Monday, February 22, 2010

Day 167, 168 and confinement weekend.

Gosh, what a week....

Thursday

Nothing much on this day.... the usual footdrill, and the RC lesson where I was doing the demostration mostly..... and the OU time was spent either sleeping or reading..... and today I've made up my mind on the mobile phone selection..... Nokia N series is no longer my choice as they do not support multi-touch and the map function was obsolete.... current target is likely to be the New Google Phone "Nexus One". Relatively low price among smart phone, good Google support and being the flagship phone of Google Inc I have confidence in the after sale support... the only draw back being the lack of chinese handwriting input.... but i believe those will be solved soon enough with the worldwide release (including taiwan)..... better ask the service provider if there's such a plan for this phone, or else I shall order it online.

Thursday night spent thinking of excuses to skive work the next day..... as it's the physical fitness exam.... there's such irrational fear that I'd almost trade anything if I were allowed to skip that test......

Friday

Ended up the excuses were not used. I've decided to go back to work..... Tactics in the morning was normal.... the weather is freezing that I can hardly remember anything but the cold......

Afternoon, PT test and lecture, routine stuff. I'm glad my fitness performance was slightly better, now with more push ups being done and I can tolerate better with the fatigue.... Hope this can improve my performance during hell week.

Mess night..... finally..... my past colleagues were having their last 'supper' in the mess..... the speech by the CIs were hilarious and so many vivid memories went floating back..... I hope the next mess night come soon enough.....

Some collateral damage were done by the other squads..... we (all PIs) were confined in the college for the weekend (with our squad did nothing wrong..... just a political decision)..... gosh... I've totally wasted this weekend by locking myself in the room, playing game till I'm blind and living the life of a zombie.....

I now reflect..... whenever there's hardship coming up (eg. AL exam, Year 5 Final), there's always a time I'll act like this, self isolation, social withdrawal, emerge myself into the world of game, skipping meal, lacking sleep (and personal hygiene at times)..... It is such scary experience....

I'm glad this time I'm not alone.... being well-fed and taken care of..... I owe you every apologies and gratitudes.....

For every cloud there's always a silver lining...... everytime I did this I can manage the hardship in the end, right? I'm sure the hell week this time is not going to trouble me..... Believe.

PS. There might be tiny, nitty-gritty conflicts that we have..... with you being emotional or me being unreasonable at times..... but I believe, if love is there, we can always settle it out. I'm glad I've found you. Have faith.

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