Duties.

Sick, but i am not going to fall yet.

For i know i am not alone. I cant let people to worry about me.

Chow Fai, Horus: Remember what we have talked tonight, have faith, we'll get there. It's my greatest honour to have known you two in my dental life.

PS. Want to study more than ever, i still have my patient to take care of.

Love & Obligation

Probably the last weekend i'll ever waste again.

Slept till late afternoon on Saturday.

Visited by the 'old ghost' of my floor later that night..... fun and early tea altogether.

Spent the sleeping time chatting with Kennon, Thanks for all the inspiration on how i view love.... Love & Obligation.... interesting thoughts.... you're just so charming that if someday (tho very unlikely to happen) i go gay, i'm sure i'll find you as my companion ^^ (probably coz we're the same kind of person, maybe?)

Sunday.... still in holiday mood..... finally cleaning up my room for what's soon going to happen.... Chaos~

Is a little sick right now.... but i feel good after 37:50.... concern.

Shall sleep now and probably write later~

PS. Janice, glad to know you're coming back soon.

PS2. Song of the day:

浪漫手機 - 周杰倫

輕輕放　我就是卸不下對妳的喜歡
原來愛會慢慢增加重量
想關上這城市所有的燈光
黑暗中專心聞妳的髮香

這夜晚　讓暗戀很有畫面感　回想
與妳約會過的地方　都捨不得刪
在腦海裏儲存欣賞

妳微笑瀏覽　手機裏的浪漫
原來真心送出愛是這麼簡單
溫習螢幕上　妳可愛的模樣
關於緣份的解釋我又多傳了一行

妳微笑瀏覽　手機裏的浪漫
原來愛情可以來的這麼突然
短信的橋樑　將曖昧期拉長
我們的感情蔓延滋長
用文字培養　在虛擬土壤

電視牆　吵雜的情歌還在拼命播放
我安靜在鬧區等來電鈴響
有一些話打好了卻不敢傳
怕收到信息的妳在為難

街道上　人潮襯托我的孤單　想像
誰幸運的陪在妳身旁　卻誤會一場
妳也在等妳手機響

妳微笑瀏覽　手機裏的浪漫
原來真心送出愛是這麼簡單
溫習螢幕上　妳可愛的模樣
關於緣份的解釋我又多傳了一行

妳微笑瀏覽　手機裏的浪漫
原來愛情可以來的這麼突然
短信的橋樑　將曖昧期拉長
我們的感情蔓延滋長
用文字培養　在虛擬土壤

Special

Finally, for once, i feel myself special today.

Early Friday morning, while i am just about to sleep, Kathy and Jon ask me out.... to LKF.... have no reason to resist for these 2 are the best friend of mine (and they need me on this occassion)... been introduced to one special drink, Absinthe..... try to look it up in wiki, that's pretty cool....

Spent the night chatting in a park near Lan kwai fong.... something near SOHO... it's such a special place that it's a great retreat from such a crowded area..... and interestingly there are nobody except the few of us..... had a bizarre feeling when lying on the spinning merry-go-round and watch the sky.... everything around you just seems to go away from you... but then when you stop, when you get back to reality, it's like a re-birth......

Had McDonald breakfast before heading to hall.... "A good morning starts with McDonald's morning'.... that's pretty true.... and i have a special combination of food.... whenever i have Filet-O-Fish with Sausage Muffin with Egg.... good luck seems to come.....

Barely slept for few hours before heading to school at 2.

Yet again, doubt my ability to become a good dentist... how possible can i be so stupid as to miss such an important clinical finding on the radiograph when i am in my year 2??? (i must admit this sentence is a bit too long, some punctations might make things better.... have been reading the book "Eat, shoots and leaves" by Lynne Truss on these few days... it's really a brilliant, educational book)..... Anyways.... the problem has been rectified and done a good job on the case today....

Spent the evening at home.... afterall, my home are not that bad......

Special event.... watched the "Da Vinci Code" in a special cinema in a special time.... special occassion... eno laiceps a htiw

Bought a 'mouse' back to hall... just realize myself is a mouse in chinese calender, however, if i were a mouse, i am a mouse who love cat ^^ 2 in a row, synchronized? special?

Had a wonderful late dinner, enjoyed a nice chat.... i start to miss mum right now...

Fall in love with the snacks from Muji.

Um..... time for me to be serious on study again... i shall enjoy a good sleep and start revision, wish me luck. And a Sweet goodnight to you all.

PS. Currently listening: Southern all stars - Tsuami/蘇永康 - 其實我很擔心

PS2. Unbearable pain comes from heart, instead of body.... and i knew it tonight... perhaps, before...

Mood swings.

Everything's back on track again.

Mood is good.

Wednesday, learned how to do a very esthetic composite crown for patient (just realize how adapted i have become when handling hand piece, i'd rather use it than to use a pair of scissors to do the fine adjustments....)

Dinner with dad. Study till very late that night....

Thursday, um... both good and bad mood appears. Glad that i have finally finished the 48BO amalgam with the help and advice i got from the tutors..... Unhappy because i realize i can not do it on my own.... must improve myself....

No study today...

Start to envy those who have finished their exams.... i wish i can be one of you.

傻瓜~

I'm such a fool.

Got my mind so jinxed up over the last few days... simply because of something that i 'predicted' will happen.... and now i found out it's all not true.... should have my mind focused on my study again.

Um... spent a non-productive day today.... how come every book i read seems never-ending? When can i finish them all?

Once again got the habit of browsing people's xanga again, dunno if they'll read mine here, but anyways, just a few random messages for them.

Winnie: True that a person can be fragile sometimes, but c'est la vive, we're just here to live our life fully, and we leave no regret when we leave.

Samson and Shirlin: Congratulations, all your pics are great.

WUS chongmates: Exam is soon over, wish you all the best with the result and we shall meet again very soon

Dental classmates: Exam's approaching.... Study + Study + Study.....

Jeff: Too bad you're not coming back for the World Cup, missed the days in Lantau... anyways lets find some time for a chat maybe.... btw, it seems that i dont have your contact in the states, mind sending it to me via email or whatsoever?

Alright, i guess it's almost time for me to sleep now.... shall write again soon.

PS. Still failed to find a song for my mood....

Bit by bit...

Dentistry is an art.... not only am i meaning the hand craft involved in making a good (both functional and aesthetic) restoration.... but also in terms of the treatment planning procedure.... there can be many ways in making the patient feel better about their dentition, say, for a lost teeth, you can offer him/her with implants, bridges, dentures or even no treatment at all... same as the decision to each diseased tooth.... whether to keep it or not.... how best to restore it.... or what to do about it after extraction..... all these are considerations to be made by the dentist.... tough choice, and it would probably take forever for the dentist to learn about all these...... (but interesting i have exam on this treatment planning part when i am in my year 2..... really doubt what i know about all these at that time....)

Slept for long on monday after the morning clinic....

Woke at night and dedicated the time in studies.....

Bought a new file with a very lovely image of kitten on it.... gonna bring it to school from now on....

PS. Jeff, church are not bad in nature, at least they inspired millions in doing good things, and consider the fact that currently many regard it as the centre of their life, they have the very reason to exist. I kind of understand what you're thinking (probably me and you are the same type of person, for me, i dont believe in Jesus as well, i think he really did walk on this earth and i didnt deny his influence as a political and religious leader, however, regarding his divine identity, i still bear some doubts... what it wrote in Dan Brown's "Da Vinci Code" is very much close to what i am thinking now...) nevermind.... it's probably a long story, but you feel like wanna chat about it, please do... i'd like to see how you think about it as well. (i dont want to spark a religious debate here, so i'd ask people not to post comment regarding this issue here)

PS2. Failed to find a song to represent my mood right now.....

Study day.

Spent my whole day studying in the 3/F.

Still with lots to go.

Picking up the habit in browsing people's Xanga... reading it over and over again then i start to digest what is the exact meaning behind every pharse, every verse or every word.... that's a hell of work and most of the time the effort is just futile..... no.... i dont want to guess no more..... i just cant keep doing that as it's soon driving me nuts.....

I must not think too much for the moment... closer, further, let the fate to decide... "the wheel of destiny has started rolling, and there is no turning back"

I guess i will soon have a rupture heart.

Pain.

Feel painful.

Dunno where it started.
Just let it hide in the deepest corner of my heart.

Convince me, everything can go unchanged, cant they?
But do i want a change or not?

Clarity

No patient on Friday doesnt mean it's a free day for me.... finally reading through all my patient record, laughing at my own naivity and stupidness when doing treatment planning..... have planned better for the future.... sometimes, you just need a break when things seemed like overwhelming.....

Had dinner with family that night..... so much fun, and my young cousins are as cute as before~

Joined Horus, Chow Fai, Chiu, Andy, Dustin and Hon Ki for a drink later that night..... what a dental update night....

My mind in a unpreceeded acuity when the night is over... thought so much about religion, self identity and philosophy.... of coz i must thank Horus and Chow Fai for their enlightenment....

About to have the chance to chat with them again, i'm now leaving for the superpass dinner with them again~ Shall write again soon.

PS. Just found out Corrinne May has released a new albume, "Safe in a crazy world".

Unease

Mood in a record low today.

Cooked a not-so-good-tasting congee for the breakfast.... (but one good side, i finally realized for how long i havent talked to mum)

Was totally exhausted in the afternoon.... treating patient.... things could have done better.

Slept in the afternoon.

Once again... fate is inescapable... i hope you well.