A day I let my feeling roam.

Today is such a day.

A day that a lot has happened.

A day that a lot has been learnt.

A day that I do have feelings on.

Despite my piled up assignments to be due soon, I feel a great urge to write tonight... afterall, this is exactly the place where i can forever preserve my true feelings in.

Went for a morning lesson in Queen Mary Hospital in the morning, attachment in the opthalmology department.... even the professor there (who happened to be a specialist in 3 different discipline with a MBA degree... and has the talent of 'spot' diagnosis with great accuracy) said we wouldnt learn much in his department, but nonetheless, he's taught us not the knowledge... but the way of life, the way of treating patients.... he really made me think of my own future... I'll never forget the way he told me that my potential will someday take me to a higher place.... if it mean sacrificing oneself to achieve the greater good of whole mankind, please take me, i am willing to be the one. Politics aside, I just want to do good to human, isnt this an aim everyone should have?

Forgot to mention, that professor is Dr. Ricky Wong.... such a nice guy and is willing to share.... it's the kind of person that even for the first time you meet, you'll feel his passion, he's one of the few professors that i really admire.... really looking forward to the opportunities of working for him... or even to work with him, if possible~

Cooked in Hall at lunchtime..... really have the feeling of home with my brothers and sisters around... really like this feeling~

Talking about professor.... I'm pinned by one of them lately... but i dont care... you can humiliate me, you can make my life difficult.... but you can never leave me lose faith.... let me now say in no uncertain terms that i hate you and hate you much... i will use this hatred to drive me forward.... and one day i'll make you pay for what you have done.... If God say "Love is Power", then Satan surely spell "Hate is supreme".... just look at all the wars in middle east.... If hate is not the driving factor, what else are??? There are only 3 types of person in my life, those I truely love, those i truely hate or those i feel indifferent to..... no more grey areas in between.... this will certainly make my life easier.

It's once again the Loke Yew Hightable tonight.... this occassion means a lot to me.... comparing with each year, in the same time feeling myself growing.... dunno why but suddenly feel so distant from all the other hallmates tonight, feeling a trace of sadness in myself.... maybe deep down I knew it could well be my last dinner there? Just want to leave no regret.... sometimes, it might be better to burn-out than to fade away....

Once got back and settle down in my room.... randomly flipping through the photos in the camera, it had some wonderful photographs taken by Mom and Dad in Singapore.... looking at their happy faces in the photograph, I knew i was left with no choice.... I have more than once thought of quitting dentistry and work for some higher aims (even after investing for 4 years in this faculty).... considering their expectations on me and the effort they've put in in getting me through this 4 years.... I have to hang on..... I cannot let them down, though i dont need to be the bread-winner for my family, i do have responsibility to provide them with the best (in the same time feel for my friends winnie, who've enlightened me in this aspect).... I dont mean to be a Good dentist, but only the BEST one. Please let me have the strength and determination when I was studying my A-levels, I'll make it.

Time to get back to my essays again. Till later.

Eight hours of sleep is now a must for me. If not a twelve hours one.

Sleeping non stop last night.

Finally feel like I'm refreshed.

Thousand things occupied my agenda....

What kind of life is this??

Wanna write so much.... somehow i lacked the time....

Been pissed at work today (pretty much as usual)...

Had a football game with floormates.... i've completely switched to a striker nowadays, I'm a jaguar, with super predatory sense.... but when's the time when you see a jagura running through the whole savanna for food? Just dont have the stamina to keep on running for the whole session~~

Sigh... probably stressed out lately... got everything running through my mind but just lacked the strength to settle them....

The work now is slowing eating away my life....

Nevermind.... i've spent enough time on my entry already.... needa sleep soon before i look like a total idiot in work tomorrow....

Till next time~

Feels like dying.

Is it a blessing to live?

Or a curse of staying alive?

I can tell no more.

Big N'Tasty

Forgot to mention in the last post.

The 'Big N'Tasty' Burger is now available in McDonald in Hong Kong..... and I've tired it today....

You can consider it a lite version of it's cousin Big Mac only that it has more veggie and it is using premium beef for the hamburger.... feels green and crisp~

But one nutritional warning... though it can be considered a 'lite-sized' burger, the calories are not really a chop off from Big Mac.... this might be contributed to the abundant salad dressing in it..... anyways, Do free yourself and indulge yourself for sometimes~~ Cheerz!!!

"I expect to pass through this world but once; any good thing therefore that I can do, or any kindness that I can show to any fellow creature, let me do it now; let me not defer or neglect it, for I shall not pass this way again." - Ettiene DeGrellet

Programmed Death

It's a nightmare for me whenever Microsoft is releasing its new OS...

Dunno why my OS is screwed whenever a new one is available (commercial strategy by Microsoft maybe? To boast sales?).... My current Windows XP is running so slow and unstable lately.... I guess it wont be long before i'll make to switch to Vista...... Just hope my computer can last till Easter when i can have the time to wipe everything and do the re-installation.

They're selling Vista at a ridiculous price... probably this'll be the last OS i'll ever use under Mircosoft, I shall ask my brother on the RedHat Linux programme... they work just as fine as Windows (only better~) and the good thing about it is it's open source system... meaning all programmes are basically free.... Seriously considering~~

Today, I have sat in front of a drum set for more than 2 hours, feeling the beat, enjoying the music~ It's always cool to try new things~
My current Wallpaper: Welcome to meet Natalia Vodianova... gorgeous russian with perfect figure~ Just by looking at her body, can you believe she's a mother of two young children?

Attention Deficient.

More and more often found myself in such condition... Too much on my mind? Maybe~

Though Robert DeNiro is real cool, i just dont want to pick up his catch pharse, "Are you, talking to me?"

Read through the path of becoming a specialist in dentistry.... really long way to go... Still not sure if my brother is right about going pro.... but nonetheless.... i'll look into the prospect of being one.

Quote of the day,

"You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period." - Will Smith, The pursuit of Happiness

My current situation: SNAFU.
and my condition: FUBAR.
(if you're interested you can try searching Wikipedia for meaning, but i'd recommend you not to.)
I need some drive to take me on.

Reason of life?

Who am I?

Or more appropiately, What am I?

What is a soul? Nothing more than sparking electric impulse and chemical neurotransmitter?

My body is just constituted from Carbon and Nitrogen based compound, what's so special about it?

What makes me unique?

If I had the time to do an interview with God, I'm sure I'll have plenty to ask.

Still in search of myself and my life.


Zapping back to reality, today is nothing more than an ordinary day.

The consequences of the below-par clinical skills appear to float by now... On crisis management situation each day in clinic.

Have you ever seen sick people that glow? Met one patient with Liver cirrhosis.... the bilirubin level is so high in blood that she seems to glow with a faint yellow fluorescence under her skin.... horrible~

Still struggling with the SPSS and statistics..... who on earth wrote the SPSS programme, i'm sure he's (in all means sex discriminating, only the stupid guy can write something so user-unfriendly) a geek....

Quite fond of myself in formal suit~ Agree with what my friend Sally suggested, "If a guy cant look decent in a suit, he's doomed." Luckily I'm not that type~

Nothing's better than a refreshing nap.... I dont care about anything else, just sleep whenever i want to~ Tomorrow is my free day!!!

Shall write later~

Bloody Monday.

Today, it's just not my day.

Have been influenced too much by the role Hugh Grant played in "About a Boy".... Suddenly want to isolate myself from the children.... they're just the Factor-X in my life, the unpredictable...

What's the point of revision when you can not do a single thing on that child?

Worst still... it's really unpleasant being puke onto....

Mood spoiler for the whole day....

I miss my key skill exam.

Pursuit of Happiness

Really longed to watch this movie.

I found the title really interesting... Happiness... how to find them?

"Nothing you do can make a person happy, he has to do it for himself."
- Hugh Grant, About a boy.

That gives me some enlightenment.

Seize the time, Seize the day.

I had a great day today, and you?