"You want it? It's yours." - Mr. and Mrs. Smith.
I don't feel much when i watch the movie the previous time.... but this time, maybe I've grown, maybe it's the experience... I have got different feelings.... not a bad movie for my state of mind now.
Was constantly day dreaming today... dreamt about the good or bad of life... the chances, the what if...
Feelings was doubled when i received a call this afternoon... bad timing for such call to arrive.
Work seems the only thing that can soothe my nerves at the moment.... but while working overtime i kept thinking... why am i doing this? I could have just walk out of this mess... why bother? I have already sacrificed too much, relationship, family and health. Do I want to prove myself? Suddenly i came to realisation that no one is irreplacable... my files will be and can be done someday, when the successor arrive... i am really no different, what is the point?
Even when my new OPS is kind enough to ask my reason of leaving... I cant think of any... perhaps my 任性 decision in bad mood... again?
It's not the end of world. It's just me.
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