Saturday, October 16, 2010

Change in mentality.

Did I sound depressed and stressed all the time?

I've been told more than once lately that I changed... I'm no longer the care-free person I used to be... now I'm just gloomed by darkness.... a darkness that even light can not penetrate... a darkness which I started to affect the people around me...

If I had to convince myself... I can only use the imaginary goal that I made up for myself.... a goal where one day life will be beautiful, will be great, will be happy... I knew all these were lies.... but what else can I believe in?

I am not courageous to face the truth.

I chose to tell lies.... to myself.

I'm afraid.... when one day I no longer believe in the utopia that I created.... there's nothing left in me.... life will be so pointless.

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