Buffet time~

Did nothing serious over the last 2 days~ Just continued my Harry Potter and live myself a quiet life. Finally finished the HP..... it's a really good book with an excellent plot, i'm not going to write too much of its plot here in case i spoiled all the fun for those who havent finished the book~ But it's surely a Heyman's recommendation~

Monday, woke up a bad headache.... either i've got a cold or it must be the continuous sleep deprivation that's causing me that...... just felt lethargic to do a single task..... became better once i took a good shower and sleep for a little longer~ Went to have buffet dinner with my cousin and her parents at Intercontinental Hotel @ TST.... it's surely a very good restaurant and we are having great time there~ the mini-lecture by uncle gary on "the transformation of western music style across 80's till now" was surely enlightening enough~

Later that night hang out with the dental people again, have a little chit-chat time in CB (though not the usual Lan Kwai Fong but it's still fun)

Tuesday.... another great holiday for me..... didnt wake until late afternoon then went out to meet with lawrence in CB, he's such a good friend to hang out with~ Got back home that night and watch TV, i'm started watching the TV drama healing hands on Jade while continue my habit of watching ER on Peral.... the 2 are both related to things happening in the ER.... but yet they are so different.... anyways~ both are good dramas~

Cant sleep now and so continued to watch "full metal alchemist".... the more i watch it, i learned more from it...... i believe there must be some higher meaning in this Manga.... i guess i'll finish it soon and see if i can figure it out~

Write next time~

Wrong doing....

A lot had happened over the weekend.

Friday, last day of school.... luckily everything goes quite right on that day, my 6 lesson treatment planning had finally came to an end (i believe it's one of the record among my fellow classmates).... anyways.... the only surprise is the sudden endodontic treatment i gave my patient (as the tutor think there's no need for pre-endo restoration and go into access directly)..... um... it's my first endo afterall and i'm not going to ruin it..... gotta study during the summer ^^ Just cant wait till Year 3 to start again~

At night, went out with SPOC to CausewayBay with the same joy and laughters.... indulged myself to take a lot of ice-cream on that day.... feeling great~

Saturday, had an 'outing' with Jonathan, Kathy and Sally.... turns out everyone was a bit late and we ran into each other in Central MTR station (we're just the same kind of person), everyone was dressed in their best summer-look and we're drawing a lot of attention from the commuters nearby.... o, but who cares, i'm on vacation anyways.... buying all the bbq stuff and we headed for Big Wave Bay..... it's such a good weather that day, the sun's not too bright but yet it's warm enough to enjoy a swim in the sea.... we had had great fun while doing the bbq and blathering at the same time.... when the sun set, we just laid on the beach watching the stars, life cant be better (we saw people having a beach party that night.... it's really cool and we're trying to arrange us a similiar one later ^^) We have shared so much of our worries lately and was feeling much better since we knew somebody was there that genuinely cared for you.... just feeling glad that i met these wonderful people 4 years ago~~ After the time on the beach we went hyper and did our impulse-buying..... it's already 10 at night and we end up in APM, whose shop close at mid-night..... really wanted to buy a shorts from quiksilver..... um.... maybe next week.... we went to our usual place and chat for a little longer..... turns out that i only got home at 5 that night.....

Finally making up my mind.... made a very selfish choice... though i thought it maybe the only choice i have... still really regretted at my previous wrong doing....

Sunday.... woken up by my two lovely cousin, who's paying me a surprise visit.... went out with chris and henry to mong kok, it's a really great opportunity to meet with the old schoolmates and check on how are they doing lately..... the two both seemed fine..... we'll meet again soon....

Just heard from Lo Kai that Bear had an accident and was in a comatose condition previously..... too bad i cant pay him a visit..... just hope that he'll get well soon..... we're still waiting for you, tough guy~

Just been writing long enough... really wanted to get myself back on the Harry Potter book..... i'll write soon....

Relieved

If something has to happen, it happens....

One gaze, one instant of wordless communication.

I am glad that the outcome is the best i could possibly hope for.

Thanks, My dear friend~

"If something comes with a huge price, you will deter from it;
If it comes in too handy, you will not treasure it."

I am now in the middle of the two extreme.... probably i got to make a brand new start out of all these...

Holiday is arriving soon enough, time for a relief. Last obstacle will be my complicated treatment plan for my patient to be approved tomorrow~ Finger crossed.

An early 'Au Revoir' to my second year of dental studies (though it was a total mess afterall)

Had been given a glimpse into my future after graduation, getting a 1st class honours seems to be very lurcative, but consider the hard work i gotta put into.... dunno, just try my best~

The latest Harry Potter is as good as ever, just cant stop reading it on my free time, no matter going on bus or dinner, it has to be jinxed with the "Unstoppabe Reading Charm"...

Too Much Love Will Kill You - Queen

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I'm far away from home
And I've been facing this alone
For much too long

I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I've been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you can't make up your mind

Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind

You're headed for disaster
'cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down

How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can't you see that it's impossible to choose
No there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm bound to lose

Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all

It'll drain the power that's in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl

And the pain will make you crazy
You're the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won't understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again

Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end.

Faith

Catching a ride with my groupmate Horace to Central this afternoon, end up having tea in Central.... it's been great chatting with a guy whom i'm going to meet everyday for the rest of my 3 years dental studies.... Buddy, let's strive for our dream to become good oral surgeon~

Had Dinner with 2 very extraordinary LaSallian, Kennon (an ex-floormate of mine, also a senior lasallian) and Daniel (the brightest classmate i had in LSC)..... the night was simply pleasurable, we shared so many happy times we had in La Salle, as well as some conversation on our identity as a U student.... their view points have enlightened me.... sometimes chatting with such brilliant person is a great experience~ hope that i'll soon have the chance in the coming future~

Just one philosophic question to end my entry, if you knew for sure that something is not going on its right path and it's destined to failure, will you continue to pour in effort? I really dunno.....

Last week of school~

The whole Sunday and Monday is pretty much wasted..... n0oschool on monday and i dont intend to do my reading..... end up doing nothing but gaming and continue the reading of Harry Potter..... The new book of Potter is quite cool actually (though i have only read a few chapters), it's quite different from its previous style... it's no longer a story book for children, but more like a novel for adults with a teenage heart.... just cant wait to finish it.......

Watched Madagasca on monday...... it's not too good... maybe a 65 marks (i dunno if i am biased as i watched the cantonese version, which is a bit inferior to the original...) The drawing is so-so and it's plot is a bare okay..... but as a cartoon for summer time for children i think it's acceptable~

Had class today..... as i have spent most of my free time reading over the weekend that i end up doing my usual 'trash talking' in class... come on, it's already the last week of school before summer.... i deserve some lighter schedule, right? Still have no patient on Thursday.... i am thinking wheter to treat it like a holiday on that day..... Let's see~

Harry Potter is back~

School on Friday..... pretty chatoic but expected.... once again didnt get the approval for my treatment plan...... damn.... what can i do?

Totally exhausted on Friday and Saturday.... did nothing at all.....

Saturday night had an reunion with all the past and present floormates..... lucky to know so many extraordinary people.....

The latest Harry Potter book out now...... i am going to spend a few days digging into this book totally..... High Expectations ^^ (so what happen to my study??? You guess it.....)

Exhaustion...

I had no idea how i survive through the last 2 days..... School itself is time consuming enough, and with all my 'social gatherings' i am leaving myself with no time to sleep... Have you ever come across experience like your soul is drifting out from your body? I had a few of such encounter lately...... horrible.....

The reunion of Pumpkins on Wednesday night is fun though.....

I have already spent 15 hours of man-hour on my new patient.... but still..... i cant get the approval of treatment plan by my tutors...... what can i do??

Fantastic 4 is okay.... but i'm just too tired to concentrate on movie...... wasted....

All driven by impulse....

Point of no return is reached.

Just let it be..

第一次 - 光良

當你看著我　我沒有開口已被你猜透
還是沒把握　還是沒有符合你的要求
是我自己想得太多　還是你也在閃躲
如果真的選擇是我　我鼓起勇氣去接受
不知不覺讓視線開始閃爍

喔　第一次我　說愛你的時候
呼吸難過　心不停地顫抖
喔　第一次我　牽起你的雙手
失去方向　不知該往哪兒走

那是一起相愛的理由
那是一起廝守

喔　第一次吻　你深深的酒窩
想要清醒卻沖昏了頭
喔　第一次你　躺在我的胸口
二十四小時沒有分開過
那是第一次知道　天長地久

感覺你屬於我　感覺你的眼眸
第一次就決定　絕不會錯

Making sense out of nonsense

Exam results are released..... to my disappointment..... i have miraculously passed all the subject..... I have no idea how i passed that.... It's really an nonsense..... doing no study and can still pass??? so what actually happened to those who failed?? Maybe i can just sit in the hospital for 3 more years and can get my degree anyways....... Gosh~

Must find some other way to make me feels like study again.......

La Salle Spirit~

喇沙精神, 2005-06-12, 東方日報, B08, 龍門陣, 書生論政, 鄭宇碩

人到中年以後，對中學生活總有很多美麗的回憶。不少歷史悠久的中學，希望強調一下本身的傳統與精神，中間自然有不少美化的成分；坦白說，外人也不會有甚麼興趣。

寫這篇專欄是因為有一位很熱心的老同學，計畫在母校七十五周年校慶時，能出一兩本書，讓一眾舊生留念，對在學的師弟們也起一點點示範作用。因為喇沙是天主教修士學校，修士愈來愈少，校務轉由本地老師負責，保留傳統遂更形重要。作者這一代人，對青年學子，很容易有「一蟹不如一蟹」的自大感覺。年輕的同學，語文水平有點下降，待人處世的道德禮貌較為欠缺重視，這些缺點很容易暴露出來。但是處身一個知識爆炸的年代，年輕同學所掌握的各方面知識，遠比上一代豐富。

再者，他們的班會、學生會等組織，也頗能凸顯獨立自主與民主精神，很值得中年師兄輩的敬佩。

喇沙學生，予人的感覺是比較「野」，不像其他名校同學般規行矩步。作者讀中學時，成績可以，也擔任過班長領袖生等。但間中假期參與竹戰，有空堂時逃學到九龍城飲茶或到市區去看一場電影，也不甘後人，視為理所當然。後者明顯觸犯校規，後果可以嚴重，相信其他中學的領袖生絕不敢輕於嘗試。大概喇沙同學較有反叛精神，勇於犯險（很多時是頗為愚蠢沒有甚麼意義的冒險），亦願意向權威挑戰。

相對其他名校，喇沙同學的成績不見得特別突出。用現代的語言來說，價值頗多元化。同學之間對成績優異者不見得特別羨慕，對踢足球玩流行音樂的出色者反而相當嚮往。因此學校之內各類的能人輩出，有十六、七歲就到夜總會彈琴賺錢者，有小學時就能畫漫畫冊者，喇沙倒有孟嘗君之風。

同學間貧富懸殊很大，但相處融洽，貧者沒有自卑，富者不會驕狂。喇沙校際運動成績出眾，但不會到其他學校挖角，值得自豪。

鄭宇碩

Thanks Henry for this passage~

Drunk (again~)

Once again, i am pretty drunk this time of the day...... it seems that i have spent my whole week drinking, hardly a day with perfect conciousness before i sleep..... starting from last friday till today...... That's certainly a good way to get your life WASTED.... i am sure i can die of liver cancer if i continue this way...... anyways today is real fun hanging out with cindi, amelia and her brother in Lan Kwai Fong, they are real great people and i am sure the coming party on friend is gonna be fantastic....

Had a chat with cindi when walking her home... she's been right about one thing.... i'm still not sure which path i shall take... i guess i'll figure it out someday~

Back in town....

Just been to a trip with my best buddy.... Jeff, Lo Kai, Bear, Dan, Henry, Eugene..... probably the best time i had since the trip to the exact same location 2 years ago (on my 18th Brithday).... Guys, take good care of yourself and i'm sure soon in the future we can have such fun again~

Got a long long book list that i need/want to read..... both academically related and some are not.... when can i finish them all?

Test result to be released on Monday... already lost the eagerness to know about how i'm doing in exam (really unlike the AL result....). Anyways.......

Self Indulgence~

School for the whold day is killing.... apart from physically torturing.... it's also killing all the fun in your mind.... should best be avoided if possible....

Today's clinic is quite okay..... looking forward to treat tomorrow's ENDO patient.

Met sister in school today.... she's as pretty as ever~

Hang out with friends tonight and watch the Spielberg movie "War of the Worlds".... generally okay and some scenes are really eye-catching.... but the plot seems a bit weak and the movie is worse than what i had previously expected.... 60 marks maybe (or a 5 marks bonus for my favourite actor Tom Cruise)

To all my friends: i am just glad to find out that i am not alone.... i feel really delighted when having you to accompany me or even paging me..... your existence made me strong..... Thank You~

Just indulged myself with a grande hot chocolate late at night..... feeling very mellow (and a bit of sleepy as well)..... chocolate make people happy, remember?

PS. "小小的提示　亦會將你清楚記起" - 分身術,容祖兒

Paranoia

Having school for the whole day... not a bad way to spend my would-be normal day.....

Not having good sleep lately.... kept dreaming for the whole night.... the dreams are mostly bizarre~ It's really driving me mad finding myself staying up at night doing nothing.... just cant let my mind rest....

I'm not in shape for writing... write next time~

PS. I am not in town for the weekend..... just gone for good... but you can still reach me through my cell phone....

Life resumes...

Slowly picking up the pace of life again...

It's time i set the goals in my life...

I wanna be a good dentist, not just good..... but a very good one.... still got long way to go......

Complicated.

Complicated feelings...

I felt somewhat relieved by doing what i should do...

But yet...

Knowing the truth is still cruel...

I really dont know how to express my feelings now... I just dont want to hide them or even fake them...

I guess..... i can get over it soon...

PS. Just want to say that all my words are true.... I'll respect your choice no matter what.... no need to be apologetic... life is full of ups and downs, isnt it?

Tired...

Finally understand why the people said they are dead after going to work..... i felt the same way lately as well..... now the school schedule is tougher than ever and nearly everyday i gotta work from 9 till 6..... had the feeling that work alone has stripped my every bit of energy and life from me..... the stress of unsettled business is crippling me... cant imagine how am i going to survive my lifelong career as dentist.......

I must say sorry for my friends... it's been great fun hanging out with you all.... but i'm just too tired that i seemed very detached... i'm sure we can have the same fun when i'm in a better state~

Thanks God it's a great holiday today.... i can finally get some sleep.....