Negativity.

Sometimes... negative thought is the most powerful force in the world.

The curiousity kills the cat... sometimes... knowing the ugly truth always stir one up...

Am I... heading the right path?

No matter what... I can only wait and see.

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It's been... some happy times I had of late...

Having people willing to cook for you is a blessing.

However, am I heading for the same spiraling exit.... like those before me, again?

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Work's been reasonable lately... I must keep on my effort.

Lose again.

I've never expected I like painting... or have to talent to appraise them...

But it ends up, Picasso is a rather easy painter... or should I say he's nothing but a whore-loving painter? His paintings (early era) is simple... girls, and more of them... straight line, eyes, nose.... yea, that's my impression : )

How fun it'd be if I an see his more famous work in Spain... someday, I'm sure... someday.

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Work's been rather bad in the last few weeks.... not particularily numerous.... but dunno why each has got some areas that I havent worked on before, or maybe it's new boss? Or simply merely coz I'm more busy of late...

Maybe my passion for crime had already burnt up.... in full.... now I'm only surviving for as long as I could... on my health...

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Was interviewed by my ADC Crime... he told me to think about my future career pathway... what should I choose?

I'm a bit puzzled now.... just hope I can have the wisdom to see which path will be best for me.

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Had an happy hour with the district management... what would be an gathering turns out to be another drinking festival... well...

Ended up getting a bit tipsy but went for late dinner nonetheless...

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Unexpectedly watched a few movies lately, 'Ice age 4' and 'The Dark Knight Rises'... both were great movie.

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Dunno why I feel tears rolling in eyes at a scene of batman.... when the police officers were liberated and went fighting barehanded against machine guns and cannons... it's a disastrous slaughter... but yet... it's a path and most of my colleagues would choose if needed to... suddenly getting emotional at that point.

And another theme behind this batman movie... even a super hero needs a life... and a break from work, isnt it??

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Was assigned to be Dragon Boat Captain this year again... Sigh... doing mo liu things to please bosses again... This is exactly the things that I dont enjoy.

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Work's been going alright, at least till this day... just one legal and one file to work on and I can finally be on par with the work schedule.... still plenty to do, but at least, I can get rid of my 'file' debt....

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Felt I've entered that loop again... starting puzzled without knowing what I really wanted... and too indulged with the easy pickings... where will all these paths lead me to?? I just want a simple path to a modest ending.... so hard to find??

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My bad habit... again and again.

Three days holiday.

Work's been okay of late, been through a not so busy B and C shift....

It's really been a while since I can have 3 continuous days of leave, thanks to the 1st of July holiday (which falls on a Sunday ^^)

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Not been doing much in this holiday, just a bit of reading, gaming and rest (knowing no prosecutor is gonna call me in the middle of the morning is so reassuring)...

And best of all, I have managed to clear most of my files prior to the holiday.... I can truly relax~

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Having a new boss lately... well, he's not as decisive as the previous boss... too much time in the headquarter bureau maybe? But I mean... everyone has his time to be new, I'll just wait and see.

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Pablo Picasso.... should be a really interesting painter...

Looking forward to the 4th of July.

Truth.

Sometimes... look is deceiving... What's important is their heart, right? (Well... maybe...)

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Been another two crazy weeks.

Work's alright... boss is leaving soon... and a nice buddy too.... we're having feast after feast lately for their farewell~ It's really great spending time together like this... the sense of family and brotherhood.

Despite all the hardship in work, this is still worthy : )

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Had a short gathering for Jeff's project, good to see different mingle together....

Just another excuse to get together, i guess?

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Had a wonderful wonderful weekend, High tea at W hotel...

Love everything that day... you never fail to mesmerize people, did you know that?

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A friend seems to have move out of the cave and made the decision... good or bad, I cant tell... but I shall wish the best of luck.

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By some luck, I manage to buy myself a lovely lovely hand puppet... seldom see such beautifully crafted toy (Maybe... it's a bit too beautiful)

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Suddenly, have some reflection that I'm too obsessed with work... Maybe i really needed to lax a bit, enjoy life (normal life)... have some entertainment, spend a little, get to know different people and explore... yea, stuffs like that...

Where's my life? Am I in another stagnant stage of life again?

Um... change is required.

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517 gathering... good to see a few of them... though someone has obviously changed, I still wish her well.

What a night of gossip :P

Hello Stranger.

It's been two crazy weeks.

I was forced to take leave on my busiest afternoon shift... Though sleeping at home is one blessing, the thought that I have outstanding files piling up on my desk totally quashed any thought of fun... therefore, I have voluntarily devoted myself into hours of working in my office.... feel really ripped-off.

Well, I must still consider that a blessing... I can take some well needed sleep, and only get back to office whenever i like it... the productivity is not bad as well~

I spent my time comforting a friend, who's in a very difficult stage of life... hope all is well~

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Met Ewing and Kennon for dinner at Ruby Tuesday... not a bad meal afterall... and it's always great chat with my bros...

Time surely flies.... each of us is facing some difficulties in life, but I am sure with our endurance and resilience, things will work out just fine and we'll all have prosperity in life : )

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Watched the 'Wuthering Heights' and enjoyed a good Sunday afternoon. I am still not sure about many things.... but the simplicity and the joy we shared is beyond comparison...

What must I do?

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Another dental gathering at a Swiss restaurant. Cheese fondue, anyone?

All of them seems to have developed well in their area of expertise.... how about me? Have I done good enough to justify my decision?

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Been working almost a double after night shift.... thankfully, most of my things seems to have settled.... esepcially the back log files from my precedent....

Now it's really time for some quality work of my own.

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Met a stranger online...

Seems so far, yet so close.

Hello stranger.

Fighting legal cover.

This is now officially true... I have no idea what's my heart's true desire. Maybe I am just too easily distracted... maybe I just wanted something bad but I didn't know how to express myself, up till the point that I let it slip and remorse about it... Maybe I am just too afraid of changes... status quo... when was the last time I take a risk about the things I like? = Okay, too much mourning. Life's treating me okay of late, at least work is... though it's still busy as hell, but at least now, I see a glimpse of a potential way-out... only if I work hard enough... Was compulsed to take leave by my boss, as my leave has escalated to a scary level... I didn't want it at all... I still have a bunch of covers to write... that's my path to salvation and please don't stop me. Guess I will have to work while I am on my leave... = Is meeting friends less and less often... missed them a lot... when will I see them? = I have a problem in my heart, I needed to talk, I needed to share and tell... who's listening?

Happiness?

What is happiness?

I seems to lose this feeling...

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I kept thinking of this topic on my way back home tonight...

I have nothing to worry about, job's okay, family too. Fortunately my health is alright... why my heart is telling me I am not satisfied with life?

It seems... I am in lack of something that defines me... nothing I did really deserve recognition.... is this the source of my dissatisfaction?

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Dunno why.... but I have a strong hope to drop everything and go for a long journey.... somewhere exotic? Let me see this world, and more importantly, let me search my own identity.

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The sun shall rise again tomorrow... and my childish thought would better be gone by then...

My birthday.

Thanks to all of my friends, my birthday has been great.

Good gathering with great food and lovely time together. Love that.

I'm sure this'll be a good year.

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Something happened around me lately...

Full of death surrounding me since birthday.... hope everything's fine for my family and my friends'.

But at the same time... love is around me...

With choice, you'll know what you needed most...

I guess I am still in the stage of searching and choosing...

Or all these nothing but an excuse?

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Work's been okay lately...

Still... crazy work hours, but I am keeping my finger crossed all these shall make me a better and more capable person.

Nothing comes for free, isnt?

Work, enjoyment and gym.

Work is a bit crazy lately...

Have no idea how my files manage to pile up so tall.... must work hard and KO them all tmr.

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Got a decent dinner with boss and colleagues... nice gathering where we shared so many 'intelligence' (gossip really)....

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Thank you for coming out all the way from Tsuen Wan just for my crazy sudden thought of dessert.... though we ended up in that whisky bar, I thank you though~

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Saturday, slept till real late...

Finally got my new sneakers.... quite comfy one.

Thank you for my friend's invitation to her place for dinner... thanks auntie for her cooking and the birthday celebration, the first one of this year : )

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Had a wonderfully workout at midnight.... finally, I feel the urge to work out again... hope this time I'll maintain this habit and really build some meat.

April~ Birthday month.

It's been some while again...

Time really flies when one is in crime...

Fruitful but really demanding...

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Really feel I'm getting old... especially after 4 days of night shifts.... for how long can I continue like this?

More and more confrontations on domestic side, fortunately, things were smooth in work.... that's one less thing to worry about.

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Watched the movie "Love in a Puff"... some conversation was so witty... however, I have strong reservation as to the 'struggle' that Shawn Yu was facing? Why he'd fuss about it?? There is a really easy selection, right?

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Been going good lately... A casual dessert at Mong Kok on a good pre-work Monday.... definitely gave me energy to continue my work~

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What was unexpected was, I'd ever receive your call again, given all such history...

But still... for those who knew me well would agree... I adopted a 'Why so serious' view to life...

I wish you well and everything. Just blame it on luck and fate we met each other in such wrong time... regrettably... maybe I should thank you for making me realize things might not work out as planned... just enjoy life while one can.

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The scary Standard III exam approaches again... Aim high.... achieve low again (most probable) outcome...

The paper was a product of outter space..... why on earth are you presenting to we earthy candidates?

Absolute rubbish... however, the view that 150 plus of us cursing for the same cause/person is a view you dont see often.

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Hang out with Horace again tonight. Good to see him doing so well lately. Friend are friend for life. I am sure of that.

Cant wait to see his new darling.

BTW, the restaurant and bar were cozy... can visit it again sometime.

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Must start to get rid of my old self and start some new life...