turkey and many other dishes of good food in our meeting room.... lovely time...
By the time I was about to concentrate on work.... a decoration worker came in and asked if I'd mind him drilling the wall for the air-con replacement.... why on earth would he pick that time? I had no choice but to be evicted from my own office.... went to my team's office and instruct them to clean up their messy office.... by the time my room's ready... it's already 6ish and it's time for off duty.... yes, you heard it right.... no productivity for the whole day... that's impressive.
By the time I got home in evening, had a good dinner with family and was knickered by night time.... turned down a few party and the invitation to church for quality sleeping time...
Saturday, Christmas day.
It might be too long since I slept for 12 hours straight.. I woke with joint pain and a sore back....
Damn.... it ruined the whole day..... did nothing much but at home.... doing nothing... books, movies, music.... the usual.
Sunday, Boxing day.
That's where I had my christmas celebration.
From morning I started thinking about the christmas turkey... by afternoon I was at my aunt's place for christmas gathering with family... met the lovely cousins and all uncles and aunts. Grandma looked great too... shame I could stay the whole while...
Another christmas ritual.... gathering at Jeff's place... was having so much fun (apart from gambling)... when old friends get together, it's this lovely feeling.
If there were less dishes or the fact that my team didnt keep on losing.... that'd have been a perfect gathering.
Monday, still.... a holiday.
Woke up with a bad headache.... must be the cheap Christmas mulled wine the night before.... still, I manage to get to Tai Wai for cycling...
How long was my last cycling trip? Year 1?? Cant remember exactly...
Tai Wai, Tai Po, Tai Mei Tuk... and a surprise BBQ at night.... what more can I ask for? It's been joyful with you guys and gals. Miss you all.
Glad you like the presents ^^
It's about time to sleep.... tomorrow need to clear all files away....
=
It's been so long since I touched the camera...
I never know... the photos we took in Korea was still sitting there......
So sentimental...
I missed the smile.
This had been a wonderful christmas for me.... though I felt wasted everyday when i woke up and it's definitely not a holiday for recuperation, but instead, crazy fun.
Friday, Christmas Eve.
Work as usual.... but the mind drifted to the fade halfway in the morning.... Had got several meals in a short period of time.... starting with 'yum cha' with my team the first thing in the morning as all my bosses were gone for meeting in HQ.... we spent a couple hours "inspecting the license condition" of one of the chinese restaurant.... result? We're well fed.
Worked for a short while and it's time for christmas meal part 2. My boss was back and he will soon retire, he's kind enough to throw a party for all 'Admin' Wing colleague.... had turkey and many other dishes of good food in our meeting room.... lovely time...
By the time I was about to concentrate on work.... a decoration worker came in and asked if I'd mind him drilling the wall for the air-con replacement.... why on earth would he pick that time? I had no choice but to be evicted from my own office.... went to my team's office and instruct them to clean up their messy office.... by the time my room's ready... it's already 6ish and it's time for off duty.... yes, you heard it right.... no productivity for the whole day... that's impressive.
By the time I got home in evening, had a good dinner with family and was knickered by night time.... turned down a few party and the invitation to church for quality sleeping time...
Saturday, Christmas day.
It might be too long since I slept for 12 hours straight.. I woke with joint pain and a sore back....
Damn.... it ruined the whole day..... did nothing much but at home.... doing nothing... books, movies, music.... the usual.
Sunday, Boxing day.
That's where I had my christmas celebration.
From morning I started thinking about the christmas turkey... by afternoon I was at my aunt's place for christmas gathering with family... met the lovely cousins and all uncles and aunts. Grandma looked great too... shame I could stay the whole while...
Another christmas ritual.... gathering at Jeff's place... was having so much fun (apart from gambling)... when old friends get together, it's this lovely feeling.
If there were less dishes or the fact that my team didnt keep on losing.... that'd have been a perfect gathering.
Monday, still.... a holiday.
Woke up with a bad headache.... must be the cheap Christmas mulled wine the night before.... still, I manage to get to Tai Wai for cycling...
How long was my last cycling trip? Year 1?? Cant remember exactly...
Tai Wai, Tai Po, Tai Mei Tuk... and a surprise BBQ at night.... what more can I ask for? It's been joyful with you guys and gals. Miss you all.
Glad you like the presents ^^
It's about time to sleep.... tomorrow need to clear all files away....
=
It's been so long since I touched the camera...
I never know... the photos we took in Korea was still sitting there......
So sentimental...
I missed the smile.
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Another unproductive day.
Well...
It's only the second week of my new post....
But it already seemed all work become some chores to me...
Is it too early to have such feeling? Or it's just the deadline chasing making me mad?
I dont know.
I enjoy the simplicity of PSU now...
=
Even though I was slacking off... I still manage to submit my first death report to coroner... with harsh criticism from boss(es) as usual... What do you want, boss?
"Tuberculosis is of course in the lungs, cross out the lungs from your report."
O well... for the medically naive, tuberculosis is infection of the respiratory system.... little did they know, tuberculosis have 10% infection rate in other organ as well, say bone, spleen etc.... the doctor put the remarks there for a reason...
"I have no idea why they did a surgery on the patient when the X-ray record showed no fracture, You go check if this is a possible medical malpractice and report."
Well... is it so hard to understand that X-ray do have its limitation and there's actually merit for 'explorative surgery'? If no problem, fine, close it up. If there's hairline fracture, screw a plate in and it's done.....
Should I have no medical background, maybe I will be much more happy in this post, so enlightened by the bosses' comments....
C'est la vive.
=
I'm looking forward to christmas already, though I've nothing to expect to...
I just need a break.
=
再痛也不說苦
愛不用抱歉來彌補
至少我能成全你的追逐
It's only the second week of my new post....
But it already seemed all work become some chores to me...
Is it too early to have such feeling? Or it's just the deadline chasing making me mad?
I dont know.
I enjoy the simplicity of PSU now...
=
Even though I was slacking off... I still manage to submit my first death report to coroner... with harsh criticism from boss(es) as usual... What do you want, boss?
"Tuberculosis is of course in the lungs, cross out the lungs from your report."
O well... for the medically naive, tuberculosis is infection of the respiratory system.... little did they know, tuberculosis have 10% infection rate in other organ as well, say bone, spleen etc.... the doctor put the remarks there for a reason...
"I have no idea why they did a surgery on the patient when the X-ray record showed no fracture, You go check if this is a possible medical malpractice and report."
Well... is it so hard to understand that X-ray do have its limitation and there's actually merit for 'explorative surgery'? If no problem, fine, close it up. If there's hairline fracture, screw a plate in and it's done.....
Should I have no medical background, maybe I will be much more happy in this post, so enlightened by the bosses' comments....
C'est la vive.
=
I'm looking forward to christmas already, though I've nothing to expect to...
I just need a break.
=
再痛也不說苦
愛不用抱歉來彌補
至少我能成全你的追逐
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Lunch at Stanley
Must have been ill these few days....
Sleeping for hours but still feel tired the whole day.
The problem was aggrevated by the 'cocktail' yesterday, at District Christmas lunch...
Since all bosses were out of town, I take the opportunity to procrastinate... kind of.... I'd rather clean my room and dug out all old files from the bottom of drawer than to work on the death report.... gosh....
=
Had a good lunch with colleagues at Murray House today... when walking at Stanley Main Street.... lots of memories came flowing back... this cold weather, is just like a year ago...
Sleeping for hours but still feel tired the whole day.
The problem was aggrevated by the 'cocktail' yesterday, at District Christmas lunch...
Since all bosses were out of town, I take the opportunity to procrastinate... kind of.... I'd rather clean my room and dug out all old files from the bottom of drawer than to work on the death report.... gosh....
=
Had a good lunch with colleagues at Murray House today... when walking at Stanley Main Street.... lots of memories came flowing back... this cold weather, is just like a year ago...
Being picked on by top boss...
I dont know.... is the submission really that bad? Or it's just your way to give hard time to new comer?
I'm sorry to inform you, the report that you received and diligently corrected, was not my work, it's the work from the former post-holder.... I thought you said his work is good.... I think so, but I had no idea in your eyes that's already good enough...
Really, no need to do such trick, just say what you want... afterall, you're the boss.
=
Finally.... get rid of all the dust in my office.
I have no idea for how long I will stay... but the condition was too bad to be even sitting in that room, when clusters of dust will float mid-air while you're concentrating...
It's surprise finding to see the police had spent well over hundreds of man hours on some miscellaneous, trivial matter..... the nature of my post?
=
Thought of you tonight.
Take care, it's getting cold.
And all the best in exam. Support you as always.
I dont know.... is the submission really that bad? Or it's just your way to give hard time to new comer?
I'm sorry to inform you, the report that you received and diligently corrected, was not my work, it's the work from the former post-holder.... I thought you said his work is good.... I think so, but I had no idea in your eyes that's already good enough...
Really, no need to do such trick, just say what you want... afterall, you're the boss.
=
Finally.... get rid of all the dust in my office.
I have no idea for how long I will stay... but the condition was too bad to be even sitting in that room, when clusters of dust will float mid-air while you're concentrating...
It's surprise finding to see the police had spent well over hundreds of man hours on some miscellaneous, trivial matter..... the nature of my post?
=
Thought of you tonight.
Take care, it's getting cold.
And all the best in exam. Support you as always.
Monday, December 20, 2010
My brother.
Suddenly.... realize I've seldomly written about my brother here....
Probably we did not see each other often enough, not that we're not close.... but just... living in two ends of world, each busy with their own agendas.... it's hard to feel connected at times....
Brother had come back home this week.... and it's good to have him around.
What should I say about him? Well, starting from physique, he's tall, well-built, with some tendency of centralized obesity, though he always insisted that was normal for a 32 years old.
We're quite different in some aspects, he's good in computer that he opted to work in that field for a living... I am, on the contrary, more interested in how the human body worked....
We shared the views in keeping fit, often sharing gym tips.... he's a good swimmer but I bet he cant run as fast as I can.....
We're both good in bed.... dont get me wrong, I mean we both can sleep for ages....
Canto pop, we share similiar views.... he's an apple user but not me... he's a globe trotter, partly because he had to teach in many countries.... that's good for him....
We do share a taste for good food.... we're good partner in "all-you-can-eat-buffet".... ever seen two buffalo grazing through the food stands, yup, that's probably us....
This few days had been spending with brother... here and there, shopping... it's really some quality time we had.
=
Got great news from James and Nest.... my best wishes ^^ I'm deeply honoured to know that~ Should there be anything I can help, just gimme a shout.
=
"Life's like a box of chocolate, you never know what you'll get"
Hopefully, very soon I will pick a milk chocolate, just like you said.
Probably we did not see each other often enough, not that we're not close.... but just... living in two ends of world, each busy with their own agendas.... it's hard to feel connected at times....
Brother had come back home this week.... and it's good to have him around.
What should I say about him? Well, starting from physique, he's tall, well-built, with some tendency of centralized obesity, though he always insisted that was normal for a 32 years old.
We're quite different in some aspects, he's good in computer that he opted to work in that field for a living... I am, on the contrary, more interested in how the human body worked....
We shared the views in keeping fit, often sharing gym tips.... he's a good swimmer but I bet he cant run as fast as I can.....
We're both good in bed.... dont get me wrong, I mean we both can sleep for ages....
Canto pop, we share similiar views.... he's an apple user but not me... he's a globe trotter, partly because he had to teach in many countries.... that's good for him....
We do share a taste for good food.... we're good partner in "all-you-can-eat-buffet".... ever seen two buffalo grazing through the food stands, yup, that's probably us....
This few days had been spending with brother... here and there, shopping... it's really some quality time we had.
=
Got great news from James and Nest.... my best wishes ^^ I'm deeply honoured to know that~ Should there be anything I can help, just gimme a shout.
=
"Life's like a box of chocolate, you never know what you'll get"
Hopefully, very soon I will pick a milk chocolate, just like you said.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
From datingish
今天聽了一個分享。
才發現愛情，原來遠比我想像中沉重。
我對愛情的了解，是多麼的膚淺。
我在想啊，到底我們戀愛，是不是只是一種自愛的表現。
我們到頭來，只愛自己，
所以我們之所以不斷要求對方為自己付出更多更多，
甚至視一切為應份。
「你愛我，你就應該怎樣怎樣....」
我們常說蜜月期過後，愛就淡了。
對方缺點多多，我們再容不下，
其實啊，我們到底期望找一個怎樣的伴侶？
有錢的？英俊漂亮的？但他不愛你又怎樣呢？你想要這樣一個伴侶嗎？
溫柔的？體貼的？細心的？但他卻是不上班的，你又覺得好嗎？
我們都明白，事實上我們不會找到一個完美的人，
人類啊，卻有時候連自己想要什麼都搞不清楚，
淡然一笑，原來啊...
這就是為何有些人窮大半生時間和精力，
都找不到心目中那個對的人。
現實裡面，我們所謂的白馬王子，
其實並沒有我們想像中那麼英勇，
也沒台劇韓劇男角那麼溫文優雅。
我們這一堆自以為矜貴的公主啊，
也沒童話中的小鳥依人可愛吸引。
可沒極高貴氣質和超善良的心地。
如此不完美的人像我們，卻竟敢在愛情裡吹毛求疵。
我才明白，一段蜜月期的結束，
才是兩個人真正開始了解對方的開端。
我們一直以為自己是怎樣怎樣的人，
卻一邊假設了對方就是我們心裡想像的怎樣怎樣一個樣子，
期望對方付出甚至做每做馬,,,卻怎樣都不滿足。
其實啊，我們連自己都不了解，卻自以為自己也了解對方。
當我老土也好，但這是好真實好真實的一個道理，
當你開展一段感情那一刻，你就要做好準備去接受他的一切。
你必須要有心理準備，你將會在這段感情最不如意的時候，
你才會慢慢發現自己，了解自己，也發現對方是怎樣，
然後慢慢開始真正認識他最醜陋卻最真實的一面。
我們都需要容許大家有成長的空間。
不要隨便跟一個你不愛的人拍拖。
因為你將會傷害他。
這個世界上沒有一種傷害能比情傷更能讓人痛之入骨。
那種傷害的程度，將會是你無法預計之深，
可能就讓對方從此不再相信愛情，
為他帶來影響他一輩子，甚至是讓他以後不能再幸福的後遺症。
或許他不敢再愛下一個了，或許他從此不嫁不娶了，
他的眼淚，為你流的一切一切，將讓他的人生，劃下一度永不磨滅的傷口。
如果你真的愛對方，那更加不要隨便跟對方開始，
請你考慮清楚，你是否無論如何不輕言分手？
你是否能保護他的心？不讓他受傷害之餘，你絕不成為傷害他的人？
因為一旦你跟對方開始一段關係，你就是最最最能傷害他最深的人。
這種傷，不用多，一次而已，就只是僅僅一次傷害，就夠讓他痛一輩子了。
你愛他的話，求你記住好好捧住他的心，那是易碎的玻璃，
一不小心，就會摔破，還會劃損自己，
你捨得嗎？你忍心嗎？那是你喜歡的小心肝，你怎麼忍心讓他心碎？
愛情，看起來，要擁有是多麼容易的事，
一般關係，要開始的話是多麼的即興。
我們就常常讓感覺牽著我們的鼻子走，
盲目地衝啊衝，卻忘了，這一股莫名的衝動，
背後藏著一個多麼能傷人的危機。
請不要讓自己的愛情陷入危險裡面，
那是，無論如何，你都輸不起的一種代價。
才發現愛情，原來遠比我想像中沉重。
我對愛情的了解，是多麼的膚淺。
我在想啊，到底我們戀愛，是不是只是一種自愛的表現。
我們到頭來，只愛自己，
所以我們之所以不斷要求對方為自己付出更多更多，
甚至視一切為應份。
「你愛我，你就應該怎樣怎樣....」
我們常說蜜月期過後，愛就淡了。
對方缺點多多，我們再容不下，
其實啊，我們到底期望找一個怎樣的伴侶？
有錢的？英俊漂亮的？但他不愛你又怎樣呢？你想要這樣一個伴侶嗎？
溫柔的？體貼的？細心的？但他卻是不上班的，你又覺得好嗎？
我們都明白，事實上我們不會找到一個完美的人，
人類啊，卻有時候連自己想要什麼都搞不清楚，
淡然一笑，原來啊...
這就是為何有些人窮大半生時間和精力，
都找不到心目中那個對的人。
現實裡面，我們所謂的白馬王子，
其實並沒有我們想像中那麼英勇，
也沒台劇韓劇男角那麼溫文優雅。
我們這一堆自以為矜貴的公主啊，
也沒童話中的小鳥依人可愛吸引。
可沒極高貴氣質和超善良的心地。
如此不完美的人像我們，卻竟敢在愛情裡吹毛求疵。
我才明白，一段蜜月期的結束，
才是兩個人真正開始了解對方的開端。
我們一直以為自己是怎樣怎樣的人，
卻一邊假設了對方就是我們心裡想像的怎樣怎樣一個樣子，
期望對方付出甚至做每做馬,,,卻怎樣都不滿足。
其實啊，我們連自己都不了解，卻自以為自己也了解對方。
當我老土也好，但這是好真實好真實的一個道理，
當你開展一段感情那一刻，你就要做好準備去接受他的一切。
你必須要有心理準備，你將會在這段感情最不如意的時候，
你才會慢慢發現自己，了解自己，也發現對方是怎樣，
然後慢慢開始真正認識他最醜陋卻最真實的一面。
我們都需要容許大家有成長的空間。
不要隨便跟一個你不愛的人拍拖。
因為你將會傷害他。
這個世界上沒有一種傷害能比情傷更能讓人痛之入骨。
那種傷害的程度，將會是你無法預計之深，
可能就讓對方從此不再相信愛情，
為他帶來影響他一輩子，甚至是讓他以後不能再幸福的後遺症。
或許他不敢再愛下一個了，或許他從此不嫁不娶了，
他的眼淚，為你流的一切一切，將讓他的人生，劃下一度永不磨滅的傷口。
如果你真的愛對方，那更加不要隨便跟對方開始，
請你考慮清楚，你是否無論如何不輕言分手？
你是否能保護他的心？不讓他受傷害之餘，你絕不成為傷害他的人？
因為一旦你跟對方開始一段關係，你就是最最最能傷害他最深的人。
這種傷，不用多，一次而已，就只是僅僅一次傷害，就夠讓他痛一輩子了。
你愛他的話，求你記住好好捧住他的心，那是易碎的玻璃，
一不小心，就會摔破，還會劃損自己，
你捨得嗎？你忍心嗎？那是你喜歡的小心肝，你怎麼忍心讓他心碎？
愛情，看起來，要擁有是多麼容易的事，
一般關係，要開始的話是多麼的即興。
我們就常常讓感覺牽著我們的鼻子走，
盲目地衝啊衝，卻忘了，這一股莫名的衝動，
背後藏著一個多麼能傷人的危機。
請不要讓自己的愛情陷入危險裡面，
那是，無論如何，你都輸不起的一種代價。
Friday, December 17, 2010
Motorcycling.
Sometimes.... work just don't go as well as planned.
Ideally, I should have finished the death report by now... but got interrupted by an urgent legal advice and two interim report.... am I too much of a control freak? Or have I became the same 'error-finder' as my last boss? But in truth.... they're sometimes careless in preparing paper and it's my ultimate responsibilities... it's a tough post as an inspector.
Got 'gist-up' by PC again.... have reminded the PC a couple of times to attend training but he still failed to... now require an explanination from top boss... what should i say, where there's no documentary proof? Fine, blame it on me again.
Lunch with Jo, who's kind enough to save me from my hellish room..... an hour without the thought of decomposing corpse.... sounds good.
Originally I thought when I ask a sergeat for the key post at my department it should be a lurcative offer.... but right, everybody do have their own problem... I can only wait and see.
Dinner with Jo and garfield, again.... It's good to meet you two tonight.
It's not such a good idea to go out on such a cold night, leave alone on a motorbike.... but still.... it's fun to be riding~
So tired now... time to sleep, another long day and tough battle await.
=
Brother is coming back in Hong Kong now... but still, I have yet to see him and talk...
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Where.... did you go?
Where... did you hide?
Ideally, I should have finished the death report by now... but got interrupted by an urgent legal advice and two interim report.... am I too much of a control freak? Or have I became the same 'error-finder' as my last boss? But in truth.... they're sometimes careless in preparing paper and it's my ultimate responsibilities... it's a tough post as an inspector.
Got 'gist-up' by PC again.... have reminded the PC a couple of times to attend training but he still failed to... now require an explanination from top boss... what should i say, where there's no documentary proof? Fine, blame it on me again.
Lunch with Jo, who's kind enough to save me from my hellish room..... an hour without the thought of decomposing corpse.... sounds good.
Originally I thought when I ask a sergeat for the key post at my department it should be a lurcative offer.... but right, everybody do have their own problem... I can only wait and see.
Dinner with Jo and garfield, again.... It's good to meet you two tonight.
It's not such a good idea to go out on such a cold night, leave alone on a motorbike.... but still.... it's fun to be riding~
So tired now... time to sleep, another long day and tough battle await.
=
Brother is coming back in Hong Kong now... but still, I have yet to see him and talk...
=
Where.... did you go?
Where... did you hide?
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Third day.
I am a signing machine....
Only getting rid of the standard files took me almost the whole day.... Am I doing too much per file?
My upcoming death report submission will be due soon.... still have no idea where to start.... um.... bad.
Got ideas to improve on how the team works.... but there's a big obstacle for now... I need to ensure I will be the post holder for long term (ie. at least 6 to 8 months). Only with such stability, I can build the team around me, starting from my sergeant.
Issues among members of team is always the most troublesome.
Spent so much on the team today, lunch, snacks..... but it's going to paid off... I firmly believe.
Let's see how things go.
Tonight it's a wonderful dinner with Jeff and James... thanks for taking my burden.
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Mind reading is always the hardest part... what do you think?
Only getting rid of the standard files took me almost the whole day.... Am I doing too much per file?
My upcoming death report submission will be due soon.... still have no idea where to start.... um.... bad.
Got ideas to improve on how the team works.... but there's a big obstacle for now... I need to ensure I will be the post holder for long term (ie. at least 6 to 8 months). Only with such stability, I can build the team around me, starting from my sergeant.
Issues among members of team is always the most troublesome.
Spent so much on the team today, lunch, snacks..... but it's going to paid off... I firmly believe.
Let's see how things go.
Tonight it's a wonderful dinner with Jeff and James... thanks for taking my burden.
=
Mind reading is always the hardest part... what do you think?
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Second day...
It's only the second day in office.... I already felt burnt out like a Friday...
Most work's okay... just need to fix minor glitches and the team will roll again. But how long can this team last? The sergeant had a bounty on his head by big boss who want him dead (relax, only figuratively).... One staff will have promotion and another sought a better post nextdoor (serious, I do not object at all, i see it as the right path for him too).... Rebirth, through total destruction?
Workload is heavy.... the first drafted death report is some 50 pages.... no way.... now trimming it down, realistically, I want it within 20 pages...
First day to go off on time.... but went to a christmas gathering with the young offenders.... why on earth am I hanging out with them, especially when several of them were caught by my colleagues for all sorts of offence?
They're not bad at all... might have gone the wrong path, lacked self-confidence or just attention seeking... but still... it's too early to judge them... why not think of ways to help than crucifying them?
Just my thinking....
Most work's okay... just need to fix minor glitches and the team will roll again. But how long can this team last? The sergeant had a bounty on his head by big boss who want him dead (relax, only figuratively).... One staff will have promotion and another sought a better post nextdoor (serious, I do not object at all, i see it as the right path for him too).... Rebirth, through total destruction?
Workload is heavy.... the first drafted death report is some 50 pages.... no way.... now trimming it down, realistically, I want it within 20 pages...
First day to go off on time.... but went to a christmas gathering with the young offenders.... why on earth am I hanging out with them, especially when several of them were caught by my colleagues for all sorts of offence?
They're not bad at all... might have gone the wrong path, lacked self-confidence or just attention seeking... but still... it's too early to judge them... why not think of ways to help than crucifying them?
Just my thinking....
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Reborn at work.
First day at new office.
Finally know why I deserve such a large office.... if the walls are any closer, I'll have no hesitation in banging my head against them...
Gosh...
One whole day was spent understanding my new colleagues and their work, entertaining the bosses....
Another whole day was spent clearing the files.... yup, you heard it right, another whole day....
I literally spent 16 hours at work.... effective making one day into two....
So much to learn, but so little time....
Will submit my first report to Coroner soon.... Will I get 'black pig' from it??
Better not think too much about it.
As you said, BE POSITIVE... just one day or one week hardwork and I shall be a free man for the whole month..... Christmas, I'm coming~
=
Fell in love with 謝安琪 lately... 愛情預購...
Finally know why I deserve such a large office.... if the walls are any closer, I'll have no hesitation in banging my head against them...
Gosh...
One whole day was spent understanding my new colleagues and their work, entertaining the bosses....
Another whole day was spent clearing the files.... yup, you heard it right, another whole day....
I literally spent 16 hours at work.... effective making one day into two....
So much to learn, but so little time....
Will submit my first report to Coroner soon.... Will I get 'black pig' from it??
Better not think too much about it.
As you said, BE POSITIVE... just one day or one week hardwork and I shall be a free man for the whole month..... Christmas, I'm coming~
=
Fell in love with 謝安琪 lately... 愛情預購...
Monday, December 13, 2010
Deja vu?
Ever had this feeling?
Spending time day and night on the same person... only to realize that you know nothing about that person?
Just a glance, a word. And you knew the person like an old friend.
Maybe... karma do exist...
My head got wandering in the religious world again.
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How you do things doesnt matter, as long as you know you are doing the right thing.
Spending time day and night on the same person... only to realize that you know nothing about that person?
Just a glance, a word. And you knew the person like an old friend.
Maybe... karma do exist...
My head got wandering in the religious world again.
=
How you do things doesnt matter, as long as you know you are doing the right thing.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Lovely Dinner
First Saturday off in ages... thanks so much to my new post.
Thank you for the invitation to your house party, it's been great.
Interesting attendee:
1) the homeowner, well-paid but with nothing to do, self-proclaimed artist, nail painter (should I add "nail crusher"?)
2) the linguist and rapper
3) World-travelling and still have abundant vacation leave, good chef and singer
4) Me... the average one.
5) Guitarist, photographer and the mind reader
6) the model and princess?
7) the tough one and the guardian
Great cuisine... learned how to cook tasty risotto and mustard chicken.
Lots of joy and laughters, good music, great performance..... what more can I ask for?
Yes, maybe one.... Let's meet again soon. Merry Christmas everyone.
=
Received a package the night before.... it took almost 2 months to arrive... my heart sink when I see the content, coz you're no longer here...
Will you receive it if I send it to you?
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Is it autumn? or Winter?
Thank you for the invitation to your house party, it's been great.
Interesting attendee:
1) the homeowner, well-paid but with nothing to do, self-proclaimed artist, nail painter (should I add "nail crusher"?)
2) the linguist and rapper
3) World-travelling and still have abundant vacation leave, good chef and singer
4) Me... the average one.
5) Guitarist, photographer and the mind reader
6) the model and princess?
7) the tough one and the guardian
Great cuisine... learned how to cook tasty risotto and mustard chicken.
Lots of joy and laughters, good music, great performance..... what more can I ask for?
Yes, maybe one.... Let's meet again soon. Merry Christmas everyone.
=
Received a package the night before.... it took almost 2 months to arrive... my heart sink when I see the content, coz you're no longer here...
Will you receive it if I send it to you?
=
Is it autumn? or Winter?
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Pachelbel Canon
The Original
Rock style
Pachelbel Canon is one of my favourite classical piece... oh... did i say classical?
Friday, December 10, 2010
What a day.
Even before I took my seat at the office, I was summoned to appear before the bosses...
They broke news to me that I am about to be 'on loan' to MESU (and more likely transferred....)
I am going from one end of hell to the other end (of hell)....
My current boss is a human error-spotting machine.... she's a gentle one....
My future boss is the same make, only more harsh...
My preceedent can not take his style and opted to move to another post....
What will be my end?
=
MESUC... should be a post many longed for...
Five days work, 9 till 5... should be good...
Why did my mind still feel sad?
If this job come 3 months earlier... will it change everything?
If I can see you everynight...
Will you, make a totally different decision at that time?
They broke news to me that I am about to be 'on loan' to MESU (and more likely transferred....)
I am going from one end of hell to the other end (of hell)....
My current boss is a human error-spotting machine.... she's a gentle one....
My future boss is the same make, only more harsh...
My preceedent can not take his style and opted to move to another post....
What will be my end?
=
MESUC... should be a post many longed for...
Five days work, 9 till 5... should be good...
Why did my mind still feel sad?
If this job come 3 months earlier... will it change everything?
If I can see you everynight...
Will you, make a totally different decision at that time?
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Study Syndrome?
Knowing that you are not alone, will this make you feel better?
Probably... you're once again, having the nerves about exam?
Take easy. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Hope everything goes well for you.
Probably... you're once again, having the nerves about exam?
Take easy. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Hope everything goes well for you.
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Still... unknown.
Again, a day at work without much progress.
The deadline is looming closer and closer, but yet... little can be done... work from a month ago was still piled... especially when the standard is raised, things were so different...
Five reprints for a one page letter? Fonts, margins, font style, size and centering? I now get the experience to work as an editor in a printing press already... I dunno... as long as it works.
Been interviewed by boss today. Was in no mood to package my answers. I told all truths about this job. Got some feedbacks, and as expectedly, followed by a long lecture... currently, inelastic is the term for me... i aint gonna stretch much because you demand me to, but i can reassure you my effort will be at my 120%... what's the point of driving me, and my boys nuts?
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給你:
不知你為何有此決定,但人大了,身上擔子越重,這也是不爭的事實…
在可瘋狂時做盡瘋狂事,成為朋輩的話題人物當然是成就,
但生活總不會是每天像颳風—樣,千變萬化。
學懂中庸之道,靜下來時數算自己已得的,所經歷的,
心中仍然懷著夢想,就是停下來,也只是為未來打好基礎…
只要知道目標在那,又何必急於一時半刻?
好好照顧身體,未來的旅程可多著呢~
共勉之。
P.S. 能見你走出迷思真好…你也啓發了我,又是時候將我積在心底的to do list整理—下了~
"微笑行動"的義工牙醫…好像跟我走近了一步。
The deadline is looming closer and closer, but yet... little can be done... work from a month ago was still piled... especially when the standard is raised, things were so different...
Five reprints for a one page letter? Fonts, margins, font style, size and centering? I now get the experience to work as an editor in a printing press already... I dunno... as long as it works.
Been interviewed by boss today. Was in no mood to package my answers. I told all truths about this job. Got some feedbacks, and as expectedly, followed by a long lecture... currently, inelastic is the term for me... i aint gonna stretch much because you demand me to, but i can reassure you my effort will be at my 120%... what's the point of driving me, and my boys nuts?
=
給你:
不知你為何有此決定,但人大了,身上擔子越重,這也是不爭的事實…
在可瘋狂時做盡瘋狂事,成為朋輩的話題人物當然是成就,
但生活總不會是每天像颳風—樣,千變萬化。
學懂中庸之道,靜下來時數算自己已得的,所經歷的,
心中仍然懷著夢想,就是停下來,也只是為未來打好基礎…
只要知道目標在那,又何必急於一時半刻?
好好照顧身體,未來的旅程可多著呢~
共勉之。
P.S. 能見你走出迷思真好…你也啓發了我,又是時候將我積在心底的to do list整理—下了~
"微笑行動"的義工牙醫…好像跟我走近了一步。
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Dreams
If dream is a vessel...
After so many voyages, you should have know a bit more of me...
Or.... are they lost now? Just like my heart?
After so many voyages, you should have know a bit more of me...
Or.... are they lost now? Just like my heart?
Anxiety Disorder...
I use to think that I am okay when dealing with stress.... but it ended up that I really am not...
I will now check and recheck every documents prior to their submission... editing and reprinting everything..... even when they're submitted I get nervous, fearing my office phone will ring at any time.... to be summoned for correction.....
You call this normal? My humble salary mean I got to bare all these stress?
I dont know....
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Motorcycle lesson today...
Not a bad feeling... at least I'm still alive...
=
"The social network" tonight.... It's been a while since I saw movie with such tension, no action, mostly pure dialogue.... but intense.
"You're not an asshole. You're just trying so hard to be."
Interesting pharse.... time to repent?
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Finally.... I got the gift that I was looking for.... but.... circumstances changed... I'm nobody now.
I will now check and recheck every documents prior to their submission... editing and reprinting everything..... even when they're submitted I get nervous, fearing my office phone will ring at any time.... to be summoned for correction.....
You call this normal? My humble salary mean I got to bare all these stress?
I dont know....
=
Motorcycle lesson today...
Not a bad feeling... at least I'm still alive...
=
"The social network" tonight.... It's been a while since I saw movie with such tension, no action, mostly pure dialogue.... but intense.
"You're not an asshole. You're just trying so hard to be."
Interesting pharse.... time to repent?
=
Finally.... I got the gift that I was looking for.... but.... circumstances changed... I'm nobody now.
Monday, December 06, 2010
Blessing or Curse?
Nothing is a coincidence...
Do you call it luck? Whenever I am on duty the radio quiet down...
Nothing.... just absolutely nothing....
A shift, B shift and C shift...
Even when there're major inciden in Aberdeen lately, they fall on my off day or other shift....
I am getting bored...
Am I heading the right direction?
Do you call it luck? Whenever I am on duty the radio quiet down...
Nothing.... just absolutely nothing....
A shift, B shift and C shift...
Even when there're major inciden in Aberdeen lately, they fall on my off day or other shift....
I am getting bored...
Am I heading the right direction?
名校教了我什麼 — 女校生的反思
明報專訊
直資名校被揭發一大堆混帳，那部古老幻燈片機就在我的腦袋開動不斷重播我的中學校園片段，晃眼已是十多年前的泛黃舊事。
我的母校，是港島區一家有逾百年歷史的女校，人稱「老牌名校」、「貴族學校」。我曾經為自己能夠入讀這樣的名校感到無比自豪，因為我們一班女生，既能說流利英語、又懂得吃西餐禮儀、亦能夠淡定自信於人前表現自己，根本唔將隔籬學校著旗袍紮孖辮的四眼妹放在眼內。
直至我做了記者，我才發現，所謂名校生獨有的自信、傲氣，還有世故、現實，跟那隻只懂呱呱叫的井底之蛙，沒太大分別。
八九六四那年，我在魚涌一間街坊中文小學讀小五。我是班長，自發貼了大堆剪報，發起同學手纏黑布。翌年六四1周年如是，我還記得我們和班主任一起哭。
1991年，我被派到那所名女校升中一，班主任比我更興奮，我卻戰戰兢兢。
我被編入全級最top的A班，噩夢開始——老師上課全講雞腸我聽唔明、英文堂默生字我無個寫得出、原校小學升上來的個個都已埋堆唔受我玩，和我一樣的外來生全班只有五六人，她們不是半唐番就是英文小學出身，來自中文小學的好像只我一個。
同窗：我唔想自己中文咁叻
中文堂，成為我的避難所，也是我唯一找回點點信心的課堂。可惜，我的同學都看不起中文，反而為自己中文成績遜於英文而感「自豪」。我很記得，中二那年我的同窗中文測驗全班最高分，她放學時卻苦瓜乾面口道﹕「我唔想自己中文咁叻，我要英文勁呀。」
不單我的同學，後過渡期年代的修女校長，也不將中文放在眼內。中三起我加入中文辯論隊，校方對我們的重視遠不及英文辯論，我的大師姐隊員都是高材生，閒談時笑道﹕「校長唔理我仲好，輸都無壓力。」據說，修女校長的臉孔在回歸後180度轉變，小師妹通風報訊，Sister近年經常強調要向北望學好普通話，轉直資後又花大筆錢裝修搞個什麼孔子學堂，希望girls都要學好中國文化。
名校，就是如此現實。它貫輸的價值觀是七個字——識時務者為俊傑。不單校長，老師、同學，都很懂得做人——做一個成功的主流香港人，當然離不開一個錢字。
名校價值：識時務者為俊傑
我的同學，家住干德道司徒拔道，每天司機駕勞斯萊斯定時定候接送。中二那年，富家女邀請我到她的大潭複式洋房，我到今天仍記得那個無敵大海景。那晚，我回到數百方呎的舊樓——我的家，感到前所未有的自卑。
同學雖然有錢，但她們不算show off——應該說，她們由開口講英文到言談間展現個人長處，是骨子裏自然流露的自信，外人覺得她們「寸」、「扮」，但那其實是她們是獨有的上流社會溝通方式、貴族間的溝通密碼。午飯鐘響，校園是中英夾雜的喧鬧、好動女生在球場打英式netball而非籃球羽毛球、貪靚的討論暑假去歐洲買什麼名牌。沒有人會談六四，也懶理香港回歸將至。
我當年自覺格格不入，這幾天我不停思考，這個年代獲獎學金的窮學生，入到直資學校後，可有當年我的自卑、孤單？
年輕的我用了半年時間，流了很多淚水、開了多晚通宵，就全程投入校園生活，學懂說美國口音英文、不怕在堂上舉手答問題、在同學面前不再害羞，我學會了如何做個presentable的名校生。我的成績由包尾變成中等，更獲頒全年進步獎。我開始享受校園生活，和我的富家同學一起溫習看戲談天說笑。我享受自己被標籤成「A班精英」，有名人來校探訪，校長只會把他帶到我們A班；朗讀話劇跳舞我們A班都拿冠軍；老師最疼惜的又是我們A班。
勝王敗寇的遊戲規則
名校的遊戲規則是「精英制」，你入了A班、到獎，就是精英中的精英，如盛放牡丹成眾人焦點，其他班別的同學，只是你的綠葉。名校精英制，簡單來說是套用職場遊戲規則——勝者為王敗者為寇，職場的上位伎倆，名校生早在少年十五二十時就學懂——懂得識時務、懂看人眉頭眼額、懂把握機會表現自己長處。但少女含苞待放的天真純情，去了哪兒？年輕人對社會的熱血，為什麼丁點都不見？
中六那年，我被同學選了當Head Girl（雖然我不是會考狀元）。那年我18歲，成年了，看到所謂名校生、我的同學師妹，很多人雖然表面自信家境富裕，但其實心靈空虛，有的放學流連百貨公司不願回家、有的故意不穿整齊校服引人注意。我將我的發現告訴校長老師，希望他們多花時間關心同學，而非一味叫她們參加比賽幫學校獎。
結果我被大，更被視為最不聽話的Head Girl。
10多年了，如今，我不少中學同學都很有成就，有的是某某大公司主管、有的嫁了有錢人錦上添花。數月前，在婚宴重遇昔日的A班同學，她們說起自己的職業、老公、子女，當年班房裏的自信又再呈現，表現自己似乎是名校生的終身任務。
可是，我已不再是A班那個小薯仔，我不想再追隨A班大隊了。
離開名校投身記者工作後，我看到世界之大，不是只有干德道豪宅、生活也不是只有名牌獎、做人的價值也不是只懂得看人眉頭眼額。世界之大、胸襟之廣，是即使我們家住干德道，也知道香港有個地方叫深水有很多板間房；即使我們追逐名利，也關心世界大事懂得分辨是非黑白，而非趨炎附勢。
倒模生產典型香港人
教育的終極目標，是訓練每個人的獨立思考、批判思想。但名校在這方面做到幾多？名校最成功的，是它大批倒模生產一個個典型香港人——實際、精叻、識上位、識表現自己。但更深層的價值——真、善、美，名校又教了幾多？
這個每個名校生都應思考的問題。
後記
我不憎恨我的母校，畢竟它教曉我很多實際的。到今天我最好的朋友，都是和我背景類近的中學同學。雖然她們不讀報、不關心時事，但都有一顆溫柔的心。我預科時的中文老師是我最尊敬的人，也是我的死黨。
寫這篇文章，是希望香港人不要盲目貪慕名牌。所謂名校的教育理念，你作為家長是否認同？更重要的，是你希望學校教曉你的子女什麼？
而我最希望，香港出色的窮學生與富學生，都有平等機會入讀優質學校，這卻是我對直資概念的最大質疑。
文 蘆葦
編輯 屈曉彤、劉逸芝
[We never question our values. We just know how to be proud of them.]
What's wrong with that? If you're enjoying it, proud of it, will you question the value?
直資名校被揭發一大堆混帳，那部古老幻燈片機就在我的腦袋開動不斷重播我的中學校園片段，晃眼已是十多年前的泛黃舊事。
我的母校，是港島區一家有逾百年歷史的女校，人稱「老牌名校」、「貴族學校」。我曾經為自己能夠入讀這樣的名校感到無比自豪，因為我們一班女生，既能說流利英語、又懂得吃西餐禮儀、亦能夠淡定自信於人前表現自己，根本唔將隔籬學校著旗袍紮孖辮的四眼妹放在眼內。
直至我做了記者，我才發現，所謂名校生獨有的自信、傲氣，還有世故、現實，跟那隻只懂呱呱叫的井底之蛙，沒太大分別。
八九六四那年，我在魚涌一間街坊中文小學讀小五。我是班長，自發貼了大堆剪報，發起同學手纏黑布。翌年六四1周年如是，我還記得我們和班主任一起哭。
1991年，我被派到那所名女校升中一，班主任比我更興奮，我卻戰戰兢兢。
我被編入全級最top的A班，噩夢開始——老師上課全講雞腸我聽唔明、英文堂默生字我無個寫得出、原校小學升上來的個個都已埋堆唔受我玩，和我一樣的外來生全班只有五六人，她們不是半唐番就是英文小學出身，來自中文小學的好像只我一個。
同窗：我唔想自己中文咁叻
中文堂，成為我的避難所，也是我唯一找回點點信心的課堂。可惜，我的同學都看不起中文，反而為自己中文成績遜於英文而感「自豪」。我很記得，中二那年我的同窗中文測驗全班最高分，她放學時卻苦瓜乾面口道﹕「我唔想自己中文咁叻，我要英文勁呀。」
不單我的同學，後過渡期年代的修女校長，也不將中文放在眼內。中三起我加入中文辯論隊，校方對我們的重視遠不及英文辯論，我的大師姐隊員都是高材生，閒談時笑道﹕「校長唔理我仲好，輸都無壓力。」據說，修女校長的臉孔在回歸後180度轉變，小師妹通風報訊，Sister近年經常強調要向北望學好普通話，轉直資後又花大筆錢裝修搞個什麼孔子學堂，希望girls都要學好中國文化。
名校，就是如此現實。它貫輸的價值觀是七個字——識時務者為俊傑。不單校長，老師、同學，都很懂得做人——做一個成功的主流香港人，當然離不開一個錢字。
名校價值：識時務者為俊傑
我的同學，家住干德道司徒拔道，每天司機駕勞斯萊斯定時定候接送。中二那年，富家女邀請我到她的大潭複式洋房，我到今天仍記得那個無敵大海景。那晚，我回到數百方呎的舊樓——我的家，感到前所未有的自卑。
同學雖然有錢，但她們不算show off——應該說，她們由開口講英文到言談間展現個人長處，是骨子裏自然流露的自信，外人覺得她們「寸」、「扮」，但那其實是她們是獨有的上流社會溝通方式、貴族間的溝通密碼。午飯鐘響，校園是中英夾雜的喧鬧、好動女生在球場打英式netball而非籃球羽毛球、貪靚的討論暑假去歐洲買什麼名牌。沒有人會談六四，也懶理香港回歸將至。
我當年自覺格格不入，這幾天我不停思考，這個年代獲獎學金的窮學生，入到直資學校後，可有當年我的自卑、孤單？
年輕的我用了半年時間，流了很多淚水、開了多晚通宵，就全程投入校園生活，學懂說美國口音英文、不怕在堂上舉手答問題、在同學面前不再害羞，我學會了如何做個presentable的名校生。我的成績由包尾變成中等，更獲頒全年進步獎。我開始享受校園生活，和我的富家同學一起溫習看戲談天說笑。我享受自己被標籤成「A班精英」，有名人來校探訪，校長只會把他帶到我們A班；朗讀話劇跳舞我們A班都拿冠軍；老師最疼惜的又是我們A班。
勝王敗寇的遊戲規則
名校的遊戲規則是「精英制」，你入了A班、到獎，就是精英中的精英，如盛放牡丹成眾人焦點，其他班別的同學，只是你的綠葉。名校精英制，簡單來說是套用職場遊戲規則——勝者為王敗者為寇，職場的上位伎倆，名校生早在少年十五二十時就學懂——懂得識時務、懂看人眉頭眼額、懂把握機會表現自己長處。但少女含苞待放的天真純情，去了哪兒？年輕人對社會的熱血，為什麼丁點都不見？
中六那年，我被同學選了當Head Girl（雖然我不是會考狀元）。那年我18歲，成年了，看到所謂名校生、我的同學師妹，很多人雖然表面自信家境富裕，但其實心靈空虛，有的放學流連百貨公司不願回家、有的故意不穿整齊校服引人注意。我將我的發現告訴校長老師，希望他們多花時間關心同學，而非一味叫她們參加比賽幫學校獎。
結果我被大，更被視為最不聽話的Head Girl。
10多年了，如今，我不少中學同學都很有成就，有的是某某大公司主管、有的嫁了有錢人錦上添花。數月前，在婚宴重遇昔日的A班同學，她們說起自己的職業、老公、子女，當年班房裏的自信又再呈現，表現自己似乎是名校生的終身任務。
可是，我已不再是A班那個小薯仔，我不想再追隨A班大隊了。
離開名校投身記者工作後，我看到世界之大，不是只有干德道豪宅、生活也不是只有名牌獎、做人的價值也不是只懂得看人眉頭眼額。世界之大、胸襟之廣，是即使我們家住干德道，也知道香港有個地方叫深水有很多板間房；即使我們追逐名利，也關心世界大事懂得分辨是非黑白，而非趨炎附勢。
倒模生產典型香港人
教育的終極目標，是訓練每個人的獨立思考、批判思想。但名校在這方面做到幾多？名校最成功的，是它大批倒模生產一個個典型香港人——實際、精叻、識上位、識表現自己。但更深層的價值——真、善、美，名校又教了幾多？
這個每個名校生都應思考的問題。
後記
我不憎恨我的母校，畢竟它教曉我很多實際的。到今天我最好的朋友，都是和我背景類近的中學同學。雖然她們不讀報、不關心時事，但都有一顆溫柔的心。我預科時的中文老師是我最尊敬的人，也是我的死黨。
寫這篇文章，是希望香港人不要盲目貪慕名牌。所謂名校的教育理念，你作為家長是否認同？更重要的，是你希望學校教曉你的子女什麼？
而我最希望，香港出色的窮學生與富學生，都有平等機會入讀優質學校，這卻是我對直資概念的最大質疑。
文 蘆葦
編輯 屈曉彤、劉逸芝
[We never question our values. We just know how to be proud of them.]
What's wrong with that? If you're enjoying it, proud of it, will you question the value?
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Saturday, December 04, 2010
My niece.
Work's still like crap.... I'd rather not think too much about it.
Went to sister's place tonight.... finally met my adorable and lovely niece... She's such a sleep beauty.
Sis is now living in such a cozy environment at Ma Wan.... the place reminds me of Toronto with a trace of moderness of Tokyo.... shame it's really so far away...
Seeing Sis taking care of her daughter.... with so much effort, so many sleepless night... is it really worth it? I thought of you, you maybe right, at certain stage, this aint a logical choice at all.
But when I see the satisfying smile on Sis and her husband.... I seems to know why. It's so magical.
Went to sister's place tonight.... finally met my adorable and lovely niece... She's such a sleep beauty.
Sis is now living in such a cozy environment at Ma Wan.... the place reminds me of Toronto with a trace of moderness of Tokyo.... shame it's really so far away...
Seeing Sis taking care of her daughter.... with so much effort, so many sleepless night... is it really worth it? I thought of you, you maybe right, at certain stage, this aint a logical choice at all.
But when I see the satisfying smile on Sis and her husband.... I seems to know why. It's so magical.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
HIO
Whilst compiling file on HIO today, I noticed even mentally unsuitable for the job can be classified as Health impaired officer too.... guess I'm already one...
I hate so much to pop back to office on hours where I should obviously be off and relaxing at home... Cant help but think is it really worth it?
I need a break, a nice long break from all these...
P.S. Seeing someone do it is so different than what you will experience... but still... it's good to see you having such passion.
I hate so much to pop back to office on hours where I should obviously be off and relaxing at home... Cant help but think is it really worth it?
I need a break, a nice long break from all these...
P.S. Seeing someone do it is so different than what you will experience... but still... it's good to see you having such passion.
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Book store...
It's been so long I can find a weekday afternoon for a tour in bookstore...
Got a few books that I always wanted...
If you like the writer, there is a high likelyhood that you share the same value with the writer...
I want to get to know you.
Got a few books that I always wanted...
If you like the writer, there is a high likelyhood that you share the same value with the writer...
I want to get to know you.
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