It's once again, a while since I blog.
Have no particular reason except for the fact that I was 1)busy, 2)lazy, 3)time's short, 4) got no mood, 5) got nothing interesting to write..... yeah, the same reason.
See what I've done lately.
Wednesday, my time was wasted by my DMI over some overtly simple procedures... We're supposed to help out on Saturday's Passing Out Parade, however, we were bored with hours and hours briefing (he'd done it 5 times in total over several days)..... Quote from my previous instructor, "It's not rocket science". I now understand how brain and rank relates.... poor guy.
Got something to be happy for that day, scored a perfect mark from range course, it's really a revenge from last time (the same course) when I accidentally missed one bullet by a fraction of centimeter..... But my joy was short-lasted.... Mi wasnt doing as well this course and the whole night was in a bad atmosphere... Enjoy the successes, and take easy on failures.... is it so hard to achieve?
Thursday, Routine schedule.... a bit worried over Mi's RC performance.... wanted to have some kind of tutorage to her during the weekend but didnt work out.... gosh, let's see how it goes.
Friday, another nothing much day.... tactics, followed by lectures and then PT lesson.... we did skipping for the physical training..... it's such hot and wet day and I'm sweating profusely.... raised a bit of the memories of the last hell week..... I dunno..... it's looming closer and closer and I'd better not think too much about it.
Went out for movies at night, "Up in the air" starred by George Clooney..... what more can I say? Good actor, good plot, depicted the misery of men (more specifically, middle-aged men... but the same applies to different ages and circumstances as well, you'll find similiarities with you) Certainly worth 85 marks or more.
Talked with Jeff late in the night... it's been good.... thing are not going too well lately but I'm certainly both of us will make it through somehow.... just hang tough buddy.
Saturday.... Passing Out Parade for PI 515 and 516.... so many thoughts.... seems like 173 days can do a lot to change a man.... but I needed more time.... let me get rid of my inner devil and perform in Hell week.... then I'll have my days in the passing out parade some day in May.
Weekend... Nothing much.... things as usual... watched night in museum 2.... quite funny.... Mi got sick at night.... was it a flu? a panic attack? or effect from drugs? I couldnt tell..... but it has come in a bad enough time that left her vulnerable... hope she'll get well soon.....
No need to be worry babe.... things will be just fine and we'll get through the exercise soon enough... Relax.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Day 170
A Tuesday.... just like any other tuesday.... it's a boring work day.
Maybe I've lost the passion to blog about my daily routine.... it's just.... too rouine...
Today is no different..... PT in the morning (medicine ball) and then OU tutorial and lecture.
During the lecture I started reading a new book, Cecilia Ahern, "Where the Rainbow ends"..... books need not be philosophical or dramatic to be good.... The ease of reading is more important.... like today, I've flipped through 6o plus pages in 2 hours.... it's what I call a "Good-read".... a good book for relaxation.
Night.... life's like a roller coaster ride..... when everything's on the up and seems steady, a bump and fall can happen at any second..... everything seems settled and suddenly you're panicking about your prefect duties... I dont mean to push you on anything but I just want to be a positive influence..... sorry if you feel bad about it.
Nevermind, life sucks as usual.
Maybe I've lost the passion to blog about my daily routine.... it's just.... too rouine...
Today is no different..... PT in the morning (medicine ball) and then OU tutorial and lecture.
During the lecture I started reading a new book, Cecilia Ahern, "Where the Rainbow ends"..... books need not be philosophical or dramatic to be good.... The ease of reading is more important.... like today, I've flipped through 6o plus pages in 2 hours.... it's what I call a "Good-read".... a good book for relaxation.
Night.... life's like a roller coaster ride..... when everything's on the up and seems steady, a bump and fall can happen at any second..... everything seems settled and suddenly you're panicking about your prefect duties... I dont mean to push you on anything but I just want to be a positive influence..... sorry if you feel bad about it.
Nevermind, life sucks as usual.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Day 169
Though it's the start of the week.... but had no momentum for work at all.... maybe I was confined without a real break for too long?
PSUC day.... exercise 7. I had seen most of the exercise they're putting out.... so when it's my turn to be commander, they've made up a new case for me...... a terrorist attack with poisoning at a water tank...... Well.... the case was not done too well but I'm glad I've exorcised some of the inner devil... but the comments from staff were awful.... what must i say? Just let it be...
Went out to causewaybay for dinner..... received the sweetest Valentine's gift ever.... I love it and I'll surely fill more and more 'blank pages' there..... bit by bit, everyday.
Love you.
PSUC day.... exercise 7. I had seen most of the exercise they're putting out.... so when it's my turn to be commander, they've made up a new case for me...... a terrorist attack with poisoning at a water tank...... Well.... the case was not done too well but I'm glad I've exorcised some of the inner devil... but the comments from staff were awful.... what must i say? Just let it be...
Went out to causewaybay for dinner..... received the sweetest Valentine's gift ever.... I love it and I'll surely fill more and more 'blank pages' there..... bit by bit, everyday.
Love you.
Day 167, 168 and confinement weekend.
Gosh, what a week....
Thursday
Nothing much on this day.... the usual footdrill, and the RC lesson where I was doing the demostration mostly..... and the OU time was spent either sleeping or reading..... and today I've made up my mind on the mobile phone selection..... Nokia N series is no longer my choice as they do not support multi-touch and the map function was obsolete.... current target is likely to be the New Google Phone "Nexus One". Relatively low price among smart phone, good Google support and being the flagship phone of Google Inc I have confidence in the after sale support... the only draw back being the lack of chinese handwriting input.... but i believe those will be solved soon enough with the worldwide release (including taiwan)..... better ask the service provider if there's such a plan for this phone, or else I shall order it online.
Thursday night spent thinking of excuses to skive work the next day..... as it's the physical fitness exam.... there's such irrational fear that I'd almost trade anything if I were allowed to skip that test......
Friday
Ended up the excuses were not used. I've decided to go back to work..... Tactics in the morning was normal.... the weather is freezing that I can hardly remember anything but the cold......
Afternoon, PT test and lecture, routine stuff. I'm glad my fitness performance was slightly better, now with more push ups being done and I can tolerate better with the fatigue.... Hope this can improve my performance during hell week.
Mess night..... finally..... my past colleagues were having their last 'supper' in the mess..... the speech by the CIs were hilarious and so many vivid memories went floating back..... I hope the next mess night come soon enough.....
Some collateral damage were done by the other squads..... we (all PIs) were confined in the college for the weekend (with our squad did nothing wrong..... just a political decision)..... gosh... I've totally wasted this weekend by locking myself in the room, playing game till I'm blind and living the life of a zombie.....
I now reflect..... whenever there's hardship coming up (eg. AL exam, Year 5 Final), there's always a time I'll act like this, self isolation, social withdrawal, emerge myself into the world of game, skipping meal, lacking sleep (and personal hygiene at times)..... It is such scary experience....
I'm glad this time I'm not alone.... being well-fed and taken care of..... I owe you every apologies and gratitudes.....
For every cloud there's always a silver lining...... everytime I did this I can manage the hardship in the end, right? I'm sure the hell week this time is not going to trouble me..... Believe.
PS. There might be tiny, nitty-gritty conflicts that we have..... with you being emotional or me being unreasonable at times..... but I believe, if love is there, we can always settle it out. I'm glad I've found you. Have faith.
Thursday
Nothing much on this day.... the usual footdrill, and the RC lesson where I was doing the demostration mostly..... and the OU time was spent either sleeping or reading..... and today I've made up my mind on the mobile phone selection..... Nokia N series is no longer my choice as they do not support multi-touch and the map function was obsolete.... current target is likely to be the New Google Phone "Nexus One". Relatively low price among smart phone, good Google support and being the flagship phone of Google Inc I have confidence in the after sale support... the only draw back being the lack of chinese handwriting input.... but i believe those will be solved soon enough with the worldwide release (including taiwan)..... better ask the service provider if there's such a plan for this phone, or else I shall order it online.
Thursday night spent thinking of excuses to skive work the next day..... as it's the physical fitness exam.... there's such irrational fear that I'd almost trade anything if I were allowed to skip that test......
Friday
Ended up the excuses were not used. I've decided to go back to work..... Tactics in the morning was normal.... the weather is freezing that I can hardly remember anything but the cold......
Afternoon, PT test and lecture, routine stuff. I'm glad my fitness performance was slightly better, now with more push ups being done and I can tolerate better with the fatigue.... Hope this can improve my performance during hell week.
Mess night..... finally..... my past colleagues were having their last 'supper' in the mess..... the speech by the CIs were hilarious and so many vivid memories went floating back..... I hope the next mess night come soon enough.....
Some collateral damage were done by the other squads..... we (all PIs) were confined in the college for the weekend (with our squad did nothing wrong..... just a political decision)..... gosh... I've totally wasted this weekend by locking myself in the room, playing game till I'm blind and living the life of a zombie.....
I now reflect..... whenever there's hardship coming up (eg. AL exam, Year 5 Final), there's always a time I'll act like this, self isolation, social withdrawal, emerge myself into the world of game, skipping meal, lacking sleep (and personal hygiene at times)..... It is such scary experience....
I'm glad this time I'm not alone.... being well-fed and taken care of..... I owe you every apologies and gratitudes.....
For every cloud there's always a silver lining...... everytime I did this I can manage the hardship in the end, right? I'm sure the hell week this time is not going to trouble me..... Believe.
PS. There might be tiny, nitty-gritty conflicts that we have..... with you being emotional or me being unreasonable at times..... but I believe, if love is there, we can always settle it out. I'm glad I've found you. Have faith.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Day 166
The work day after the long (or not so long) Chinese New Year holiday....
Nothing too much actually.....
The same useless, drill till you die footdrill session.....
Exam debriefing.... same old mistake made.... but this time I've already scored 10 more points than last one.... so no complaint.....
OU tutorial..... sleeping time.....
OU lecture..... even more sleeping time.....
Went out for hair cut and a dinner in Aberdeen..... It's such a cold day.
Nothing too much actually.....
The same useless, drill till you die footdrill session.....
Exam debriefing.... same old mistake made.... but this time I've already scored 10 more points than last one.... so no complaint.....
OU tutorial..... sleeping time.....
OU lecture..... even more sleeping time.....
Went out for hair cut and a dinner in Aberdeen..... It's such a cold day.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Chinese New Year
This chinese new year has been a good one overall.
More time with family and lover.... though in the expense of friends though.
Let me recapitulate what I've done in this holiday.
Saturday/13th Feb/Day before lunar new year
Still, was confined in heath house till 1500. Time was spent doing the death report.... been through an raid by the DMI and survived.... though some colleagues were being unlucky and received further confinement.
Didnt waste a minute after the confinement and went shopping in mong kok..... then got back home for the 'reunion' dinner.... it's a lovely meal at Uncle Patrick's house.... later that night got out to the new year's fair in causeway bay with Mi.... it's so cold and the sky is always drizzling (if not showering)..... and the fair is so crowded..... um... holiday mood will always impair one's judgement..... nevermind..... still manage to get some souvenir for my cousins.
Sunday/14th Feb/1st day of lunar new year and St. Valentine's day
Spent the whole morning and afternoon at home.... nothing much.....
Dinner with family at grandma's place... some accident happened after meal as my aunt slipped and bumped her head, was eventually sent to Eastern Hospital for emergency treatment.... apart from that, all is fine.....
Monday/15th Feb/ 2nd day of lunar new year
It's been long long time since I can do nothing at home.... waking up, watched TV for a while.... the rest of the day was spent formatting my laptop and reinstalling every again..... it's such a tedious task but I'm glad that should have saved me some 4000 dollars for a new one as my laptop is good as new now (as long as it can serve its purpose of word processing and web browsing, I have no complaint)
Slept late late at night..... watched a couple of movies on TV......
Tuesday/16th Feb/3rd day of lunar new year
Woke up around noon, a brunch at home and head out to HKU campus to take grad photo with Mi..... It's a bit cold but all is not too bad.... my angle of mouth is a bit numb from the constant smiling and my eyes were blurred from the flashlight.....
Had a dinner with Mi and her parents in westwood plaza.... and it's 'back to reality' time..... and here I am now.... got back to police school and waiting a new week to start.... I'm sleepy now and must sleep soon.... later then.
PS. Horace and Kevin called tonight.... it's been so good chatting with you guys.... hope to meet up soon.
More time with family and lover.... though in the expense of friends though.
Let me recapitulate what I've done in this holiday.
Saturday/13th Feb/Day before lunar new year
Still, was confined in heath house till 1500. Time was spent doing the death report.... been through an raid by the DMI and survived.... though some colleagues were being unlucky and received further confinement.
Didnt waste a minute after the confinement and went shopping in mong kok..... then got back home for the 'reunion' dinner.... it's a lovely meal at Uncle Patrick's house.... later that night got out to the new year's fair in causeway bay with Mi.... it's so cold and the sky is always drizzling (if not showering)..... and the fair is so crowded..... um... holiday mood will always impair one's judgement..... nevermind..... still manage to get some souvenir for my cousins.
Sunday/14th Feb/1st day of lunar new year and St. Valentine's day
Spent the whole morning and afternoon at home.... nothing much.....
Dinner with family at grandma's place... some accident happened after meal as my aunt slipped and bumped her head, was eventually sent to Eastern Hospital for emergency treatment.... apart from that, all is fine.....
Monday/15th Feb/ 2nd day of lunar new year
It's been long long time since I can do nothing at home.... waking up, watched TV for a while.... the rest of the day was spent formatting my laptop and reinstalling every again..... it's such a tedious task but I'm glad that should have saved me some 4000 dollars for a new one as my laptop is good as new now (as long as it can serve its purpose of word processing and web browsing, I have no complaint)
Slept late late at night..... watched a couple of movies on TV......
Tuesday/16th Feb/3rd day of lunar new year
Woke up around noon, a brunch at home and head out to HKU campus to take grad photo with Mi..... It's a bit cold but all is not too bad.... my angle of mouth is a bit numb from the constant smiling and my eyes were blurred from the flashlight.....
Had a dinner with Mi and her parents in westwood plaza.... and it's 'back to reality' time..... and here I am now.... got back to police school and waiting a new week to start.... I'm sleepy now and must sleep soon.... later then.
PS. Horace and Kevin called tonight.... it's been so good chatting with you guys.... hope to meet up soon.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Day 164, 165
These 2 days had been less than ordinary at work...
With CNY looming close, I'm filled with holiday mood....
But still.... should I havent slipped up at exercise.... maybe I'm in a much more jovial position to celebrate CNY.... after all these long training, but still.... the end seems so far away.... I cant stop feeling a bit of frustration too.
But frankly.... work can never trouble me more than the person around me... I got bigger issues in hand lately....
Thursday. Footdrill in the morning, simply a waste of time.
OU tutorial + Lecture + Test for the rest of the day.... since I've done them all before... it's sleeping and reading time for me..... almost finish "The Time Traveller's Wife" by Audrey Niffenegger.... though I dont know the ending yet, the plot is quite good and imaginative.
Went out for dinne in Triple-O in exchange square, then went for shopping in Cotton On.... they're having a mega sale there.... I've never heard of the shop, the quality and price are quite reasonable... but in truth.... the shop is just packed with too many items and it's so messy everywhere... (and the crowd) too.... um... It's good that you can negate through the crowd and find the items that you like.
Night.... I remember the term "Unstable Equalibrium" from Chemistry... my relationship is like that.... at some point over dinner.... It appeared all sweet and solid and everything.... but at some point... just a slight trigger.... the whole world starts falling apart.... everything is volatile, hostile... What must I do to keep things in check?
Friday... finally, no footdrill for the whole day.... time was spent doing 2 lectures on some boring files and a hands-on on a death report..... I've had some experience on those but still... the progress was sluggish.
Night.... was confined and need to report duty at 2 hours interval.... I've now worked my way through tonight's quota.... Need to do it for 3 more times tomorrow and I'm free....
With CNY looming close, I'm filled with holiday mood....
But still.... should I havent slipped up at exercise.... maybe I'm in a much more jovial position to celebrate CNY.... after all these long training, but still.... the end seems so far away.... I cant stop feeling a bit of frustration too.
But frankly.... work can never trouble me more than the person around me... I got bigger issues in hand lately....
Thursday. Footdrill in the morning, simply a waste of time.
OU tutorial + Lecture + Test for the rest of the day.... since I've done them all before... it's sleeping and reading time for me..... almost finish "The Time Traveller's Wife" by Audrey Niffenegger.... though I dont know the ending yet, the plot is quite good and imaginative.
Went out for dinne in Triple-O in exchange square, then went for shopping in Cotton On.... they're having a mega sale there.... I've never heard of the shop, the quality and price are quite reasonable... but in truth.... the shop is just packed with too many items and it's so messy everywhere... (and the crowd) too.... um... It's good that you can negate through the crowd and find the items that you like.
Night.... I remember the term "Unstable Equalibrium" from Chemistry... my relationship is like that.... at some point over dinner.... It appeared all sweet and solid and everything.... but at some point... just a slight trigger.... the whole world starts falling apart.... everything is volatile, hostile... What must I do to keep things in check?
Friday... finally, no footdrill for the whole day.... time was spent doing 2 lectures on some boring files and a hands-on on a death report..... I've had some experience on those but still... the progress was sluggish.
Night.... was confined and need to report duty at 2 hours interval.... I've now worked my way through tonight's quota.... Need to do it for 3 more times tomorrow and I'm free....
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Billy Joel - Just the way you are
"I wouldn't leave you in times of trouble
We never could have come this far
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times
I'll take you just the way you are"
"I said I love you and that's forever
And this I promise from the heart
I could not love you any better
I love you just the way you are"
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Day 163
Nothing much at work.... but feel my private world go crashing down.... a piece at a time....
SP inspection on room.... nothing.
OC foam drill.... boring and spicy.
Revolver course.... not bad...
Afterschool got wasted by some ineffective prefect... no complaint can be made though.....
Seriously... feeling the urge to save up and really..... invest... I dont know what I'm aiming for, but I knew I need the money so that people around me can have a sense of security.... that's why I've made a commitment into joining some investment plan..... I dunno... maybe... somewhat too rash? Or is it the right choice?
Relationship in a historic low point.... I thought.... things shall go better after the exam.... I was naive... It has only a small part on the exam.... but indeed.... you're not satisfied... I'm not sure what.... life? family? Relationship? But you got to find it and face it... I've been through the same period of self-doubt too.... it's been a nightmare... I knew I can not help much but still.... I'm concerned and will always care for you..... the way you kept me out from your world makes me feel detached.... Where shall I be if I'm not by your side? I'm lost...
Remember.... I'll never leave you... not unless you're the one leaving.... I hope you know that.
Love.
SP inspection on room.... nothing.
OC foam drill.... boring and spicy.
Revolver course.... not bad...
Afterschool got wasted by some ineffective prefect... no complaint can be made though.....
Seriously... feeling the urge to save up and really..... invest... I dont know what I'm aiming for, but I knew I need the money so that people around me can have a sense of security.... that's why I've made a commitment into joining some investment plan..... I dunno... maybe... somewhat too rash? Or is it the right choice?
Relationship in a historic low point.... I thought.... things shall go better after the exam.... I was naive... It has only a small part on the exam.... but indeed.... you're not satisfied... I'm not sure what.... life? family? Relationship? But you got to find it and face it... I've been through the same period of self-doubt too.... it's been a nightmare... I knew I can not help much but still.... I'm concerned and will always care for you..... the way you kept me out from your world makes me feel detached.... Where shall I be if I'm not by your side? I'm lost...
Remember.... I'll never leave you... not unless you're the one leaving.... I hope you know that.
Love.
Michael Learns To Rock - Take Me To Your Heart
Been finding a song that suits my mood right now...
"Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart"
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Day 162
A not so good tuesday.
Waking up feeling tired...
SSP inspection parade in the morning.... was wrong in 2 occassions but still it seems nobody spotted the mistakes.... but was pointed out for the 'unacceptatle' turn-out (frankly, what's an acceptable standard?) Will now be confined on Friday and Saturday.... what a shame.
OU tutorial..... sleepy sleepy.
OU lecture.... as the DMI has explicitly warned us for not sleeping in such class.... i did my best to stay awake.... it worked... though with a very difficult time though.....
Some squad mates were being back squaded..... so tonight it's the last night for their farewell.... we had a drink in the mess and it's a sad... but yet lovely moment.
It's too late to head out for dinner... so i took the meal in the mess.... it's been ages since i had dinner there, and as usual.... the dinner was bad....
Spent the night cleaning my room for inspection, have no idea why the dust get collected so fast even with closed windows....
I got on my nerves as you are stressed out..... i knew there's work for you to complete... but they are just simple tasks... just calm down and chill.... it's gonna be okay.... your action is really scaring me.
Waking up feeling tired...
SSP inspection parade in the morning.... was wrong in 2 occassions but still it seems nobody spotted the mistakes.... but was pointed out for the 'unacceptatle' turn-out (frankly, what's an acceptable standard?) Will now be confined on Friday and Saturday.... what a shame.
OU tutorial..... sleepy sleepy.
OU lecture.... as the DMI has explicitly warned us for not sleeping in such class.... i did my best to stay awake.... it worked... though with a very difficult time though.....
Some squad mates were being back squaded..... so tonight it's the last night for their farewell.... we had a drink in the mess and it's a sad... but yet lovely moment.
It's too late to head out for dinner... so i took the meal in the mess.... it's been ages since i had dinner there, and as usual.... the dinner was bad....
Spent the night cleaning my room for inspection, have no idea why the dust get collected so fast even with closed windows....
I got on my nerves as you are stressed out..... i knew there's work for you to complete... but they are just simple tasks... just calm down and chill.... it's gonna be okay.... your action is really scaring me.
Day 161
Day for test 4. I've done test 4 once before being back squaded so I know a bit about the topics and the way they like to question us on..... this paper was quite hard as it tests you on many 'off-topic'..... I manage to get a decent mark 74 and i have no idea why people can get around 80ish.... I'm satisify with my own result and I dont intend to compete with others.... just let me be.
Footdrill for a short while in the afternoon and I receive news that I got to switch rooms and live with guys from 517..... took me the whole afternoon to transfer all my stuff to the room, and even more time to tidy up the room and clean the 'permanently-neglected-moss-covered' air-conditioner..... time well spent uh? Luckily all is done now.... I feel the tireness straight to the bones.... I must get some good sleep in my now tidy room.....
Went out to CB for celebration of 3 months together..... went on a food frenzy in Shushi One.... together we destroyed 10 dishes of shushi, some shasimi, a salad, a fried cheese and some other food in 30 minutes... I was starving when i got in there but was ultra-full by the time I leave.... I guess the waiter there thought I had never had any food in my whole life..... If I were given the chance, I'm sure I'll eat the dish as well..... yummy~~
Glad to see you're relieved after the exam... just take everything easy, okay?
Now it's time to sleep... just before I see you in my dreams... Thank you for the 3 months of happy times you've given me. Love you~
Footdrill for a short while in the afternoon and I receive news that I got to switch rooms and live with guys from 517..... took me the whole afternoon to transfer all my stuff to the room, and even more time to tidy up the room and clean the 'permanently-neglected-moss-covered' air-conditioner..... time well spent uh? Luckily all is done now.... I feel the tireness straight to the bones.... I must get some good sleep in my now tidy room.....
Went out to CB for celebration of 3 months together..... went on a food frenzy in Shushi One.... together we destroyed 10 dishes of shushi, some shasimi, a salad, a fried cheese and some other food in 30 minutes... I was starving when i got in there but was ultra-full by the time I leave.... I guess the waiter there thought I had never had any food in my whole life..... If I were given the chance, I'm sure I'll eat the dish as well..... yummy~~
Glad to see you're relieved after the exam... just take everything easy, okay?
Now it's time to sleep... just before I see you in my dreams... Thank you for the 3 months of happy times you've given me. Love you~
Weekend
The weekend was rather uneventful...
Mi got class on saturday morning, and by the time I wake up it's almost noon..... waited for her to come back and have lunch at home.... afternoon was meant for revision.... but ended up as hea + napping time.....
Asked Jeff, Lily, Alvin and Winnie out for dinner.... it's been so long since we get together.... dinner was ordinary in Wong Ka Sha in MK, but our conversation was great.... we switched place to a classy hotel lounge in Langham Place Hotel.... the atmosphere is posh and we had great time there..... shame I got to report duty on Sunday or else the night shall went on till much later..... next time pal.
Sunday.... woke up early in the morning and get back to report for confinement at 09, 12, 15, 18 and 21 hrs.... kill all the useful time.... intended to do some revision but found my heart can not concentrate from all the distractions.... may it be an interesting webpage, novel, games and even more worrysome.... Mi is literally freaked out on her study... I had been much influenced by her act and became depressed too.... the effect is totally devastating and scary... gosh... I can survive this time.... but what will happen if it continue?
Sleeping late night on Sunday just to buy time to finish as much revision as possible.
Mi got class on saturday morning, and by the time I wake up it's almost noon..... waited for her to come back and have lunch at home.... afternoon was meant for revision.... but ended up as hea + napping time.....
Asked Jeff, Lily, Alvin and Winnie out for dinner.... it's been so long since we get together.... dinner was ordinary in Wong Ka Sha in MK, but our conversation was great.... we switched place to a classy hotel lounge in Langham Place Hotel.... the atmosphere is posh and we had great time there..... shame I got to report duty on Sunday or else the night shall went on till much later..... next time pal.
Sunday.... woke up early in the morning and get back to report for confinement at 09, 12, 15, 18 and 21 hrs.... kill all the useful time.... intended to do some revision but found my heart can not concentrate from all the distractions.... may it be an interesting webpage, novel, games and even more worrysome.... Mi is literally freaked out on her study... I had been much influenced by her act and became depressed too.... the effect is totally devastating and scary... gosh... I can survive this time.... but what will happen if it continue?
Sleeping late night on Sunday just to buy time to finish as much revision as possible.
Day 159, 160
It's been ages since I wrote..... for no particular reason... simply busy lately.... or maybe not so busy.... but just spending time on mo liu things instead.
Now it's time for the memory quiz again..... see how much I can extract from the memory.
Thursday, day 159 in police training. PT training in the morning. JCR test + 2.4 km run...... my result was exactly the same as last time (bar vertical jump, i've actually jump lower than before).... i think the result was quite just as I havent been training as hard as before.... is it time for me to pick up work out habit once again?
OU to follow.... the tutorial part was okay..... but the lecture was disastrous..... whole class was asleep and we were raided by the DMI... end result.... a confinement at the end of the week on sunday..... bad mood.
Night went out to Central library in CB for some revision.... (was starving when we get out to CB.... only had fish-ball noodle as dinner as it's the most convenient)..... you seems so tense lately.... and I dont know what I could do to help... feels like you're a bomb about to go off any second and I'm nothing but a helpless bomb disposal officer..... tell me what i must do....
Day 160. Friday. Footdrill the first thing in the morning, followed by a lecture..... afternoon spent on revision and self study.... during the self study we were raided, once again, by the DMI.... I have no idea what he want from us.... nothing is up to his standard.... if you're that 'justify' as you claim, why dont you just issue confinement to all of us for the rest of our training? That can save some procedures..... total nonsense.
Gone back home for dinner.... it's just good to be home and with girl friend together.
Now it's time for the memory quiz again..... see how much I can extract from the memory.
Thursday, day 159 in police training. PT training in the morning. JCR test + 2.4 km run...... my result was exactly the same as last time (bar vertical jump, i've actually jump lower than before).... i think the result was quite just as I havent been training as hard as before.... is it time for me to pick up work out habit once again?
OU to follow.... the tutorial part was okay..... but the lecture was disastrous..... whole class was asleep and we were raided by the DMI... end result.... a confinement at the end of the week on sunday..... bad mood.
Night went out to Central library in CB for some revision.... (was starving when we get out to CB.... only had fish-ball noodle as dinner as it's the most convenient)..... you seems so tense lately.... and I dont know what I could do to help... feels like you're a bomb about to go off any second and I'm nothing but a helpless bomb disposal officer..... tell me what i must do....
Day 160. Friday. Footdrill the first thing in the morning, followed by a lecture..... afternoon spent on revision and self study.... during the self study we were raided, once again, by the DMI.... I have no idea what he want from us.... nothing is up to his standard.... if you're that 'justify' as you claim, why dont you just issue confinement to all of us for the rest of our training? That can save some procedures..... total nonsense.
Gone back home for dinner.... it's just good to be home and with girl friend together.
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Day 157 and 158
I must get back to my usual habit of daily blogging.... the consequence of not writing daily is, apart from my amnesia trait that I can hardly recall exactly what happened the other day.... I tend to use more and more time writing blog than usual.... that disrupt my already packed schedule/life and I am sleeping less and less.... that's not good.
Tuesday. Morning parade starts the day. Nothing too much, and I'm the squad commander.... nothing new as I've been a commander before..... nothing too wrong, nothing too bad... just a bit tired.
OU session for the whole remaining day.... sleepy and I'm with a strained neck because of the poor sitting-sleeping posture.
The night was spent having (self-perceived/pretended) malaise...... physically I'm okay but my mind keeps on telling my consciousness that I'm unwell.... I need to take a rest.... probably that's a way to vent my subconscious anger (on what? even I cant tell) or to relieve my mind from thinking about the exam due on next Monday..... but shamefully.... even with my best effort to roll in bed and shutting my eyes.... my mind cant rest.... I've wasted couple of hours trying to put myself to sleep..... that's no fun at all..... ended up I slept around 2300.... even later than before.....
Waking up somewhat freshed.... Footdrill in the morning, followed by whole day PSUC.... this time I can finally participate in the exercise.... got something done wrong but it's good learning.... (side note: you're so pissed by the 'events' that happened today.... is it really that worthy? time will prove) Nothing remarkable.... I am still waiting for my turn to get rid of my inner-evil and perform under stress..... hope all these are over soon.
Night.... went out to CB for revision in library..... a brief dinner and some shopping... if everyday is like that (minus the revision part) and I'll be happy about my life.....
Tuesday. Morning parade starts the day. Nothing too much, and I'm the squad commander.... nothing new as I've been a commander before..... nothing too wrong, nothing too bad... just a bit tired.
OU session for the whole remaining day.... sleepy and I'm with a strained neck because of the poor sitting-sleeping posture.
The night was spent having (self-perceived/pretended) malaise...... physically I'm okay but my mind keeps on telling my consciousness that I'm unwell.... I need to take a rest.... probably that's a way to vent my subconscious anger (on what? even I cant tell) or to relieve my mind from thinking about the exam due on next Monday..... but shamefully.... even with my best effort to roll in bed and shutting my eyes.... my mind cant rest.... I've wasted couple of hours trying to put myself to sleep..... that's no fun at all..... ended up I slept around 2300.... even later than before.....
Waking up somewhat freshed.... Footdrill in the morning, followed by whole day PSUC.... this time I can finally participate in the exercise.... got something done wrong but it's good learning.... (side note: you're so pissed by the 'events' that happened today.... is it really that worthy? time will prove) Nothing remarkable.... I am still waiting for my turn to get rid of my inner-evil and perform under stress..... hope all these are over soon.
Night.... went out to CB for revision in library..... a brief dinner and some shopping... if everyday is like that (minus the revision part) and I'll be happy about my life.....
Monday, February 01, 2010
Day 156
Not a good day....
I'm still feeling tired.... as always.
Morning.... drill till you die session.... so boring and hot today.
Got briefing on upcoming hell week (again)..... I must make sure i didnt screw it up this time.
SSP reassessment of some of my colleagues...... as usual, perfect record for him in putting people back squad..... tough luck guys but it's not the end..... all the best.
Listened to you saying how stressed you are during exam time..... was so worried but I dont know what I can do to help.... what must i do?
And you're not well physically.... that double up my headache.... get well soon.
I'm still feeling tired.... as always.
Morning.... drill till you die session.... so boring and hot today.
Got briefing on upcoming hell week (again)..... I must make sure i didnt screw it up this time.
SSP reassessment of some of my colleagues...... as usual, perfect record for him in putting people back squad..... tough luck guys but it's not the end..... all the best.
Listened to you saying how stressed you are during exam time..... was so worried but I dont know what I can do to help.... what must i do?
And you're not well physically.... that double up my headache.... get well soon.
Day 154, 155 and weekend.
Was in a very bad mood lately. Stressed.... work piled up..... no determination on my side... felt like nothing is going right lately.....
Day 154.... morning PT, PPAT.... still tired from Monday's exercise.... was slower than before.... only manage to finish the course in 2'00".
OU to follow, and then OSH lecture.... bored as hell....
That night spent doing pre-run for pre-planned exercise the next day... It's really not that useful to lay the feet on the ground and do the thinking there.... I'd rather spend the time doing talk through..... so i was not really satisfied at the time spent there..... luckily I can still have a brief dinner with you later that night.
Friday. Things got on okay for the pre-planned exercise..... really nothing much about work to say.
Later that night went out for work out with Jon..... it's been a long time since I work out..... feeling weak.....
You have..... once again.... deflied all rules and come out with me at night.... it's so unexpected but I like it.....
Saturday... watched a movie "Marley and Me".... pretty good.... i thought it's another ordinary comedy but I was wrong.... it got much deeper message than a lovely dog.... it's about relationship, family and responsibility issues..... it's worth a watch.....
The rest of the evening was ordinary.... but uneventful is good, isnt it?
Sunday.... pretty much wasted.... nothing done....
I feel the stress has overwhelmed me.... I was in such bad mood that I hurt all people around me.... I'm so sorry...
Can you.... find a person who know you better than yourself? I have.
Thank you~
Day 154.... morning PT, PPAT.... still tired from Monday's exercise.... was slower than before.... only manage to finish the course in 2'00".
OU to follow, and then OSH lecture.... bored as hell....
That night spent doing pre-run for pre-planned exercise the next day... It's really not that useful to lay the feet on the ground and do the thinking there.... I'd rather spend the time doing talk through..... so i was not really satisfied at the time spent there..... luckily I can still have a brief dinner with you later that night.
Friday. Things got on okay for the pre-planned exercise..... really nothing much about work to say.
Later that night went out for work out with Jon..... it's been a long time since I work out..... feeling weak.....
You have..... once again.... deflied all rules and come out with me at night.... it's so unexpected but I like it.....
Saturday... watched a movie "Marley and Me".... pretty good.... i thought it's another ordinary comedy but I was wrong.... it got much deeper message than a lovely dog.... it's about relationship, family and responsibility issues..... it's worth a watch.....
The rest of the evening was ordinary.... but uneventful is good, isnt it?
Sunday.... pretty much wasted.... nothing done....
I feel the stress has overwhelmed me.... I was in such bad mood that I hurt all people around me.... I'm so sorry...
Can you.... find a person who know you better than yourself? I have.
Thank you~
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