Being number one... is it really important?

Yes... I know... it's been another week since I wrote... I literally got this place abandoned for some time...

Life's okay lately.

Friday... Nothing much.... clearing files, chatting here and there and makes the day.

It's been a joyful ride home cause I was travelling with a colleague... In this job there's really very little time for human contact, coz everyone is just so task-oriented (and frankly, the so-called social function really isnt a good time to socialize... especially with all the bosses around).

Was kept under a large piece of gloomy cloud on weekend... not for any reason... but just blues and depression... probably because of the rain? Incessant heavy rain all day long... The mood was so bad that I even skipped a date with the police classmates...

Monday, a usual tiring day... files seems endless... But it's just work... I have decided to raise a notch in my training regime... starting from that day... a bit extra dumbbell weight couldnt kill, right?

Tuesday... woke up with a bit of drowsiness... I knew something was wrong... again.... a non-stop working day without knowing what I have done...

By afternoon I got a full-fledged histamine attack, also known as allergic rhinitis... Feeling bad...

Dinner with Kennon... it's been good seeing him... especially at times of uncertainty.

Wednesday... a day of eating...

Breakfast in Tsui Wai Restaurant, lunch at stanley, tea with dessert from Jenny's Bakery, dinner with a few colleagues... I'm so full now...

During dinner conversation, my colleagues gave me some useful advice... it's true, probably I need to stop procastinating and be more proactive. Starting tonight?

Finally found what I've been looking for in few weeks time... but as always, something I like usually dont come easy, nor cheap...

My wallet is much thinner now.

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Suddenly had this thought during bath... is it really important to be number one?

I use to think this way, and my mindset was further strengthened in my days in La Salle and University...

But looking back, what does it mean?

Hapiness, yes, but is it long-lasting?

Fame, yes, but do I need it?

Sense of achievement? Is it the only way to get it?

Dont get me wrong, I'm not asking one to behave as if they dont give a shit to things... I always believe doing the task to the fullest.... pretty much like working out in gym, challenging your own limits....

There's really not much point to be comparing to others...

Just be yourself and work hard... that's it.