Probably my life in the past year and half was just a mess...
Looking back... I've done nothing... but instead to allow myself to rest in a false sence of contention and security... and to numb my senses with all sort of temporary enjoyment...
But now, i feel the blandness in life... I am craving for more. At the very least, I wish to get back my own life. I am saying this as I felt I've probably spent too much time on work and nothing else...
I always coach others that 'work is only work but no more'.... Am I living up to what I preach? Doubtful.
Spot a problem, and it's not time to rectify it. First step, hopefully by engaging myself to the stuff that I use to love, eg. blogging.
Hopefully I will write here (again) on regular basis.
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Last night was rough.... crazy dreams all night... crazy running, careless driving and much more, it's like arcade game or movie... I woke up in sweat and a pounding heart..... probably my body's response to stress (self induced stress that is, from not studying well before exam)..... but it's a good one, as I woke early and manage to have a clear mind.
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The exam went well today, though I've really read little, the exam paper was fair and I manage to write an answer to most questions (that's no mean feat already if you have attempted the Standard 3 exam [promotion exam]). The result was still pending, it wouldnt be too good or bad but surely it's an pass... well, whatever, the remaining 7 weeks will be holiday for me.
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Caught a drink with Horace and Dinner with Jeff tonight... many happy times~ Looking forward to more to come.
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For all the good/bad reasons, I was viewing the photos of my past, especially the days I had in police training... really I felt quite sentimental.
I once thought all good things in life will remain and the story goes happily everafter... I was naive. But instead of losing myself in remorse, I think it'd be more beneficial for me to pick myself up and get going. Memento Mori and life is too short.
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Well, I'd really get to bed now.... tomorrow will be another long day.
See you here in a short while, I promise.
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