Love and Hate...

Where do love come from?

And where do hatred come from?

Love and hate.... what is the boundry between them?

You care for someone to the fullest extent and that's love... but exactly the same 'love' can one day be driven to 'hate'...

Why is that so complicated?

Belated Happy Mid Autumn Festival.

Didnt realize before Reunion tonight with my O camp group that yesterday was the Mid Autumn Festival..... Happy Festive time everyone~

Finally got my room into order again~ Done the old laundry and cleansed my room fully~

Suddenly wanna watch "Aida" so much..... um... dunno if I will have the chance~ (Please... I'll fight for that no matter what~)

It's time to sleep now... better write next time. Good night~

Movie Trailer~

Forgot to include this movie in my entry last time.

"No Reservations"

Pretty interesting character by Catherine Zeta-Jones (single mom, French chef) and Aaron Eckhart (Italian)..... um.... what would happen between them?

Just cant wait to see this in Hong Kong.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0481141/

Good night sleep~

Nothing beat a good night sleep~

First time in a long while to shut my phone and enjoy a good sleep~

Feeling energized right now...

Hope I'll have the chance to do this more often in Hall ^^ (though unlikely)

Raining Hard....

It's so seldom for me to write morning entry....

But then, i just cant resist the urge this time.....

It's raining so hard right now..... how am i supposed to get back to the hospital in suit without getting myself all wet???

Please tell me how~

Movie weekend~

Alright, I've finally re-entered my friends' number to my mobile phone... took me ages for doing that.

This weekend is once again spent non-productively....

Did nothing more than some sports and games and light reading and music.... but it's a really enjoyable one~

Thanks Jeff for accompanying to the movies, "I pronounce you Chuck and Larry" by Adam Sandler and Kevin James.... Hiliarous~ Being gay is not all bad, right? :P

Watched the "Ocean's Thirteen" on VCD as well..... um... not too impressive, but quite okay~

I guess that's all I did in the weekend....

I've made up my mind for something... and deep in my heart..... I got the right feeling... Please, wish me luck~

"Planning for my blueprint of life."

Slothfulness

Slothfulness......

Time to get serious.

Lost of memory...

Something horrible happened to my mobile...

Everything's lost, the contacts, the SMS messages...

But somehow... I didnt miss those things too much anymore...

Memories are in close association with the feelings.... I just dont feel the same anymore....

I will take it as a brand new start.

"感覺不到 從前溫柔的雙眼
感覺得到 你已不再眷戀
無奈的笑時突然我知道
得了失憶可能對你我都好　

感覺不到 說是為了我改變
感覺得到 沈默劃過我左臉
我不知道 也許我會得到
一句還是朋友　這是藉口還是盡頭"

PS. To my friends, If you still see me as a friend you can occassionally chat with, please send me your mobile number by SMS la~ Thanks.

Buying Spree....

I must be stressed lately.....

Cant control myself for buying things that I probably dont need....

So pathological....

Life in clinic today.... um.... both good and bad.....

The below picture shall summerize my life lately~



I still dont get the time for movies yet, but all of them are great collection, ain't they?

Really tired now..... must sleep now.

Still.... As usual.

Well.... i got a little bored by moaning how busy i am lately...

I should feel grateful. Though I'm fully occupied this weekend. None of them is related to work, which mean most of the time i spent i am actually enjoying myself.

Friday. Driving lesson in the morning... start to worry about the driving exam for i am still no confident enough with the clutch.... hope i can improve through the remaining few lessons....

Afternoon skived my class but instead sat for the consultation session for orthognathic patient. Pretty impressive treatment planning between Orthodontics Department and Oral & Maxillofacial Department.... how's the life being the doctor there?? Interested to know.

That night, a really good game of football with floormates, i really enjoyed the time (i even scored one goal in the match~)

Saturday. Woke up with a bad headache (still havent recovered fully).... had no choice but to sleep for some more, for I am going to spent that night in the wild... reluctantly skipped the first part of the wild camp, I've arrived to the beach in Long Ke around 5 that evening, barely catching the last glimpse of dusk~ Had a wonderful BBQ with floormates then we've hiked a bit around the hills there and the late night was spent lying on the beach, watching the stars and listening to the world's best music - sound of wave when they're spalshing on the beach...... what more can i ask for?? I had the chance to see a shooting star that night.... Of cause I've made a wish.... "When you wish upon a star" - I believe in it fully.... I knew my wish is going to come true.

Sunday. Left the camp early in the morning and then get changed immediately for a wedding party. My orthodontic tutor is getting married, how sweet of them~ But I guess after that day I might consider whether I will have a 'public' celebration on my own wedding.... you know.... all the procedures are so..... complicated~~ I guess... "You may kiss the bride." is the only sentence I'll ever want to hear in my wedding~~ Well..... Let's see~

Later that night, spent time with family and paid a visit to my grandpa, who is chronically sick for the moment..... seeing him suffering is really a heart break for me.... He's weak but still he is the man i love so much.... Get better soon Grandpapa.

Monday, that's today.... pretty normal day for school again. Life's as usal boring and tiring.... but still feel glad that I've done okay on my patient today..... Um.... I'll try to replicate the quality of work on every patient i will ever treat..... I really feel that i can still be a good dentist, should I work hard enough.... Please.

Still looking for signs, but i got a sweet feeling. I always trust in my guiding star~ You'll lead me there. I'll get there.... soon. 幸福的預感.

Random scribble~

Feeling stressed out...

Is this normal?

What kind of dentist am I?

I could never be one of those 'skillful' dentist, or could I?

Will I be a well sociable dentist that keep good relationships with his patients? After what i've been through when screening patient, i doubt if i can do it...

Or ultimately.... will i ever be a dentist? It's highly likely that i might not even get my degree if i go on like this...

Too much on my mind.

More and more realize it's near impossible to satisify all people's expectations on you.

What can I do?

Low grade fever.

Um.... Mild persistent fever..... the hardest to treat~

It simply drain away the last bit of energy in me.

It also failed to respond to aspirin or paracetamol.... it just keep on and on.....

I guess, the best cure to it would be a undisturbed sleep for 10 plus hours.... but in reality, i'd hardly have the time.....

What am i doing??

Despite all my sickness.... i've managed to cook a decent dinner to feed a table of 8...... pretty impressive uh?

O well.... i really feel comfortable doing my cooking~ (probably my best stress remedy)

I'll catch some sleep soon. Shall write again.

Medicine.... again....

I feel weak...

Not only did my muscle ache and sore.... but mentally.... i feel weak....

The flu has really been kicking my arse hard enough to prevent me from doing anything constructive.....

Been to the doctor and got a dozen of medicine (cough syrup, nasal decongestants, paracetamol and anti-histamines.... stuff like that)..... everytime i take those i feel like my inside are burning...

No wonder the chronic illness patient are so ready to commit suicide..... If the sickness hang on for longer than a few days.... i might do the same as well....

Sleep through days without knowing....

Finally started doing some room visit (by the freshmen).... I guess this is the last thing i can do for hall....

Dunno why.... but a question from a freshman tonight provoked my nerve... never expect this to happen.... but indeed. It did.

Learning to be strong.

Shall sleep la. Write when I'm better.

PS. My song of day

不能說的秘密 - 周杰倫

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與妳躲過雨的屋簷
回憶的畫面 在盪著鞦韆
夢開始不甜

妳說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 已錯過的時間
妳用妳的指尖 阻止我說再見
想像妳在身邊 在完全失去之前

妳說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的籤 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

Overloaded.

Finally.... the constant pushing my body to the limit has yielded its devastation....

"喉嚨痛得要死"

I'll have every bit of my weekend nursing myself....

Worst still.... I've broke my glasses during the floor orientation this week, meaning that i'll have to wear my contact lens for the time being..... such prolonged wearing is hurting my eyes.... gosh....

Sorry to my best buddies that i've failed to attend the game of basketball.... maybe next time~

Have to take some more rest.... shall write again.

Never Settle....

Never settle for second best...

But.... Is it my call to make?

Sleep like a zombie in Pantry this afternoon....

Really.... tired....

Looking for the Weekend to recharge myself.....

I'll need the extra energy~

Tire.... Beyond believe.

I am going nuts..... for sure....

I feel so tired..... with the ongoing school work and the newly started Floor Orientation....

Why dont you just kill me..... I'd rather die than to face such torture......

I'm probably too tired to function properly....

Still Busy...

My 2nd day of school has been more or less the same as the chaotic first day.

Was humilitated today in class.....

Cant stop thinking how much I can do for the patient....

It's just so..... helpless....

Busy.... As Hell.

My life is back.

Back in Hell indeed.

Unbelievable time-table..... No idea how to squeeze extra specialist session into the already well-packed (if not overcrowded) time-table....

Suddenly think of the log case i am supposed to prepare and all those key skills exam.... it's really driving me mad....

Wanted so much to read but in fact, I just dont have the time to even slow down and think..... when can i stop and do my reading??

Once again question myself if i am up to the challenge of being a dentist....

I can already forsee my whole hellish year..... that's depressing thought.....

Damn it. I better stop here. Gotta head for shower and sleep soon. I'll write again tmr.

手放開 - 李聖傑

This is the song that i listened to in the whole summer.... hope you'll love it too.

School Resumes.

Right, my cousin is right about one thing.... it's really been a Long while since i last wrote here.

My summer vacation is nothing more than meeting with a few friends, enjoy a fine dinner and hang out to have some fun...

And now my happy days seems to end abruptly.... it's soon time for school again....

Let me recall what i have done in this last few weeks....

1. I am learning how to drive a manual.

2. I am improving my swimming technique.

3. I have gone for Avril Lavigne's concert in Hong Kong with sister~~

4. I've gone to Dental Orientation Camp... only to realize that I truly despise the role of being a 'senior' (For i had such unpleasant experience in my freshman year to be 'told' what to do and what not to by the so-called-"smarty arsed"-senior..... screw them all.

5. I have started wine tasting (note: there's a hell of a difference between gulping the wine and tasting it..... and i'm learning to do the latter..... hope that in 10 years time i can truly identify each of the wine by their own taste.

6. I've enjoyed my last Orientation Camp in Hall..... well... it's a bit tiresome after the camp but seeing the freshmen and leaders develop is one of the best experience in my hall life..... everytime when i meet with my group 'sons and daughters' i truly feel like being in a family.... that's something money cant buy...

7. I've completely ignored the need for study.... Darn.... need to squeeze some time for this no matter what.

8. Finally I've learnt to treasure what I have already.... it's no use searching for something that's not there... I guess... this'll be one of the thing that help me most in my life.... glad i have learnt this....

Well.... i guess.... i can call this a fruitful vacation, cant I?

Write next time, but i promise you it wont be long.