Work...

Finally.... the canteen is back.... should be able to have some decent meal at work soon.

Got a bad name for things that I didnt even do.... I only took over this unit for 5 months, not 5 years.... gosh.

Once again.... ran tonight.... feeling good.

我還想她

Cant sleep.

Cant sleep now... too much on my mind now.

New boss arrive tomorrow... once again, it's a make or break chance.... must grab it well with my own hands.

Got a couple of tricky cases this few days.... glad to have learned something new.

Went for a jog afterwork.... it's feeling good... though it rained while half way but I feel the rain is so cleansing... it reminded me of the day when I was in University, once again in such misery, I jogged to the cyberport and came across the heaviest rain of my life yet.... I was soaked went and even my mobile was drowned...

Maybe... I can now live without mobile, can I?

There's no one left to call.

Thanks Eason.

Thank you Eason.... you sang my words.

旅行的意義

NCO dinner

This two days had been great.

Nothing too much, nothing pressing, nothing to worry with no boss around...

Can really sit down and think.... career, work, family.... can have time to talk to my staff one on one with ease...

Glad to have some rotation in my staff... an experienced staff will go soon.... but his replacement, though junior, was a nice guy too....

Had a dinner with all my NCO last night afterwork.... chat, drink, laughters... This is a very different social context than the days I had in University or highschool... different people with different rank and age.... but what's important, we all belonged to the same team, all striving towards the same goal, now where is the difference?

It's an wonderful night.

如果你的男朋友是警察

他工作的時候接不了你的電話，請不要怪他， 稍有不慎就可能發生狀況，他面對的是自己及民眾的生命，

他忙的時候回不了妳的訊息，請不要怨他， 他可能正在追捕逃犯或是救護傷患，

他累的時候冷漠不語，請不要與他吵架， 他可能因突然變更的勤務時間打亂了休息時間，腦神經已緊繃一整天，

他可能在崗哨站了十幾個小時 , 他可能剛剛遇到了棘手的案子，

他煩的時候，請不要與他計較， 可能他遇到的案件不是那麼容易能處理 , 唯一能讓他放鬆心情的人只有妳，

他悲傷流淚的時候，請耐心的安慰他， 他面對了太多所謂的人情冷暖，他見過了太多所謂的世態炎涼， 他絕不是冷酷無情，也絕不是遭遇太多而沒有了感覺， 而是他不能在別人面前哭， 他為了能讓工作順利進行， 他必須學會獨立，學會冷靜思考應對各種狀況， 但唯有面對妳，他才能流淚， 因為妳才是唯一那個能讓他感覺最能放下疲勞緊繃的心及依靠的情人。

妳生病的時候他不能在妳身旁照顧妳，請不要怪他， 除了父母，他是唯一那個最擔心妳的人， 哪怕只是一個小小的噴嚏，他也會擔心， 但是他的工作是去幫助那些更多需要幫助的人， 他們把所有的希望都放在了他的身上， 他巴不得自己能像漫畫裡的主角一樣，能變出兩個自己，這樣兩邊都能照顧， 所以他只要有時間一定會在妳身旁照顧妳,

慶假日沒法陪妳的時候，請體諒他， 民眾都在放假，但是警察不能放假， 他要時時刻刻站好自己的崗位，做好自己的本分， 給更多人能夠享受生命，享受節慶假日的快樂， 其實他何嘗不想陪在妳身旁與妳一起度過那美好時光 ，

他不能在紀念日陪妳渡過的時候，請諒解他的苦衷， 他的工作時常不能允許他準時下班，突來的工作更讓他更無所適從， 他也只能聽從，只能習慣經常調動的工作時間。


妳休息時他在工作，妳上班時他仍在工作，請不要抱怨， 其實他最想念的人就是妳，每日想妳千次萬次， 不時打開手機內翻閱與妳互傳的甜蜜簡訊， 這是他無法陪伴在你身旁唯一能夠想妳、念妳的事， 一旦他有時間即使犧牲自己的休息時間也會去看妳，

在妳工作的時候為了不影響妳， 只能在妳看不到的角落偷偷望著妳， 然後傳個簡訊或者打通電話， 告訴妳他好愛妳，好想妳，今天的妳真漂亮， 即便不敢開口仍是說上幾句衣服要多穿一點，一定要好好吃飯， 不要因為工作累壞了身體，我不能時刻在你身旁照顧妳請妳原諒 …

如果妳的男朋友是警察， 請妳嘗試學著去理解，去體諒，去寬容... 畢竟他也經常被人誤解，被人甩臉色， 但他只要想著你，一切一切也無所謂了， 請試著包容他有時候的倔脾氣， 他需要發洩來平衡自己， 他是有心的人不可能讓自己永遠流淚，永遠接受委屈。 妳是他唯一能夠撒嬌，妳是他唯一什麼都不用顧忌傾訴心底話的情人， 妳是他的女朋友，妳是他的精神支柱。

如果妳的男朋友是警察， 請不要嫌棄他粗糙的雙手， 請真心的呵護，當基層員警的身體也不是很好， 工作上無形的壓力和辛苦，日夜顛倒的工作時間，使他的外表及內心更加憔悴。

不要以為他總是能開心的面對每件事，不要以為他總是能微笑的承受他人的冷嘲熱讽， 實際上緊繃的工作重擔，時常更動的工作時間，使他承受了身體和心裡的雙重壓力， 長時間所的工作以及焦慮，所累積的緊繃心情使他比一般人更容易憔悴，更容易生病。

不要抱怨他好似不再細心體貼的關心妳，呵護妳， 請真心的愛護，因為他最愛的人是妳。 長期晝夜顛倒的工作時間把他的生活作息全部打亂， 打亂了妳與他的相處時間，也打亂了他的身體健康， 每每他下了夜班，妳曾否仔細看過他的臉色？

請不要嘲笑他越來越深的黑眼圈，越來越白的鬢角，請真心疼惜， 他的工作不分晝夜，每一分、每一秒鐘都是不閉眼死盯下來的，別人可以睡覺可是他不能...

如果你的男朋友是警察， 請妳仔細看著他憔悴的樣子， 如果真的愛他，請好好珍惜他，關心他， 學著去珍惜，學著去關心，學著為他心疼。

Give double effort with the price of one.

I can't believe it myself too.... It's now almost one at night.... and I have officially worked way more than half day today.... but I just left the office for home..... the idea of staying in the station crossed my mind for a second before my reasoning kicks in saying I forgot my sleeping bag at home.....

Well.... something's wrong wiht me....

It's been somewhile since I write here.... I still remembered the days when I use to vent my anger or express my views on this blog... now.... I'm doing this over again.

Life was normal.... working an A shift.... nothing too much, cleared most case already on today... Files had been piling up from the day I left Hong Kong for Korea.... it's now payback time....

Was kept busy on file work that I hardly have time to patrol this two days.... must work hard in order to go out and explore.

Attended to a workshop on positive emotions, it couldnt have come in a better time.... learned of new skills and philosophy in keeping myself up.... but will it work? I am a very good testing subject at this moment.

Worked hard on a dangerous drug case.... first time to amend charge and liaise with court prosecutor.... though my staff had prepared all (what they think was correct) documents for my signature... I found I am a bit of perfectionist.... I wont accept anything less than my standard... So i worked hard when everybody else was off and figured out some new functions and procedures that shall help me with future case handling... When I finally dispatch the file away, I felt a sense of happiness and pride at that time.... It's a good feeling.

It's my boss farewell dinner tonight.... It's good to have such an occassion to hang out once in a while.... Met my new boss tonight for the first time.... she seems serious enough... I dont know... on one hand she's the kind of boss that's on the rise and is willing to adopt new ideas.... on otherhand she will not settle for less... I can already see myself working non stop in the forseeable time.... I dont know it's a blessing or curse, I will just live this change.

Farewell to boss. Good luck in the new post.

PS. My big boss told me I am a INTJ person.... the scientist? quite true.

應該漠不關心 然而還著緊...





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