Friend of Foe?

Rough, rough sleeping lately... constantly haunted by dreams... they are such a nightmare that keep me up whole night, or sometimes, they're sweet but i wake in the middle of the dream to see the cruel reality, that's when i almost go demented...

Received a rather unusual summon by my tutor.... he has referred me a case (originally handled by a junior of mine) with management problem..... I really cant judge his motive.... whether he is confidence in my patient management skills or is he just finding a scapegoat such that later he can put all the blame on me? I really cant tell...... All i want to do is to finish the case real fast and get him discharged from my patient care pool.....

Paid a visit to grandpa today, he seems quite okay but we're still worried over his condition.... how tiny human beings are....

Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Lies.

Liar Liar... Jim Carrey

情迷大話王... 黎明

Proof is everything
because
Seeing is believing.

就是愛你 - 陶吉吉

我 一直都想對你說
你給我想不到的快樂
像綠洲給了沙漠

說 你會永遠陪著我
做我的根 我翅膀
讓我飛 也有回去的窩

我願意 我也可以
付出一切 也不會可惜
就在一起 看時間流逝
要記得我們相愛的方式

就是愛你愛著你 有悲有喜
有你 平淡也有了意義
就是愛你愛著你 甜蜜又安心
那種感覺就是你

All Blank.

Sorry for not writing here for the few days counting... everytime i wanted to start writing i just feel confused.... too much has happened in such short time and i could hardly accept them all...

Finally got my Aquamarine bracelet.... however... it is still waiting for its master...

It's so easy to run into people you know in CB.... just start thinking and there he/she goes, right in front of your eyes..... heard that my friends are not doing all too well lately.... just wish them luck and take care.

Gave tutorial on Sunday and created a whole lot of problems afterwards.... I'm willing to rectify the problem but i just dont know how...

Started to feel ill on Sunday night...

I believed my friends would agree that i am a person who rank friendship before romantic relationship... but this time, i might have to fail you... I'm going to do utmost, even to sacrifice, in order to maintain the relationship... it's a tough decision... but i have made up my mind.

Cold War.

學不會 - 吳克群

故事結束那天 天氣是怎樣的美
現在的我沒有感覺
你在我的世界 來去自由的飛
翅膀揮舞著我的傷悲
我還陷在裡面 你早已投入另外情節

在我心裡 藏著一種美
是我永遠都無法告別
你的笑容 好像還沒完全
故事卻急著走到完結
還來不及學會
有些事我永遠都學不會

學不會 望著你而沒有感覺
學不會 忽視你的美
學不會 翻故事最後一頁
學故事裡的狼狽 無聲頹廢 我學不會

在我心裡 藏著一種美
是我永遠都無法告別
撕去故事裡的最後一頁
假裝一切都還沒完結

還來不及學會
有些事我永遠都學不會
學不會

AGM

Once again, I have put myself in another AGM situation.

Both liked it and hated it... the good thing about AGM is that it really bond the whole 'chong' together... that'll be some of their own collaborative memories, so precious.... it also give me the kind of pressure to drive me to do better, for i know i cant fail their expectations.... it is exactly this commitment giving me my drive and appetite for success....

But on the other hand. I hated the AGM so much that at some point of my life i have even sworn that i will never get involve in any one of them again (probably when i had just chaired serveral GMs or being the Returning Officer non stop for days...) What i dislike is the atmosphere when people are not trying to discuss, but to blame. It's always the easy part to lay a finger on somebody's else work and said improvements can be made..... but frankly.... can you do a better job when you're in charge? Do you really "THINK" you can do better than the one you're laying blame on? Grow up people... you're just naive and blind.

I always take AGM as a theater... the sheung chong need to 'act' in order to teach the next chong and when the sheung chong need to give excuses to their sheung chong as well..... okay, if you say this is the tradition, then it's okay... but mostly people are just over exploiting this occassion as a stage for him/her to show how superior he/she is than you.... it's not really meant to be like that.

As previously mention... AGM is just an act... what you see, what you hear may not be the complete picture of the fact (i didnt say they're lies though)..... they are just the 'script'.... script that keep its auidence happy..... for seeing is believing.... however... there are far more behind a report.... I've lost the momentum even to debate with them my decision for i knew things that they dont.... i'd rather keep it to myself... saying sorry for things that you havent done wrong is hard, but it's a more convenient way than to argue with all the people there~

Started feeling growing up for one more time....

I have not, in my previous entries, express my gratitudes towards the ADOC chongmates.... though we have conflicts and even fights during the preparation period, I truly regard all of you as brothers and sisters of mine.

Thanks Horace, for your patience and easiness;
Thanks Hon Ki, for your leadership;
Thanks Chow Fai, for your dedication;
Thanks Creamy, for your drive to perfection;
Thanks Jacky, for your encouragments;
Thanks Jo, for your constant flow of ideas;
Thanks Kai, for your planning.

Most important of all, We Have Made It. Without anyone of you all these will not be Possible. Thank You.

Congratulations for offically stepping down for the post.

"能愛著你　不怕寂寞
為你失眠都不錯"
為你失眠 - 吳日言

Looking forward.

Went browsing the Hong Kong Dental Council webpage.... found my sister's entry in the registered dentist..... When will the same happen to me?

Missing my dear sister~

愛是傻得起

Suddenly.... missing the the previous me... the kind of single-minded, and the ability to do things according to what i think is right.... am i... really different after all these years?

Very impressed by the notes i made in year 1... i still find them useful up till this day... If i can do it then, i am sure i can do it now (more appropiately speaking... I MUST)

Once again.... back to a state when i no longer care about how the people sees me... that's their own business..... all i cared is me and the people i love.... that's it.

"In times of sadness and misery, from you eyes, I can always find faith and hope out of them."

愛是傻得起 - 黎明

大家不知結果　害怕甚麼

誰人若然被愛過　如何未曾受傷過
誰亦為執著結果　最後也賺到經過

來吧若然共我　險也冒過　不怕愛得傻
難道互相研究
過來日才能渡過恩愛十年　會避免差錯
就算青春消磨　曾經快樂過　別辨認因果

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

承認舊時極好勝　還是舊時沒本領
懷念舊戀人笑聲　領會愛是個心境

談情在乎任性　想要盡慶不要太聰明
從未望到墓誌銘
誰又明白共你可會白頭　趁現世高興
為你一刻激情　無需靠悟性　任命運註定

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

愛是傻得起　或者只因跟你也受過傷才一起　
也許一世壯麗也為你瞬間嫵媚　
還是你發覺肯憎我才一起　

就算你要我講你沒人可比　
或者早知跟你註定痛苦才一起　
再吃苦都會快樂過得不到你　
要有貪嗔愛恨才一起　忘掉道行我偏愛定你

Sedentary....

Becoming more and more lazy these days... this is no good.

I wanna meet my friends soon~

Kawaii patient~

She's in her best dress...

Brining alone my favourite item when she came to see me this morning...

She's a patient of mine.

When i hold her hand... I was so nevous...

When she kissed me on my cheek... i melt....

When she said goodbye... my heart broke....

Who is this lady??

Wa Ha Ha..... she's my lovely 5 years-old paedo patient... never imagine she'd bring a Stitch doll with her to the dental chair... that really cheer me up~ Must study harder in Paedo..... for they are really lovely~

It's time to get serious finally.... i can feel the heat and the tense atmosphere. "Trust in thyself." That's what i believed.

........... Where are you now?

離人節 - 蔡依林

在我們的故事　寫下結局前　
請你　聆聽最後尾奏的音樂
幸福漸遠　心跳漸弱　
回音在休止符後停留了　好久

當每一個當下　變成過去後　　
自由　也許是離人們的折磨　
在狂歡時寂寞　從絕望裡復活　　
才明白愛會隨時間　逐漸成熟

從那一天　原諒你的瞬間
我不過情人節　我和未來不再相戀　
愛斷了線　於是我每天都過想你的離人節　
不再見面不代表我　不再對你想念
你是曾經的永遠　會永遠在我身邊

Finally.... It's over.

The Faculty of Dentistry, Annual Dinner 2006 has ended.

Finally.... It's over....

No longer have to work nonstop through out the night or wake in the middle of a short nap just not to miss an important call....

Finally....

Though with flaws in the programme and conflicts among the OCs..... but in the end, we have really enjoyed the event (but not the food though.... coz we're all too busy working.... didnt really taste the food there) and put on a good show..... that's what matters.

Touched when finally taking polaroid with OCs..... feels like time freezes and the best part of the night is forever engraved in my memory.

The lovely crystal now sitting on my desk shall remind me of the work and tears behind all these~

For now the work is finally over.... i can really spent some time to think and do things that i think is worthy..... leave alone what the others think.

Spent the day clean my room.... If i cant take good care of myself... how can others expect i can take care of them?

奇洛李維斯回信 - 薛凱琪

我不難過... 可以嗎?

真的...受傷了...

"我搞不懂　我們到底怎麼了
誠實的背後　是否住著傷口
我想不透　我們的愛怎麼了
雨下過以後　是否能讓什麼復活"
我們怎麼了 - S.H.E.