Exam~

Was in a deep coma this morning (but somehow my biological clock still work, it woke me some time around 8 30 in the morning~)...... only able to gather myself around 1 something.... had lunch and a shower before showing up late for class.... doesnt matter.... it's another stupid lab lesson anyways......

Went to watch the inter-faculty basketball match today..... lost... but nevermind, it's a good game afterall~

Went for dinner with my classmate at smithfield.... it's been really fun... Just non stop blathering.... and i guess this is what we do best, isnt it?

Got the Exam table already..... still a lot to do before i am ready..... what can i do?

"Good Feeling" week...

Alright..... what am i supposed to say? This week has been one of the busiest week ever in my studies..... dunno why but all the make up lessons and practicals seemed to jam into this week.... i have to attend a 9 session week (meaning 4 full day and one half day in a five days week....)... o well, but i still feel kinda great because of a few things happened....

Saturday.... spent an idle day in hall, then at night went out to CB and see my beloved JIC chongmates.... it's been almost 4 years since we have such chance to meet..... apart from Terence and Charles, who is still studying abroad, we only missed Samuel for the gathering that night. We (Me, James, Sally, Kathy, suprised-to-see Issac, long-time-no-see Bonny, Should-meet-more-often Kevin all showed up, together with our advisors Vincent and Grace)... Life is simply great.... we shall keep in touch more often (and also look for the chance of a full reunion some time near in the future)

Later that night.... went to Victoria Park to catch up with what we use to do in the past, drinking and blathering.... so many problems mentioned.... but have faith, problems are meant to be solved, isnt it?

Even later that night (around 2 something am already), went to LKF and meet with 2 floormates of mine (Charles and Chris), who's soon leaving as they are graduating soon..... had so much fun clubbing and playing with the Flaming Lamborghini (i had 3 that night....) Simply great~ when we got back to hall (honestly i didnt know how...) we shared some chat and felt that as a senior in my floor, i have great duties to fulfill..... i'll try to be one of the good senior like they do~

Sunday..... a day with hangover... what more can i say?

Monday..... full clinic day.... was in a total misery when i have to work alone when doing two amalgam for my patient, where the hack is my assistant?? Is the hospital really understaffed or they're simply slacking?? I have to hold the dental mirror and suction on one hand while holding the drill on the other to drill the tooth.... they just cant blame on our poor performance, given such condition we are working in......

Afternoon, LA clinic.... it's been sometimes since i last perform an extraction (probably one week or so)..... the performance is not too good..... though i can successfully extract the teeth in less than 5 mins... but my management to the wound is not too good.... leave along the curettage and debridement.... worst still... it's my second time to place suture on real patient.... which this time i can only do a lousy job (more and more admire of my tutor, who can stay chill regardless of the situation he's facing.... experience? i'd rather say that's his style.... cool guy~)

Tuesday... PBL T1..... one of the shortest class ever attended.... still have time for McDonald breakfast after class.... then you know why~

At lunch, asked my groupmates Horace, Angela and Yvone to my hall for lunch.... i have enjoyed myself in cooking a good meal and they seemed to enjoy the meal as well.... a win-win situation (i have extra advantages when considering i didnt have to do the dishes after meal.... my most hated work ever)..... during the meal we already started dreaming about our future, will our life be what we have expected, that relaxing? i dunno, just hope so~

Afternoon.... bed side session at Queen Mary Hospital.... just 2 things realized.... 1. There are no other speciality choice left for me, but OMFS. 2. I must work a whole lot harder in order to get in this most prestigious speciality in Dental.....

Sigh.... better head off to study then.... shall write soon~

Good O Friday...

Last night spent some great time chatting with mandy and ceci..... make me remind of the days in year 2 (which is probably one of the best period of U life).... Take care, okay?

Feeling tired when waking up this morning.... finally ending up to be late after i took the shower in the morning.... but nevermind, today is the most 'hea' lesson of the week, Ortho by Dr. She.... anyways.... i found that i was stupid.... not only were my groupmates late as well (i shouldnt have rushed this morning) and most important of all..... Dr. She was not here..... he got somekind of car accident and ended up showing only around noon.... o well..... (i'm smart by making the decision to grab a mcdonald such that i dont need to wait in hunger~)

The morning lesson was switched to the lab session.... i just realize how hard it is to bend a wire straight.... you can try it yourself..... bend a paper clip into a straight wire... that's more or less of what i have done today....

Lunch with groupmates and finally have the chance to chat with sister since she's back.... her new puppy seems so cute~

Afternoon.... clinical session... finally got a potential 'log case' (for submission at the end of year 3.... not sure if i can finish the case in time).... i now know what is 'bloody hell'.... that means trying to take measurement of the periodontal pocket of a patient suffering from advanced generalized chronic periodontitis.... wherever my probe goes.. the 'red sea' from the bleeding gingivae will follow.... what can i do??

Has done quite well on the case and spent the time after school writing up the patient record.... met one of my Secondary school classmate in the dental library.... what a coincidence....

Night.... went to soccer with my floormates.... scored 2 goals in the match... pretty good feeling actually~ but it's also so tiring right now......

Shall meet my beloved JIC chongmates tomorrow.... just cant wait to see them~

PS. Janice, I am fine. I shall log on to MSN more often to see if you're around.... but probably that'll be hard.... i seldom let myself stay in front of the computer for long..... just let's see la~

Still being lazy....

O well... what can i say.... still being lazy in this few days....

Finally attending the crown course on Wednesday (which i have skipped last week).... doing 2 weeks of work in one lesson.... and i found that it's really possible (i'd say the time is way too sufficient....) sigh... make me feel justified for being absent.....

Finally headed to the library for some reading... though not much... but it's a great feeling....

Participated in interclass badminton that night.... i sworn that i'll never pick up any racket for sports again.... just hated it...

The "Out-run" league has officially launched.... for details please refer to Horace's Xanga.... (it's real fun to drive one of those lovely Ferrari (mine is the Enzo Ferrari) and compete in races~)

Thursday.... full day of school.... Minor oral surgery in the morning.... learned a cool maneuver when doing suture today.... it's always fun to watch the great surgeons doing surgery, it's so entertaining~

Grabbed 1 hours of sleep during lunchtime then have clinic..... was kind of dull today that i could have perform better when doing my Vital endo case today..... just hope that my patient wont develope any complications during this few days.....

I'm in Med library now..... feeling bored but still with tonnes to read..... sigh...... shall write again soon~

Lazy....

Frustrated....

Getting more and more lazy lately.....

Can spend the whole afternoon doing nothing.....

Did not even bother to read the books even there are exams coming up.....

I'm probably dying....

PS. I'm becoming crazy for cats.... Especially the golden American Shorthair...
PS2. To Me.... brokeback mountain is not a good movie... the plot is simply too dry and i dont seem to find the kind of resonance in those characters.... nevermind.... a 'famous' movie though....
PS3. I have borrowed "Before Sunrise".... just cant wait to see it....

Rectifying.

My past week was in slump... however i have been able to rectify something that i have done wrong before.... what i fool i have been.

Though i have already been through my reading week, but this week my attitude was even more 'tart' than holiday.... probably because all my friends do not have to attend school and there is party nonstop on my floor..... nevermind...

Tuesday.... PBL in the morning... the tutor was kinda harsh..... how are we supposed to know that much in our first tutorial? i can already forsee a nightmare in this semester......

Wednesday..... originally i have a lab lesson but i have decided to skip it such that i can have more sleep.... sigh....

Thursday.... was kind of sick that day.... must be due to the flu that's hampering everyone around me..... luckily that day is a university holiday that i did not need to have class..... went to the airport that day as my mom is departing for Toronto..... She's going to be back in Mid April.... but before that time my life is more or less the same as i am kinda used to live on my own already~

Friday.... full day lesson..... Ortho class in the morning that's as usual.... just joking around and time passed quickly...... Clinic in the afternoon... but then my patient failed the appointment that i am glad to have a break.... did what i should have done earlier.... i gathered all my patient's folder and reviewed their treatment plan..... also to locate all the lab works that has been scattered everywhere (the technicians just simply cant be relied on..... gotta do it myself...) and after all these hard work, i think i will be able to deliever some better care/treatment to my patients......

Friday night.... had dinner with my floormates, one of them, Chris is soon leaving for US and might not come back.... just hope that he got the best out from his trip and wish him all the best~

Saturday... I have just woke up..... still with some headache and a lot to work on.... i'll take a bath first and do my laundry now.... shall write again soon.

Achievement.

I've done nothing today... not because i have given up... but just dont wanna irritate you... If chances are available, i wish i can be your guardian angel... popping out whenever you need me... and vanish in the thin air afterwards.... just want to make sure you're okay and happy...

Some thoughts about the work of dentist again.... have been through some highs and lows when seeing the patient today.... the patient has received a lousy restoration in private clinic some time ago and as the work is so poorly done, it has acutally caused some very severe periodontitis in the restored area.... that the patient is suffering a lot from it..... it's really a shame to the dentistry business, they're supposed to be the one most responsible to help the patient.... but not to harm them....... but for some unprofessional dentist, they just view dentistry as a mean to earn the a good salary or status..... it's really worth some thinking if you are my fellow colleagues, what kind of dentist you want to be... well, i mean, it's fine to be unprofessional if you can live comfortably and sleep well at night without the sense of guilt.... or else, it might be better for all of us to learn to be a better dentist and help this community then....

The second thing about my patient... originally she has got a tooth that's so loose that we have thought the prognosis of that tooth is rather poor (if not unsavable)... but i have persuaded my tutor to give it a try no matter what (it's hard in private practice as effiency is the most valued qualities), but it's okay in the hospital... i'm glad that i have made the right choice... today during the review, i found that the tooth has responded quite well to the perio treatment and the status is improving... there is a high chance that the tooth can be saved... this really give me a chance of achievement.... finally i feel that i can actually help somebody.... it's simply a great feeling~

P.S. Thanks so much for the kitten that has accompanied me.... so cute...

Timing...

When she was, i was not;
When i am, she is no more...

I dont know what i can do,
but i am sure that when someday she will, and i will be there for her.

Holiday's Over

Another few days has passed.... and now it's once again near the end of my study week... This has been one of the worst study week i've ever had.... I have lost someone important... so important that whenever i close my eyes i see her face.... "To the world you maybe somebody, but to me you are the world" How can i let you know?

Thanks Johnson's treat to China with my classmates on Thursday.... it's so much fun.

Watched a brilliant show in hall that night... I just cant leave my eyes off you...

Finally made the decision of my life... Nothing is going to change my mind...

Was full of thoughts on Friday... I seemed to lost myself in the crowd...

Thanks to my friend Horace who shared a chat with me on Friday night...

I am still so lost now.... coz I miss you.

We will get there - 孫燕姿

Remember the days, we sat out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine,
when we thought that nothing could stand in our way?
Then things weren't the same
the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
we thought we couldn't tame

Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
a world of hope for ever after

Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
and there's still a long, long way to go

With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
we will get there

So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must
be possible to overcome anything.
There's so much to do
there's so much we can contribute
by sharing just a little love
we will start again anew

so why don't we try?
if we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world
a world of hope for ever after

Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
and there's still a long, long way to go

With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
we will get there

Deep in my heart I just know
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
and there's still a long, long way to go

With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
we will get there

Holiday mood.....

Was being kind of lazy again..... failed to put update here as often as i should have.....

Tuesday, another module has passed without much problem (or study either....).... i was kind of ashamed to have scored so many 'above average' from my facilitator without paying the tiniest effort in study.... i can say nearly everyday is my holiday this module.... sigh... need to strive harder....

Afternoon went to the gym room for some practice.... my muscle are much weaker after the long, idle winter (because of the cold weather i didnt even bother to head outdoor.... everyday is just eat & sleep) My abs has successful completed the fusion, from some faint mark of six-pack into one large chunk again.... is it possible for me to reverse this process?? (maybe it's possible, i feel so good after gym, with the sore and exhaustion all over my body.... you may think i'm crazy, but that's the sign that i am still survive, isnt it?)

Helped the Hall Exco by chairing the campaign meeting... took me almost the whole night.... dunno why but i feel quite indifferent towards this chong.... am i too old? or maybe i'm not too interested in Hall stuff? i dunno... maybe it's just because they are not my 'next' chong.... i feel no obligation to 'scold' them/teach them in order to make them learn.... nevermind...

Finally did some study in this study week.... and realize one cruel fact that when i pile the books that i should have completed since year one (which i havent).... it's much taller than me already...... when can i finish them all? 1 year? or till the day i gratuate? (more likely till the day i die...) i dunno....

Was elected as the floor representative this year.... a post with a whole lot of burden.... i hope this can give me a very good reason to stay in hall for the coming year....

Chatted with friend tonight.... a feel a sense of peace even in the most chaotic place.... Thank you.

PS. Benfica Vs Liverpool tonight (aggregate 1:0).... whether Liverpool can continue their glorious path towards the European Championship trophy? I hope yes~ Go liverpool~

PS.2 One singer worth mentioning.... he's quite a good one.

數到五答應我 - 曹格

第一次看著你就為你心動
聰明的我 怎能讓你走
第二次看見你我竟然失控
是我的錯 請你原諒我
第三次看見你想要告訴你
我真的愛你 是真的愛你
第四次看著你我有些要求
請你能夠 安安靜靜的聆聽

一.讓我保護你
二.讓我照顧你
三.所有的要求不能當作遊戲
四.接受這命運
五.永遠不分離

那最後一個一定要說你願意

Wanna be your lover I wanna be your man
我只要你開心多一點
Can you be my lover I don't wanna be your friend
給你幸福到永遠

第一次看著你就為你心動
聰明的我 怎能讓你走
第二次看見你我竟然失控
是我的錯 請你原諒我
第三次看見你想要告訴你
我真的愛你 是真的愛你
第四次看著你我有些要求
請你能夠 安安靜靜的聆聽

ONE 讓我保護你
TWO 讓我照顧你
THREE 所有的要求不能當作遊戲
FOUR 接受這命運
FIVE 永遠不分離 說你願意

Wanna be your lover I wanna be your man
我只希望給你多一點
Can you be my lover I don't wanna be your friend
給你幸福每一天
因為我Wanna be your lover I wanna be your man
我只要你開心多一點
Can you be my lover I don't wanna be your friend
給你幸福到永遠

你說你害怕 因為受過傷
不需要害怕 因為我不是他

Depressed.

Slept all the way till late afternoon today..... did some study finally (though not much....).... basically trying to fit myself into the study mood..... that's going to be hard tho.....

....... I'm depressed.

原來這裡沒有你 - 陳奕迅

原來這裡沒有你　 原來世界沒有那麼美
從前相依那天地　 無奈已太乏味　 都失去生氣
原來這裡沒有你　 然而我渴望再抱擁你
而從前相依那滋味　 如若我已不想接受
這刻怎會念記

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天終於分開未說出應不應該　 怎麼夢境都不再
才發現你在每夜原來未能替代

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天心中空虛未說出應不應該　 假使沒真的相愛
又試問我在那夜至今為何不戀愛

原來這裡沒有你　 才明暸我已沒法捨得你
從前相依那綺膩　 無奈已變做　 映過的戲
原來這裡沒有你　 然而我渴望再抱擁你
而從前相依那滋味　 如若我已不想接受
這刻怎會念記

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天終於分開未說出應不應該　 怎麼夢境都不再
才發現你在每夜原來未能替代

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天心中空虛未說出應不應該　 假使沒真的相愛
又試問我在那夜至今為何始終不戀愛

未忘掉　 舊日簡單的需要
未明白　 從前很反覆的心跳
未曾問　 為何你每夜寂寥
從頭渡過　 共聚每一秒

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天終於分開未說出應不應該　 怎麼夢境都不再
才發現你在每夜原來未能替代

舊日尚未盡力共挽手到未來
今天心中空虛未說出應不應該　 假使沒真的相愛
又試問我在那夜至今為何不戀愛

1st day of holiday....

When was the last time i have holiday? .......(it's not that far away.... just had the Lunar holiday...)..... nevermind, it's really great to have some time to take a break in the middle of the semester.... i will have one whole week of holiday (they're intended to be for study though....) starting from now (although i have one class on Tuesday which i havent even touched a thing about it...).... anyways, i hope to make it a productive one...

The weekend was spent on things that i should have done earlier..... trying to fix the computer at home.... a dinner with family.... cleaning my room and doing the laundry.... stuffs like that.....

Had a surprise 'date' with Kathy on Sunday night (or better say Monday morning?).... i somehow ran into her in Sai Wan that night and end up chatting (in the street.... as what we'd do when we are in F.6 or 7).... brought out one point during that night.... What exactly are we searching in our life? This topic is really something.... and i start to feel that i dun have much concrete goal/aim for my life yet.... I have some idea that i want to make some positive impaction on this world (Crashing a plane into World Trade Centre is not that 'positive')..... but i am not sure of how yet.... And talking about plans for life, we came up with the second point..... is whether to have a plan or not.... having one can make life seems easier and more organized... but then who can guarantee what you plan will ever come true (how many times have you seen things go according to plan?).... they're all subjected to numerous of modifying.... um.... headache.....

Just realize that i dun really need a big house.... i am contented even when sleeping on the street..... provided that i can see the clear sky from there.... (it'll cost a fortune for a house with top window/roof though....)

Found a perfect place to watch the sea.... it's in a unbelievably close proximity to my house....

Nothing could be better than playing with the cats in the park.... which is what i did tonight....

Sigh... should be about time for me to sleep... i still got works to do in the afternoon... need to prepare class for tuesday's lesson.... Shall write soon.

Fallen..... and resurrection....

Should have post this entry earlier (i did if it wasnt the fault by bloggers who failed to receive my post....).... but nevermind..... let me just try to write it all over again and see how i have done these few days.....

Wednesday.... woke very late and finally being late for class.... i only woke at 845 and got back around 915...... by the time i pop into the room the lecture already started..... i wasnt very late actually as the tutor are late as well.... the lecture has only been started for 5 minutes.... it's really quite a useless lesson..... with the tutors only focus on their own blathering and totally ignore the student needs..... we only manage to get the things done in our (self-invented) way..... so you can guess the effectiveness of dental teaching.....

Later that evening i have invited my classmates to my home for Mahjong.... though most of them didnt even know MJ, but we all have spent a great evening there...... just hope that such occasion can get more often~ they have really turned my house upside down.... but they've also explored among my pile of old CDs and retrieved some very great Westlife and Jay albume..... they song are surely timeless....

Later that night my house has become a studio for my hallmates to do some production.... it all went fine until around 10.... when i start feeling sick but they're still filming.... it's seems that despite my constant reminder to my friends about the bad weather, i was actually the first one to fall ill..... headache and runny nose.... that's really irritating.....

Thursday.... woke up so early that i still feel dizzy.... and it's a unbelievably cold morning..... went back for a totally pointless practical which i doubt i might have more knowledge on the CT machine than the one operating it..... complete waste of time.....

Got a nap in the library (sleep like hell) and took a piriton to control my sneezing and nasal discharge..... was in terrible condition after taking the pill that i didnt dare to perform too much operative work on my patient..... after surviving through the lesson... i waste no time in getting back to hall and sleep.....

I slept all the way from 8 to 8..... it feels like a reborn.... though still with some symptoms.... but i've been feeling a whole lot better since then......

Friday.... pretty much a normal day.... Ortho lesson in the morning... then went for arcade even in the lunch time.... has kept 100% win rate against all my classmates using my Ferrari Spider 360 (i was playing Outrun 2).... afternoon.... meeting my patient... finally finish all treatment on today's patient.... now just need to review, if nothing else go wrong, i can soon discharge him lu~~

Afterschool.... went to do some chong business and had dinner with my chongmates.... really great times spending with them~

And that's basically what i have gone through this few days..... i'm going to have study week next week.... but still got a lot to do.....

One old song worth mentioning

Swear It Again - Westlife

I wanna know
Who ever told you I was letting go
Of the only joy that I have ever known
Girl, they're lying

Just look around
And all of the people that we used to know
Have just given up, they wanna let it go
But we're still trying

So you should know this love we share
was never made to die
I'm glad we're on this one way street
just you and I
Just you and I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again
All over again

Some people say
That everything has got its place in time
Even the day must give way to the night
But I'm not buying

Cos in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
And if you see how beautiful you are to me
You'll know I'm not lying

Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
But even if we try
There are something's in this life won't be denied
Won't be denied

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again
All over again

The more I know of you
is the more I know I love you
And the more that I'm sure
I want you forever and ever more
The more that you love me, the more that I know
Oh that I'm never gonna let you go
Gotta let you know that I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again
All over again
And I swear it all over again

PS. fall in love with those toys from vending machine lately.... still cant get my Stitch yet.....

Abnormal weather~

I cant believe it's march already.... the weather in HK is chaotic as hell nowadays... With rain shower and a cool temperature today, it's widely expected that the temperature is going to fall to around 9 or 10 Celcius tomorrow..... Jesus.... you call this March?? Where have the spring time gone?

Alright.... struggled for a while before waking for school..... forgot my umbrella and was holding a bunch of stuff on my way back that make me look like an idiot...... PBL lesson today... it's a rather straight forward problem which i have some knowledge in (eg. the CT scans and Asbestosis).... rather okay la....

Afternoon.... wasted..... should have at least read something..... when can this bad habit go from me??

Nighttime..... the AGM session of Hallhas started again..... can still recall vividly the painful session i spent listening to people cursing and defending pointlessly last year.... dunno how much time i gotta spend this year again..... (worst still, i have agreed to chair some of their meeting....)

Weather has changed so badly that some people fell ill.... just hope that you can get well soon.

Never Let You Go - Janice

The rain just never seems to bring
the joy I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath　
a part of me was dying　
there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would sing to you and tell you I won't　
live my life without you　

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes　
and you know I'd never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything of that day

I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Tho I told myself won't hold my breath　
a part of me was dying　
there is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would sing to you and tell you I won't　
live my life without you　

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes　
and you know I'd never let you go

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would sing to you and tell you I won't　
live my life without you　

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling　
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes　
and you know I'd never let you go